Phantoms of the Distressed

By Jude Ainaki

This book is about a moment of intense frenzy in my life when I decided to apply for asylum in Canada. My father is Indian and my mother is Saudi. We have lived in Saudi Arabia all of our lives and I had moved to Canada to study. I had developed an eating disorder and intense suicidal thoughts. I also experiences mild auditory and visual hallucinations, and incredibly frightening nightmares.
My refugee claim will most likely be rejected because I have no one in India that will directly hurt me. The Canadian government does not care whether or not I am at risk of harming myself. I will return to Saudi Arabia and try to apply for a visiting visa. If I am rejected, I will go to India and wait there.
I will wait for the love of my life so that we can back pack through India and then South America.
Brycen, I love you.
We sometimes think we are the only sick, twisted ones. But we are not.
I apologize if my readers find the content grotesque. This is what was going through my mind at the time.

• Language: English
• Publisher: Lulu.com
• Release date: Feb 14, 2016
• ISBN: 9781329903142