The Caregiver's Response: Our Shared Journey
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It never occurred to me that I would outlive my wife Dotti. She was a seminal part of the air I breathed, the flowers I smelled, the fruit I tasted, the flesh I touched, the language I heard. And then one day after thirty-three years of marriage, the phone rang, and her obstetrician-gynecologist told her, "You have cancer." From the moment of t
Gary Pacernick
GARY PACERNICK is professor of English at Wright State University. He has published ten books of poetry, criticism, interviews, editions, and drama. His poetry collection, The Jewish Poems, was adapted for the stage and public television by Robert Britton. He is listed in Who's Who in America.
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The Caregiver's Response - Gary Pacernick
A Caregiver’s Response: Our Shared Journey
Copyright © 2020 by Gary Pacernick
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In Memory: Dotti Pacernick (1942-2002)
Beloved Vile, Mother, Grandmother, and Friend
Contents
Acknowledgments
Introduction
Phase One
Thirty Five Years
Phone Call
To Whom Should I Pray That Dotti Be Cured
First Opinion
Second Opinion
September 11, 2001
Hold Me, Touch Me
Anticipation
Cat Scan
Journey
Two Tales In One
Pet Scan
Five Minutes From The Cancer Clinic
Waiting Room Clinic
Rite Of Passage
Treatment
Prognosis
Love And War
Effects
Blood Clot
Radiology
Overnight
Sharing
After Surgery To Remove Dotti’s Port-O-Cat
The Climb
Story In The Chemo Room
Taking Leave
Aftereffects
Penultimate Chemo On Christmas Eve
High dose internal radiation
The Lady In The Wheelchair
These Here Herbs
Crossing
Recovery
Post Treatment Exam
Checkup With Dr. Chua
M.R.I.
Waiting
Post-Treatment Testing
Tapestry
Second Post Treatment Checkup With Dr. Simon
Yes
Tense Talk
We’re Back
The Report
Waiting For Still Another Cat Scan
Consult After Cat Scan
My Angel
Father And Daughters
Healing
What She Says To Me
Consult With Dr. Copeland
Prayer Poem
8 A.M. With Dr. Fowler
At The James Cancer Hospital
Poem Journal: Phase Two
8/4 NOON SUNDAY
8/5—1 A.M. MONDAY
7:30 A.M. MONDAY
NOON MONDAY
11 P.M. MONDAY
8/6—9 A.M. TUESDAY
10:50 A.M. TUESDAY
12:30 P.M. TUESDAY
8/7—7:40 A.M. WEDNESDAY
12:35 P.M. WEDNESDAY
8/8—8:15 A.M. THURSDAY
1 P.M. THURSDAY
8/9—10 A.M. FRIDAY
11:30 FRIDAY
8/10—9:55 P.M. SATURDAY
8/11—5 A.M. SUNDAY
8/12—9:25 A.M. MONDAY
8/13—12:30 P.M. TUESDAY
7:25 P.M. TUESDAY
8/14—8 P.M. WEDNESDAY
8/15—5:50 A.M. THURSDAY
2 P.M. THURSDAY
8/16—11:15 A.M. FRIDAY
8/17—11:20 A.M. SATURDAY
8/18—9:30 A.M. SUNDAY
8/19—7:45 A.M. MONDAY
3:42 P.M. MONDAY
5:32 P.M. MONDAY
6:10 P.M. MONDAY
Back Home 8/20—8 A.M. TUESDAY
8/21—7 A.M. WEDNESDAY
11 P.M. WEDNESDAY
8/22—4:30 P.M. THURSDAY
8/23 Walnut Creek Nursing Home—12:15 P.M. FRIDAY
7:35 P.M. FRIDAY
8/24—11:25 A.M. SATURDAY
11:30 P.M. SATURDAY
8/25—5 P.M. SUNDAY
8/26—7 A.M. MONDAY
6:10 P.M. MONDAY
8:35 P.M. MONDAY
8/27—8:30 A.M. TUESDAY
8/28—11 A.M. WEDNESDAY
8/29 A.M. THURSDAY
8/31—7 A.M. SATURDAY
4:30 P.M. SATURDAY
7:30 P.M. SATURDAY
9/1—1:25 P.M.SUNDAY
4 P.M. SUNDAY
9/2—11 A.M. MONDAY
9/3—5 A.M. TUESDAY
9/4—9 A.M. WEDNESDAY
11:15 A.M.
9/5—1 P.M. THURSDAY
9/6—8:30 A.M. FRIDAY
9/7—8:10 A.M. SATURDAY
3 P.M. SATURDAY
9/8—2 P.M. SUNDAY
9/9—9 P.M. MONDAY
9/10—8:30 A.M. TUESDAY
9/11—9:10 P.M. WEDNESDAY
9/12—3:30 P.M. THURSDAY
9/13—8 A.M. FRIDAY
9/14 SATURDAY
9/15 SUNDAY
9/16—6:30 A.M. MONDAY
9/17—3:30 A.M. TUESDAY
9/18—12:10 P.M. WEDNESDAY
9/19—11:15 A.M. THURSDAY
9/20—9:25 A.M.FRIDAY
9/21 SATURDAY
9/22 SUNDAY
9/23 MONDAY
9/24—8 A.M. Tuesday
9/25—2:55 WEDNESDAY
5:10 P.M. WEDNESDAY
9/26—4:35 P.M. THURSDAY
9/27—10:05 A.M. FRIDAY
9/28—7 P.M. SATURDAY
9/29—3:30 P.M. SUNDAY
9/30—9:25 A.M. MONDAY
11:50 A.M.
Acknowledgments
I could not have lived through the experience that I write about in these pages without the help of my daughters Jennifer and Eden and their families, and many friends, colleagues, medical personnel, clergy, etc., too many to mention by name. However, I want to especially thank Dotti’s sister Geri Taylor and her cousins Carol Nied and Susan Di Giacomo, my sister Judith Parnes, and Rubin Battino, as well as those who read the work in progress: Donald Hall, Philip Levine, Rubin Battino, Jane Baker, and my daughter Eden Sulzer. A special