Quit Smoking Express : Momentum: Quit Smoking Express, #1
()
About this ebook
Welcome to the Station! I want to invite you, the nicotine addict, to travel with me on a journey along the landscape of my life...and death. I have a ticket with your name on it, and should you accept my invitation, a window seat right beside me.
The Quit Smoking Express vividly illustrates a world between actual events and metaphorical musings that have served me to overcome my addiction to smoking in an emotional, physical and metaphysical way.
It is through the unusual and unique perspective that I have, once and for all, determined that sharing these stories could offer both hope and inspiration to those who choose to continue to stand on the Platform between smoking and not smoking.
So pack your bags and ride with me! The Train won't leave without you, and I am excited to tell you all the stories that could help you gain the momentum you need to plan your journey away from nicotine addiction.
All Aboard!
Carole Anzolletti
Carole Anzolletti smoked her first cigarette when she was about ten years old, under a row of evergreens on a hill overlooking a farm in Ireland. A couple of years later she took a drag off a friends cigarette in her basement. After that, it was cigarettes that belonged to a neighbor. Then high school began, and the habit grew into full time. No one had any clue about how dangerous and tenacious the habit was; everyone was smoking. When she graduated high school and began art school, she had begun to loathe the pattern enough to start trying to quit. That process went on for another thirteen years. The Quit Smoking Express Series is a testament to her commitment to cultivating a unique perspective for prospective quitters.
Related to Quit Smoking Express
Titles in the series (1)
Quit Smoking Express : Momentum: Quit Smoking Express, #1 Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratings
Related ebooks
Savvy, Sassy and Bold After 50, A Midlife Rebirth Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsI Don't Smoke!: A Guidebook to Break Your Addiction to Nicotine Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsThe Soul's Mirror: Reflections on the Fullness of Life Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsUp from Down: How to Recover from Life-Changing Adverse Events Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsQuit Smoking for Life: A Simple, Proven 5-Step Plan Rating: 1 out of 5 stars1/5Third Year Sobriety: Finding Out Who You Really Are Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5Mental Cleansing: A Guide to Improving Spiritual, Emotional, and Physical Health to Gain Overall Mental Wealth. Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsWhy You Smoke Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsThe Easiest Way to Stop Smoking: Finding the Way That Works Best for You Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsHow To Kick Bad Habits Out Of Your Life! Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsGetting Unstuck: 7 Steps to Freedom Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsQuit Smoking: My Way the Slow Way Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsReflections On Freedom: Daily Meditations On The Steps Of Recovery Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsI'm Done Being Broken Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsChick: Lister Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsHealthy Healing: A Guide to Working Out Grief Using the Power of Exercise and Endorphins Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5I Have an Alcoholic Parent. Now What? Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsCommunicating with the World Unseen: The Autobiography of a Spiritualist Medium Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsLeaving Crazy Town: My True Journey Through Severe Mental Illness into Complete Mental Health. Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsThe Secret Art of Happiness: Change Your Life With the Reiki Ideals Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsConfessions of a Self-Care Junkie: A Woman's Journey to Loving Herself and Living Free Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsWiley Concise Guides to Mental Health: Substance Use Disorders Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsDrugs Do Not Discriminate Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsGod's Joyful Surprise: Finding Yourself Loved Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsThe 6 Steps to Breaking Through Your Issues and Becoming a NY Times Bestselling Author Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsLearn From Your Addictions Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsThrough My Eyes Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsBe Free Here & Now: The Art of Universal Living Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsPause, Reset, and Recharge: A Self-Compassion Guide for Mindful Recovery Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratings
Body, Mind, & Spirit For You
The Egyptian Book of the Dead: The Complete Papyrus of Ani Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5The Secret History of the World Rating: 3 out of 5 stars3/5Don't Believe Everything You Think: Why Your Thinking Is The Beginning & End Of Suffering Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5The Game of Life and How to Play It: The Complete Original Edition Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Think and Grow Rich (Illustrated Edition): With linked Table of Contents Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5It Starts with Self-Compassion: A Practical Road Map Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5As A Man Thinketh: Three Perspectives Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Wild at Heart Expanded Edition: Discovering the Secret of a Man's Soul Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Shadow Work: Face Hidden Fears, Heal Trauma, Awaken Your Dream Life Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Mediocre Monk: A Stumbling Search for Answers in a Forest Monastery Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5Practicing the Power of Now: Essential Teachings, Meditations, and Exercises from the Power of Now Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Experiencing God (2021 Edition): Knowing and Doing the Will of God Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5The Game of Life And How To Play It Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5The Hidden Messages in Water Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5ATOMIC HABITS:: How to Disagree With Your Brain so You Can Break Bad Habits and End Negative Thinking Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5The Immortality Key: The Secret History of the Religion with No Name Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5King, Warrior, Magician, Lover: Rediscovering the Archetypes of the Mature Masculine Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5The Energy Codes: The 7-Step System to Awaken Your Spirit, Heal Your Body, and Live Your Best Life Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5A Course in Miracles: Text, Workbook for Students, Manual for Teachers Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5Seventy-Eight Degrees of Wisdom (Hardcover Gift Edition): A Tarot Journey to Self-Awareness Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Be Here Now Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5THE EMERALD TABLETS OF THOTH THE ATLANTEAN Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Lost Books of the Bible: The Rejected Texts, Apocrypha and Pseudepigrapha Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5Inner Child Work: 20 Exercises for Healing Your Inner Child Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5The Power of Your Subconscious Mind Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5The Three Questions: How to Discover and Master the Power Within You Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Captivating Expanded Edition: Unveiling the Mystery of a Woman's Soul Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5
Reviews for Quit Smoking Express
0 ratings0 reviews
Book preview
Quit Smoking Express - Carole Anzolletti
Prologue
Before The White Tiled Hallway
THE WHITE-TILED HALLWAY led to the room where my mother received chemotherapy for breast cancer at the Bridgeport Hospital in Connecticut. Cancer was everywhere. In slats of light on highly polished hospital floors. In the squeak of nurse's shoes upon them. On the buttons of the elevators and in the blood-caked nostrils of my father when he finally succumbed to lung cancer nine months after being diagnosed with small cell carcinoma.
I regret continuing to smoke before I went to visit him. I remember being helpless in my addiction to cigarettes. I loved cigarettes, and cigarettes loved me. They were a permanent entity that provided lasting comfort and agony alike.
I battled trying to quit for probably three more years after his death. I am not sure how many times I tried to summon his help from beyond the grave. How often I thought about my fate ending up the same as his, with young children watching me nourish this careless habit.
There are things about being addicted that you remember that you don’t want to remember. Things like digging for change couch cushions and car seats so you can get another pack of cigarettes. Buying items with food stamps just over a dollar to get coin change back and then having to do it a few more times until there was enough to buy only one more pack, then that’s it, I swear.
Countless nights of going to sleep with that massive demon on your chest, like a paranormal entity you refuse to see. Don’t open your eyes, for you will surely see him staring into yours. Sitting cross-legged right on you, waiting for you to wake up, roll over and light that cigarette at 2:23 am and hoping that you don’t fall asleep with it lit in your hand. That terrible taste in your mouth and the coughing. Always, the coughing.
Now you are back at day one. Possibly not for the first time. Seconds seem like an eternity. You want to yell at everyone in your path. Don’t you know I am trying not to smoke?!
Unbearable thoughts of romantic massaging of the pack, of the lighter, of the ride to the store when you give yourself the ultimate relief of caving in once again. The envy you feel when you see others smoking converts into a brilliant and promising chance for camaraderie. If they are doing it, so can I. We will all be okay.
Now I fall asleep with different fears to overcome. I worry about how much time I have wasted on addiction and its by-products. I berate myself because I believe that is what we are good at, us addicts, and why we became addicts in the first place.
I can recall the instances that helped bolster my addiction. In those instances, I present them to you in a form that neither has me whining about adolescent injustices I feel were set against me or complaining about people I used to blame. I can instead use them like the shit that has produced the unusual and organic inspiration that has helped me become an addict with a mission. Because, if we don’t have that mission, what are we doing here? Why would we have creative visions and urges? Maybe that doesn’t matter to you at all. Perhaps the only thing you care about is your son, or granddaughter, or your horses, or your cars. Or just being able to take care of those who took care of you. Maybe you have higher aspirations, to help the world in even the smallest way. Let’s figure it out.
My mother survived breast cancer and is still alive today. She is currently eighty-six years old. My father was sixty-six when he passed away almost twenty years ago.
The vision of The Queen first came to me behind the altar of St. Ann’s Church in Black Rock, CT. My two older sons were still very young. It was right before I had chosen to move to Florida, the Sunshine State. Ironically, this was one of the darkest times of my life. This was the place where I was digging for change and buying unnecessary things with food stamps to get the change to foster my addiction to cigarettes. When name brands were too expensive, I would get ones that were $1.90 and were the most putrid alternatives you could find. I probably would have been better off rolling my tobacco at that point, but I was too depressed and disillusioned