When Will I Stop Hurting?: Dealing with a Recent Death
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Since its 1987 release, When Will I Stop Hurting? has received praise like this from readers grateful for June Cerza Kolf's understanding and beneficial guidance. With almost 70,000 copies in print, this small but powerful book has been a boon to many wounded souls. Readers have found in Kolf a gentle guide to lead them through the stages of grief and eventually the healing process. This new edition of her book is revised and updated and includes a study guide ideal for bereavement groups.
June Cerza Kolf
June Cerza Kolf has worked in hospice care for years, teaches grief seminars, and conducts grief recovery sessions. She is the author of several books and lives in Quartz Hill, California.
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When Will I Stop Hurting? - June Cerza Kolf
When Will I
Stop Hurting?
When Will I
Stop Hurting?
Dealing with a Recent Death
June Cerza Kolf
© 1987, 2001 by June Cerza Kolf
Published by Baker Books
a division of Baker Book House Company
P.O. Box 6287, Grand Rapids, MI 49516-6287
www.bakerbooks.com
Fourth printing, January 2005
Printed in the United States of America
All rights reserved. No part of this publication may be reproduced, stored in a retrieval system, or transmitted in any form or by any means—for example, electronic, photocopy, recording—without the prior written permission of the publisher. The only exception is brief quotations in printed reviews.
Library of Congress Cataloging-in-Publication Data is on file at the Library of Congress, Washington, D.C.
ISBN 0-8010-6385-X
Scripture quotations are from The Living Bible, © 1971. Used by permission of Tyndale House Publishers, Inc., Wheaton, IL 60189. All rights reserved.
All the names have been changed and situations have been disguised so as to not inflict any pain on my friends, family, business associates, or the bereavement group.
To my daughters,
their husbands,
and my grandchildren,
whose unconditional love,
patience, support, practical assistance, compassion,
and understanding have been endless.
Contents
Preface
Acknowledgments
1 The Wound
The Symptoms of Grief
Feelings of Guilt
Forgiveness
The Duration of Grief
Dealing with Memories
Holidays
The Sense of Loss
2 The Flood
The Stages of Grief
1. Shock
2. Sighing
3. Crying
4. Anger
5. Depression
Insomnia
Problems with Appetite
Taking Care of Yourself
Facing the Pain
Making Decisions
Laughter
Support
3 The Rainbow
The Healing Process
Letting Go of Grief
Dealing with Paperwork
Asking for Help
The Final Stage of Grief—Acceptance
1. Growing
2. Reaping
3. Reaching Out
Grief Exercises
Notes
For Further Reading
Preface
When I originally wrote this book, my children were almost raised, and I had prayed for a useful way to spend my time. My hospice work came about as the result of a string of unusual circumstances, and I knew it had to be none other than God’s choice for me to pursue it. I found the work rewarding and fulfilling. The bereavement portion of my job came so naturally that I began to concentrate more time and effort in that area, and it resulted in this book and several others.
At the time I began my work, all my family members were alive and healthy. However, during the first year at my job, I lost three close relatives and my best friend. I was suddenly surrounded with intense losses, both at home and at work. It continued that way for several years.
I retired
from my career when my husband retired from his thirty-plus years at NASA. We spent the next few years primarily traveling around the U.S. or planning the next trip. Four years into our retirement, our journey took a dramatic turn. My husband was diagnosed with bladder cancer, and we began our personal battle against that deadly disease. A year and a half later, after intensive treatment and hospice care, he lost his courageous fight, and I found myself on the path where I had led so many others for all those years.
The question I am asked most frequently is, What would you change in your book now that you’ve personally experienced the death of your husband?
In all honesty, I have to admit there is nothing I would change. At the time I wrote When Will I Stop Hurting?, I said it was God’s book, and I was simply the typist. That fact holds true today. I have reread this book many times since my own loss and use it as my own handbook.
Contrary to what many people have expressed to me, I am not a grief expert,
and it has been no easier for me than anyone else. Because I have the information memorized and can present workshops or feel completely comfortable at funerals does not mean that my heart is any less bruised or battered. Each day is a challenge for all grievers, whether they have spent their career working in the field of death and dying or whether they are experiencing their first brush with death.
I lean heavily on the Lord for strength. I shed abundant tears and call upon my friends and family frequently as I search daily for answers and comfort. Over the years I have watched hundreds of people find their way to new, meaningful lives after the death of a loved one, so I am never without hope.
I am now walking the walk
as I watch the horizon for my very own rainbow.
Acknowledgments
A special thank you to:
The many people who opened the doors of their grief and allowed me to peek inside,
My friends, who supported me during Jack’s illness and the year that followed,
And to God, who chose me to be the typist for his book.
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The Wound
In working with grieving