Forbidden Chemistry ( Book 9 )

By The Buffness Diaries

Jason Steele Okawmmay, the DIrector at Forest Hospital for those with disabilities is the husband every woman wishes for, prays for, dreams of, and wants! A kind heart, protective and loyal. But, his world is turned upside down when his wife revealed her honest mistakes. For 10 years he lives with the pain and broken heart while trying to make his marriage work. With three young boys together, he faces the reality of self-love. When his best friend brings him along to an event for charity he meets a woman who takes his breath away, Ariel Vinte. With chemistry building between them, they become closer.

Ariel despises those who involve themselves in other's relationships. But, her biggest nightmare has come true. She falls for Jason Okawmmay, a man with hidden secrets that nobody knows, not even his wife. Affairs are oftentimes messy and complicated, will this one turn out the same way when his wife suspects him cheating?

• Language: English
• Publisher: The Buffness Diaries
• Release date: Aug 10, 2020
• ISBN: 9781005153601

The Buffness Diaries

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Forbidden Chemistry

Book 9

Author: TheBuffnessDiaries

Cover Credits: Photo by Pavel Anoshin

©TheBuffnessDiaries

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Review.

First Written: 5/8/2017

First Publish: 8/11/2020

Intro

Theme Song: Love is a Bitch - Two Feet

Love is a Bitch. It slowly pulls you in, wraps you around its spell of sin. I became a woman I always hated. One that would look the other way for selfishness. Enjoy the evilness of her actions. A woman without care during the nights because it felt so good. Looked herself in the mirror every morning and night knowing she was committing a crime that would hurt another woman. Even if that woman was worse than she was.

I became a woman with a Mistress title. Sleeping with him from midnight to 7 in the morning. Listening to his secrets, loving him through his tough shell, hoping we wouldn’t get caught, trying to keep my jealousy for a man who isn’t mine away.

I broke my own rule. To never give a married man the time of day. But, here I am. I’m her. Even if his wife did cheat on him with two different men and had two babies because of it, doesn’t make me a saint. I know I’m wrong, he’s wrong and I know my future will pay for it. Was it worth it? Was this worth the future karma?

I never imagined I’d fall loving a man who couldn’t be mine 25/8. I found myself becoming jealous when he would post her on Facebook, tag her, smile at her statuses, and post their date nights.

I became angry! Pissed that he gave her attention, wouldn’t leave her for his own mental health. Did I want him to leave her for me? NO! I never once felt that and that’s one thing I know I would never feel. He has 3 boys, 3 beautiful children he calls his own. I wouldn’t be the woman I am if I told him to leave it all for me. But, there’s an important question.

Is this true love or lust? I can’t deny how I felt about him when we first met. His thick beard, creamy skin tone, double thumbs, and the expression of dominance on his face that pulled me in. He’s not the typical Buff man I like. But, he became my friend first. My security blanket. Then one night it changed and I lost him. I could no longer tell him things the way I wanted too. I could no longer look at him as a-... I can’t say I looked at him as a brother because that wouldn’t make sense.

But, I can’t deny the feeling I get when we talk. I love hearing his message tone because I know it’s him. I’ll always love you, Jason. Even though it’s over, I love you, sweet man! Thank you for loving me, being a supporter, and always being honest.

How did it end you ask? You’ll see it soon.

XOXO

Chapter 1 | Secrets Told

Jason ( POV )

Lies, betrayal, and sorrow filled the office of our Therapist. Camilla sitting next to me on the red leather couch holding a box of tissue. Our gray-haired Therapist, Susan, looked at us with sympathy and care, but all I wanted was to go home, sleep the day away and wake up for work tonight at 8.

Jason, how are you feeling? She asked me

Angry, dull and frustrated

See, he does this every day! He won't even talk to me!

I do talk to you! If I even come close to talking about what happened you get defensive. You can't take the fucking truth, Camilla! You fucked two other men on me, had their child and had me believing they were mine!

She sobbed staring at our therapist.

Camilla, during a time like this it's important to discuss the pain that your partner is going through because that's the only way you'll both heal. If we only talked about how you're feeling, we're never going to fix the pain that Jason is experiencing right now. It's important with married couples to understand each other, to listen to each other and even when you don't understand, you listen to understand and not listen to respond

He keeps bringing this shit up! I know I messed up, but he once tried to leave. He's the only father figure that they know. It's not fair to them

She's fucking crazy! Fair to them!? Are you kidding me? Have you ever thought about their real father? I'm out here taking care of two other men's children that they know nothing about. You claim that our youngest is mine, do you want a cookie? Two out of three? This isn't a game, you played with my feelings and my heart. I said that I would love you through thick and thin, protect you through it all. But cheating is not one of them! I love them because I raised them for years. Just over the last three years is when I found out they weren't mine! If I decided to walk away, whose fault would that be? It's damn sure not mine. I don't have to keep taking care of them, I choose to because of the man that I am. My only obligation is truly to that youngest boy, I don't have any obligation to the first two, even though the first one is named after me. I can't believe you're turning this on me. Take responsibility for what the fuck you did!

She threw the box at me. Fuck you, Jason!

Yeah, I bet you do!

Okay, let's take a deep breath. Remember why we're here, counseling and therapy. We're here to try and fix the issues within your marriage. I have to ask, Jason do you still love and want to be with her? Do you want this to work? Same question to you Camilla

I love him, he's done so much for our family. I truly love him. The boys love him

Ugh, the fake vomit flowing from her vocal cords.

I can't answer that right now. My feelings don't show love or want towards her. Will this work? I don't know. We've talked about Divorce before, we've talked about moving on. I can't give you an answer right now

He's going to leave my children fatherless

This bitch!

Fatherless? Camilla, I can't wrap my head around your kind of thinking. I can't even- you're a sick woman!

Jason, Camilla. I'd like for you both of you to plan a getaway together. A date night, a time to spend together and reflect on your current relationship status. Find the joy again

Not a chance! I'm only staying for my boys. The young men I've raised.

Chapter 2 | Fathers Love, Broken Eyes

Jason ( POV )

Annual Children's Health Gala.

Every year since my youngest was diagnosed I've attended this event. Watching him express himself differently changed me, changed the way I looked at the world. I'm a father of a child who's been impacted by Autism. Knowing that turns my protective side at 1000! Knowing that one day he'll face the world, a world that's not so kind to those like him. Bullying, misunderstanding, and the idea of him living on his own scares me.

Daddy, look! Matthew shouted pointing at Mickey Mouse

Jr hugged my pant leg with his finger in his mouth and his right hand over his ear. I picked him up kissing his chubby cheeks.

It's okay, buddy. Do you want to go see the hulk?

He smiled. I took that as a yes. Jason is getting better but is still speech delayed. He tells me what he wants with hand movements, sometimes I feel bad if I don't get it right. My firstborn, Curtis was already at the snacks bar eating cookies.

Not too many, your mother won't be happy he rolled his eyes

Curtis, change that... now

Sorry, Dad

Jason Okawmmay! Haven't seen you in years. How's it going?

I turned around to see the Mayor and his wife holding glasses of champagne. Children's event, but get drunk? Smart!

Mr. Branks. It's nice to see you again. How's life been since you've taken office?

Great, son. It's been great. Your sons are here I see. Smart and handsome young men. This little fella, I heard they have a play pin upstairs in the chest room. They copied Chuck E Cheese, but still, it's nice

I chuckled, Thank you

I'll see ya around? Oh, tell your wife hello for us

I nodded, I will

( RING RING )

I checked my phone screen, Camilla was calling.

Hello? I answered

Hi. Uh- when are you going to be back?

We just got here. I don't know, why?

Well, I wanted to go out with some friends

Is she serious? But she couldn't attend this event for our boys?

Do what you want, Camilla

Thanks, Jason

Click.

Dad, can we walk the red carpet too? Curtis asked

Of course, let's go

I walked with my boys to the beginning of the red carpet. Holding Jason in my arms, I managed to get a smile out of him. The first time he's done that in such a huge setting. He pointed to the left side, causing the paparazzi to turn and look. A group of women standing off to the side, nothing unusual.

Jason! How's work? Do you like your new position? A woman shouted from the press

I do, I love it. Thank you

Your boys are handsome!

Jason! We love you! A group of young girls shouted from across the barricade. Apparently, I'm looked at as a handsome doctor, like the ones on TV after a picture of me in scrubs went viral.

Dad, can we go play now?

Yeah, just be careful and stay insight

Matthew and Curtis ran through the doors inside the building. I sat down by the waterfall with Junior.

How are you feeling? I asked him

He mumbled playing with the watch on my wrist. I love you, my sweet boy, daddy will always be here for you no matter what I whispered to him

Daddy he smiled

I love you too

Chapter 3 | Editor In Chief

Ariel ( POV )

How does it feel to be the new Editor in Chief of Paxton Publishing House? My best friend asked

It feels so unreal, I can't believe it. I always wanted this experience, to have this. To have my own position, but to get the opportunity to launch my own magazine? I'm beyond blessed

Carmen hugged me, I'm glad you're still here, babe. I don't know what I would have done if I lost you last month. How do you feel?

Eh- surprisingly I feel good. That was life-changing and I think that it happened for a reason. For me to realize what exactly I have instead of looking at what I don't, just certain issues caused me to do that

I know, honey. But, remember that I'm always here. We all are, just please pick up the phone and call? How's therapy for the trauma going?

Thanks. Uh- fine. I'm not really doing one on one therapy at the moment. Just taking it a day at a time. Sucks being a victim to rape, I hate talking about it. Can we move on?

She smiled, Of course. Oh! The office downtown is throwing a party next weekend at the Ritz! You have to come!

I chuckled, Fine I'll go. But we leave when I wanna?

Deal. Let's finish packing up your old office. You're getting a new one! I'm so happy, can I help decorate? She smirked

Yes, Carmen. Wait, what time is it?

She looked at her watch, Almost 7, why?

Just asking, I wanted to take a walk before it got dark

Okay, let's put these boxes in the car, then we can go?

Thanks

_________

Did he just whistle at you? Carmen bitterly chuckled

It's fine, I'm used to it. How's life been?

No, it's not, Ariel. Men are dogs, I swear. Life is good, I tell you everything she laughed

I know-

What's on your mind? That ex-boyfriend? Your old friendships? Dad? Mom? Who and What?

I smiled, No, it's just- I'm still recovering. I look at things differently, you know? I'm thankful for my life right now, I'm just still recovering

I get it, I do. I'm always here. I want you to always be honest with me no matter what happens, okay? No matter what you feel, tell me. I love you, bestie

I love you too

Carmen proceeded to tell me about her new boy toy. I love hearing other people's stuff, not talking about mine.

What are you doing? I asked

Looking at the guestlist for that event next week. Oh my, god! Look at him! She shouted showing me the phone

What about him?

He's sexy as fuck! Ariel, Tye Roger's? He's a psychologist at Forest Housing

I'm confused...

Okay? And? You think he's sexy, fuck him

I intend on doing that. He's coming to the event next weekend. Shows he has a plus one. Who the fuck is she? I'll take him away

I rolled my eyes at her, Carmen, don't be that girl

She smirked. We shall see. Anyway, how come you don't talk about men anymore?

What do you mean?

Well. I mean I'm used to hearing you talk about buff men all the time. Not for 2 months have you mentioned men at all. Are you a lesbian?

I chuckled, Oh, well I'm not interested in anyone right now. I'm not turned on or interested. I'm kinda turned off from that section of my life. Maybe next year I'll date again

Mmhmm. Well, that ex-boyfriend of yours needs his ass beat for cheating

They all do. Anyway, thanks for walking with me, let's go take the boxes downtown then go home

Okay, I'll come with you home too

This girl! Always stays with me and never at her house.

Chapter 4 | Arguments of Hell

Jason ( POV )

I walked into a messy house with Camilla standing in the foyer.

We need to talk, when are you going to talk to me. Act like we're married?

Where the hell is this coming from!?

She shifted hips staring at me, If you don't want to be married just say so, I'll throw your shit out right now

She's fucking crazy! Throw my shit out!? I pay for all the shit in this bitch! I pay for everything, I take our children everywhere they need to go. What the fuck do you do? You sit around here with your head up your ass acting like the boss of this house. This is MY house! I'm the man of this house, no you, me! You will respect me not only as your husband but your children's father. All the shit you've done and you want to question me and my feelings? Take your ass to be, Camilla

I'm your wife! You discuss things with me before you do them!

I walked into the kitchen filled with anger. Where's dinner? Did you clean at all today? Did you do anything!?

I work, Jason! I bust my ass

That victim mentally is pissing me off!

What's that supposed to mean? That just because you work that means that you don't need to make dinner? You don't have to take care of our children? You don't have to clean the fucking house? What the fuck do you think I do all day? I might get 3 hours of sleep every fucking day. When I get home from working all night I have to take care of our children because your ass is in there sleep which is something I should be doing because I worked all night. I'm pretty much a single father, what the fuck do you do?

She slapped me. "Don't ever undermine me as a mother. I have my own problems, Jason! I