The Madness Within: The Journey of a Future Doctor, an Autobiography
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Sometimes, I dont like or understand the challenges that I must endure before the "miracles" but, like everyone else in this world, I realize that the miracle is just around the corner.
Finally, I realized that success with the publication of this book is not measured in sales but in the number of lives that have been improved, hearts that have been mended, and families that have been restored. Although I will probably never really know
how successful my book is according to these parameters, I know that the impact of this book on the lives of others, this is the true measure of success.
THE MADNESS WITHIN is the personal account of a yielded vessel of God; including journal entries and a detailed pharmacological history which highlights medications taken upon discharge from each hospitalization and summarizes major life events.
Terri L. Whitley
Behind this smile, lies over 25 years of struggle and pain. Behind this youthful face, lies a tale of the pursuit of a dream deferred. Within the pages of this book, you will witness an account of the life of one of Gods yielded vessels. Vivid images of the madness will impact you, astound you, and even inspire you. Rejoice and share in the triumph of a dream fulfilled. Terri L. Whitley is a native of Baton Rouge, Louisiana. She is now married and practicing pharmacy in Louisiana. It has been nearly ten years since she received her PharmD degree at the Xavier University of Louisiana College of Pharmacy in New Orleans, Louisiana.
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The Madness Within - Terri L. Whitley
Copyright © 2006 by Terri L. Whitley.
ISBN 13: Hardcover 978-1-4257-3183-0
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Contents
Introduction
Part One
Chapter One 1028 North Sabine Drive—My Childhood
Chapter Two 12515 King James Avenue
Chapter Three My First Episode
Part Two
Chapter Four Southern University And A&M College
Chapter Five Howard University College Of Medicine
Chapter Six Medical Leave Of Absence
Part Three
Chapter Seven Returning To Medical School
Chapter Eight A Short Trip Home
Chapter Nine Hospitalization—June 8-14, 2000
Chapter Ten Hospitalization—July 15-26, 2000
Chapter Eleven Two Years In A Chapter: A Collage Of Journal Notes
Part Four
Chapter Twelve Xavier University College Of Pharmacy
Chapter Thirteen Hurricane Katrina
Appendix
Pharmacological History
Afterword
Acknowledgments
T o Almighty God, how can I thank you for all that you have done for me? It is to you that I give all the glory and honor.
To my father, William, I will always remember those times that we cried together. Let us now rejoice and thank God for what lies ahead.
To my mother, Emilie, thank you for shedding light
on the darkness in my life, both literally and emotionally. I love you so much. You will always be my number one prayer warrior.
To Reneé, Thanks for the encouragement and suggestions, you are my inspiration!
Introduction
M anic-depressive disorder (bipolar disorder) has been both the best and the worst thing that could have happened to me. It is because of bipolar disorder that I have a profound respect for the mentally ill. It is because of bipolar disorder that I have a level of maturity that could only be attributed to the many struggles associated with the illness. This includes the severe mood swings that have become the normal state of my existence. The manic episodes interrupt my life and my delusional world appears to crumble. Then, something inside of me overcomes the dark veil of delusion that covers me and I return to a functional state, the cycle begins once again.
Despite my illness, I returned to medical school with a better sense of purpose and direction. At that point in my life, I knew that God wanted me to be a doctor and I did what it took to achieve that goal. Unfortunately, my life took a strange twist and I decided to leave medical school for a second time. I wasn’t sure of my future. I had found contentment as a pharmacy technician for a while. Then, something inside of me longed for more. In 2002, I applied to Xavier University of Louisiana’s College of Pharmacy. I was accepted and began pharmacy school in August of 2003. I am continuing my journey as a future doctor
.
My hope is that this book will touch the lives of those who suffer with mental illness and give them hope to keep pressing forward. I could have given up on my pursuit of a career in medicine. Surely, there were enough hurdles that I had to clear to reach my goal. I have learned that it is when times get rough that we must keep going until we achieve all that God has placed in the divine path that we call our destiny. In my case, that pursuit of a career in medicine may very well end up in some other division of healthcare. I find satisfaction in knowing that until I breathe my last breath, anything is possible.
If I had listened to the opinions of those around me, I may not be where I am now. In about a year, I will finally achieve what has been so hard to attain. I will no longer be a future doctor
, I will be a doctor. In May of 2007, I will finally receive my doctor of pharmacy from Xavier University of Louisiana. It is very ironic that I will be receiving the highest degree possible at the same school that served as the location for my first taste of mania. After over fifteen years of suffering, I have regained my strength, my courage, and my self-esteem. I love myself again. I have a normal
life again. I have a normal
relationship with God. I can see myself as a viable partner in a healthy marriage. I’m not afraid of pregnancy or childbirth. I can honestly see myself as a good mother.
Throughout my life with bipolar disorder, I have met many others who have touched my life in one way or another. Most of the people in my life have been transient. My family, however, has been a constant source of stability, love, and nurturing. My mother and father have both taken the position as the primary expert in charge of my recovery in the most difficult stages in both my most depressive and most manic states.
It’s funny how people change after they have experienced a touch of the madness within me. It is very difficult to learn the bitterness of betrayal at such a young age. Friends