The Beginning of Everything: The Year I Lost My Mind and Found Myself

Written by Andrea J. Buchanan

Narrated by Andrea J. Buchanan

A PEN / E.O. Wilson Literary Science Writing Award Finalist

A real-life neurological mystery and captivating story of reinvention by the New York Times bestselling author of The Daring Book for Girls.

Andrea Buchanan lost her mind while crossing the street one blustery March morning. The cold winter air triggered a coughing fit, and she began to choke. She was choking on a lot that day. A sick child. A pending divorce. The guilt of failing as a partner and as a mother. When the coughing finally stopped, she thought it was over. She could not have been more wrong.

When she coughed that morning, a small tear ripped through her dura mater, the membrane covering the brain and spinal cord. But she didn’t know that yet. Instead, Andrea went on with her day, unaware that her cerebrospinal fluid was already beginning to leak out of that tiny opening.

What followed was nine months of pain and confusion as her brain, no longer cushioned by a healthy waterbed of fluid, sank in her skull. At a time in her life when she needed to be as clear-thinking as possible—as a writer, as a mother, as a woman attempting to strike out on her own after two decades of marriage—she was plagued by cognitive impairment and constant pain, trapped by her own brain―all while mystifying doctors and pushing the limits of medical understanding.

In this luminous and moving narrative, Andrea reveals the astonishing story of this tumultuous year―her fraught search for treatment; how patients, especially women, fight to be seen as reliable narrators of their own experiences; and how her life-altering recovery process affected both her and her family.

The mind-brain connection is one of the greatest mysteries of the human condition. In some folklore, the cerebrospinal fluid around the brain is thought to be the place where consciousness actually begins. Here, in the pages of The Beginning of Everything, Andrea seeks to understand: Where was “I” when I wasn’t there?

• Language: English
• Publisher: Brilliance Audio
• Release date: May 7, 2019
• ISBN: 9781721349005

Andrea J. Buchanan

Andrea Buchanan is the mother of a daughter and a son, both of whom are equally daring. Before she was a writer, she was a pianist who once performed a solo concert at Carnegie Hall's Weill Recital Hall. This is her fifth book. Miriam Peskowitz is the mother of two girls, including an eight-year-old who climbs trees and leads spy missions in the backyard. She has been a camp counselor, an historian, a blogger, a musician, a professor, and is the author of several books, including The Truth Behind the Mommy Wars.

Reviews for The Beginning of Everything

[akinyiaao · Rating: 5 out of 5 stars]

Enjoyed it, real captivating story of overcoming adversity and emerging whole.

[michael mayster · Rating: 5 out of 5 stars]

My sister has had a csf leak for 6 months and i loved your book. You are an extraordinary writer and while I encourage my 57 year old sister to listen to your audiobook she refuses until she believes she will get better. I speak to her about what Andrea went through because I feel I know you like a brother

[Trish Mannix · Rating: 2 out of 5 stars]

Well written and well read. Though it held my attention almost to the end eventually the deep introspection became a little tedious.