Storm of Hope
By Leila Tualla
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Storm of Hope: God, Preeclampsia, Depression and me is a memoir told in journal entries and poetry from a mom who was diagnosed with preeclampsia. The diagnosis with her second pregnancy propelled the author into a "postpartum forest where the trees of doubt, sorrow, anger and rage loomed all around me." What becomes to the author and her second baby gives way to hope and a way out of the darkness.
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Storm of Hope - Leila Tualla
Ellie, my little faith
and Ro, my brave cuddle
To the women in my social media support group, whether you are in the Preeclampsia group or the postpartum care group, you ladies were my listening ear, and my comforting hand. Thank you for answering, and uplifting, and motivating, and encouraging, and adding this tired mama to your prayer list. Your words and online presence were my lifeline
........more than you’ll know.
TABLE OF CONTENTS
1 Finding God
2 God and Storms
3 Postpartum Forest
4 Forest and Freedom
5 My Journey, My Truths, and My Story
6 A Question
7 Who am I?
8 Here We Go Again
9 Just a Moment
10 12 Weeks and Saying Hello to Preeclampsia
11 Trying
12 Give and Take
13 One Phone Call Later
14 Remembering What Changed Me
15 Finding Faith in the Uneventful
16 Dear God
17 The Calm Before the Storm
18 Madness
19 Entering the Forest
20 Lies
21 Satan
22 The Voices
23 Madness and Me
24 Darkness Hurts and Light Frightens
25 Torn
26 Thoughts
27 Scars
28 Faces
29 Labels
30 My Testimony
31 Pain is a Pity
32 Side of the Road
33 Forest
34 Baby Blues
35 Life
36 Praying and God
37 How Do I Help You When I’m Drowning?
38 Dear Mom in the NICU
39 34 Years
40 Ablaze
41 Seed
42 One Day
43 Brave
44 Pieces of Faith
45 My Faith
46 My Faith – Part II
47 My Faith – Part III
48 In the Before
49 Freedom
50 The Storm
1
Finding God
When you find God before I do,
tell Him I needed His help a while ago.
2
God and Storms
Why do we only know the reason for the storms
after the damage has been cleaned up?
We wail and beg to God for mercy,
only to realize He was in the center of it all.
3
Postpartum Forest
In my postpartum forest,
shadows of my past create
the canopies above.
Around me, trees thick with
Guilt and Shame.
Its branches extend outward, forming a perimeter.
I am surrounded.
I am both a
Creator of this jungle
and its Prisoner.
Escape is as simple as walking through the leaves,
but even touching the brambles below,
I feel its thorns will cut deep.
I take a step
and make a mad dash out to the clearing.
The clearing is my fail safe.
The exit.
My way out.
But my own laughter taunts me.
Deluding me into believing that escape is
even possible.
This is my reality.
These are my truths.
These are my lies.
Somewhere in this, my postpartum forest.
4
Forest and Freedom
Onward and upward I travel
towards freedom from this forest.
I hear silence but it sounds heavy
and laced with meaning.
Foreboding