Death Is a Miracle: A Daughter's Contemplative Memoir of Her Father's Transition
By Winn Mallard
()
About this ebook
Your reflections are so helpful for the journey! I honor how you are weaving your Peruvian wisdom with your grounding in your blood circle with the new daring strands into whole cloth of the present.
Nelia Kimbrough
The power of words in actionit's poetry; it's song; it's music ... some of us haven't yet found the full freefall, living still with the bits and pieces. This helps us all find the paths we work to discover.
Dawn Francis-Chewning
Simply the most beautiful thing I have ever read.
Jeremy Richmond
So beautiful and real. Winn, thanks for your vulnerability that is cracking so many hearts open!
Sage Linden
Thank you for taking me with you on that walk into the wonder of creation and slipping through ordinary perspective into a multifaceted lens.
Sally Bicknell Miller
I think the word homework is totally appropriate, and it's all of our tasks! We can't truly be home here or there without it!
Joan Smythie Fowler Ray
You and your family have been such beautiful teachers for us all! Thank you for this most sacred lesson of life and the joy and beauty of the passing of it.
Claudia Green
Winn Mallard
Winn Mallard is a cultural change agent and a passionate student of consciousness, who enjoys all sorts of spiritual adventure. She loves dancing and singing, creating sacred celebration, and engaging with others in inspired conversation. Winn lives between the worlds in Ollantaytambo, Peru, and Asheville, North Carolina.
Related to Death Is a Miracle
Related ebooks
Unfold Your Soul: A Memoir Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsFrom Rifles to Roses: Memories and Miracles Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsLightning Bolts and Dew Drops: A Cauldron of Poesy Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsOn the Outskirts of Heaven: A Near-Death Tale of Soul Retrieval Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsWarrior Love: In a Changing World Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsBrave and Awake: - a Story of Authentic Becoming Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsThe Blind Fury Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsSacred Seeds of Redemption: 40 True Stories to Encourage Your Heart Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsSimply Sacred Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsLessons from Your Last Life: And How They Can Help You in This One Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsThe Other Side of the Bayou Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsHope When the River Rages Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsTwelve Lessons Learned On The Road Home: A Road Map For Living A Well-loved Life Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsSprinting Backwards to God Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsGratitude: A Memoir Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsBelonging Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5Everything Is Going to Be Okay Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsThe Divine Journey: From the Ego to the Sacred Heart Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsLetters from Rose: A Secret to Happiness Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsMarathon Wheeler Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsUnchain My Legacy: How Owning Our Choices Frees Us And Those We Love Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsS.H.E. Share Heal Empower Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsLegends and Jinns: The Blessed Journey Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsWalking Between Worlds: A Spiritual Odyssey Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsFinding the Rainbow: The Other Side of a Cancer Journey Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsSonshine in the Dark: A Series of Short Stories and Poems of My Life Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsThe Voice of Spirit: A Medium’S Story Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsA Heart in Pieces: A Journey from Grief to Grace Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsThe Ghost Photographer: My Story of Grief and Healing—with Guidance from the Other Side Rating: 3 out of 5 stars3/5Am I the Prophet Elijah? Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratings
New Age & Spirituality For You
The Screwtape Letters Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5The Secret History of the World Rating: 3 out of 5 stars3/5Don't Believe Everything You Think: Why Your Thinking Is The Beginning & End Of Suffering Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5The Four Loves Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5The Alchemist: A Graphic Novel Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Journey of Souls: Case Studies of Life Between Lives Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5A Grief Observed Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Mere Christianity Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5The Mastery of Self: A Toltec Guide to Personal Freedom Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5Workbook & Summary of Becoming Supernatural How Common People Are Doing the Uncommon by Joe Dispenza: Workbooks Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsA Calendar of Wisdom: Daily Thoughts to Nourish the Soul, Written and Se Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Surprised by Joy: The Shape of My Early Life Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5A Course in Miracles: Text, Workbook for Students, Manual for Teachers Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5Celebration of Discipline, Special Anniversary Edition Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5As A Man Thinketh: Three Perspectives Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Falling Upward: A Spirituality for the Two Halves of Life Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5As a Man Thinketh Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Reflections on the Psalms Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5The Abolition of Man Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Conversations With God, Book 3: Embracing the Love of the Universe Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5The Three Questions: How to Discover and Master the Power Within You Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Outrageous Openness: Letting the Divine Take the Lead Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5No Man Is an Island Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Writing to Wake the Soul: Opening the Sacred Conversation Within Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Soul Numbers: Decipher the Messages from Your Inner Self to Successfully Navigate Life Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5
Reviews for Death Is a Miracle
0 ratings0 reviews
Book preview
Death Is a Miracle - Winn Mallard
Copyright © 2015 Winn Mallard.
www.DeathIsAMiracle.com
Cover image interpenetrating panels
and all other illustrations (except where noted) by Anna Trodglen Copyright 2015 Wildpic Art Publishing.
Author photo by Bridget Ferguson www.bridgetferguson.com
All rights reserved. No part of this book may be used or reproduced by any means, graphic, electronic, or mechanical, including photocopying, recording, taping or by any information storage retrieval system without the written permission of the author except in the case of brief quotations embodied in critical articles and reviews.
Balboa Press
A Division of Hay House
1663 Liberty Drive
Bloomington, IN 47403
www.balboapress.com
1 (877) 407-4847
Because of the dynamic nature of the Internet, any web addresses or links contained in this book may have changed since publication and may no longer be valid. The views expressed in this work are solely those of the author and do not necessarily reflect the views of the publisher, and the publisher hereby disclaims any responsibility for them.
The author of this book does not dispense medical advice or prescribe the use of any technique as a form of treatment for physical, emotional, or medical problems without the advice of a physician, either directly or indirectly. The intent of the author is only to offer information of a general nature to help you in your quest for emotional and spiritual well-being. In the event you use any of the information in this book for yourself, which is your constitutional right, the author and the publisher assume no responsibility for your actions.
Any people depicted in stock imagery provided by Thinkstock are models, and such images are being used for illustrative purposes only.
Certain stock imagery © Thinkstock.
ISBN: 978-1-5043-4709-9 (sc)
ISBN: 978-1-5043-4710-5 (e)
Balboa Press rev. date: 4/4/2016
CONTENTS
1... oh me
2... with wonderment we give praise
3... hovering between worlds
4... hallelujah hospice and oh my what a surprise!
5... riding theological ramblings through the shadows
6... gender inclusive word for midwife?
7... the gentle powers
8... treasuring each stage
8.5... reid's words
9... ahhh the agitation
10... elimination
11... miraculous ways
12... the best call of all
13... the watch and gatra
14... coleman's new moon
15... nuthin left to do but grow grow grow
16... curtains of the beyond
17... following the moon
18... razor's edge
19... beyond the old roles
20... labor
21... the other end of the ice cream
22... eldest son's 50th
23... a gentle breeze blowing that can shift the entire world
24... hallelujah pie in a crust of trust
25... struggles
26... resting in the riddle
27... what you see in different pieces it's all in one piece!
28... gatra's words
29... the window that is wisdom's ways
30... balsac of the woods
31... a little show to do
32... new moon and new missions
33... signals and a gift already given
34... colemania's charge
35... spiritual gel
36... lean back in a global chair
37... let it be
38... heart song for mama
39... getting the call and allowing the fall
40... el dia de los muertos
41... daringly miraculous or miraculously daring
42... lomo negro
43... compost
44... boundaries, winndy, boundaries!
45... mystical advent in dr.suess
46... you and I are one
47... amen
48... daddy-o's christmas gifts of amazement
49... here lies a gentle power
50... white crystal holy round
DEDICATION
This book is dedicated to death...
the grim reaper... resurrection...
our greatest teacher...
the whole point...
And, of course, to sweet daddy-o.
A Prayer...
Oh sweet goodness... beloved wonder of wonders...
godgoddess...
Hold us tenderly as we journey
through the miraculous and the mundane...
Guide us to always be present to the Now...
So we might rest in the riddle
And accept the struggle...
While feeling the shivers of anticipation
As the illusion of separation shatters
Bit by bit.
With eternal gratitude for all that you give us in every now moment,
Amen!
PREFACE
As I sit in my Asheville log cabin, cozied up against arctic temperatures, working to birth this book before returning to Peru... I must say that I am utterly amazed by the path that brought me to this present moment, amazed and immensely grateful. Had my path not curved and twisted in its various (often mind-boggling heart-breaking) branches, I would not have landed on my parents' stoop at precisely the opportune moment... landing equipped with a well-supplied belt of spiritual tools and the flexibility to change my life and be present. To be present for a spiritual initiation like none other.
I had not yet given much thought to my parents dying. Oh, occasionally - when someone I knew lost a parent - I would imagine it, but never for more than a moment. I had spoken to my parents about death, keeping it mostly abstract. I would relate mystical experiences I'd had via the shamanic tradition I worked with in Peru. A spiritual tradition referred to as a death practice.
They were sort of interested, mom much more so than dad. But I hadn't envisioned one or both of them actually doing it, dying that is. It's fascinating to me how I carried on hardly noticing this large looming inevitable crack in the support of my reality just hanging around nonchalantly... sitting there ready to split and bust open the dam, rip through the fabric, just plain turn the world upside down!... and once it did, altering my spirit in a way that currently feels unfathomable to comprehend.
Everyone loses their parents. It is a given, a rite of passage for us all. Therefore it is an opportunity for everyone to grow spiritually and personally. And the way we hold it, as individuals and as a culture, determines whether or not it becomes a spiritual initiation. My deep heart desire is that everyone in the world might have the chance to experience such an initiation, and if putting my words out via this little book might inch us in that direction, then I rejoice.
My entire life, since I was a small child, I have had an intense and passionate desire to help humanity move to a kinder and more harmonious relationship with the natural world. This passion led me to explore eco-spiritual teachings which guided me to the world of the divine feminine. From there, beloved Sophia - Lady Wisdom - brought me back to Christ as the embodiment of Unity.
Now, I claim my mission as one to help awaken Christ consciousness within myself and humanity. Christ consciousness is Unity consciousness, an awareness beyond duality or separation, which is the heart ushering in the harmony I've been dreaming of since childhood.
In Unity consciousness death becomes transition. In Christ consciousness death is resurrection. I pray that we might all recognize and embrace the gem of wisdom that crystallizes through our witnessing... through our sitting... through our midwifing... the miracle of death.
ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS
Always first, I open my heart in gratitude to my sweet goodness, my most cherished beloved, my godgoddess, for the love force that nourishes my life in every way. I love you to the ends of the all, my glorious wonder. I am yours!
Secondly I wish to acknowledge my sweet mama, Gatra. She was most certainly the one holding it down
during daddy-o's long death march of 233 days. Her perseverance and loyalty, patience and kindness were exemplary, both to him and to me. While I was writing creative updates, Gatra was writing the amount of urine and time of flushing -- the catheter, that is. While I was reading books about death and dying she was warming up daddy-o's soup and spooning it into his mouth. At least two meals a day for 233 days equals a heap o' spoonin'! She never wavered. You're amazing mom. Your gigantic heart and immense fortitude teach and inspire me... always! Thank you for everything!! I love you!
Next I want to thank my brother Reid, the gentle knight in shining casual wear. His clarity and thoughtfulness held the scene in a firm yet flexible embrace. And his phenomenal patience and willingness to do whatever was needed guided the rest of us as we aspired to follow in his stead. Thank you Reid, most especially for holding me the moments I needed to release. It was remarkable being part of the daddy-o team with you! I love you!
And to my brother, Rob, whose reverence, devotion and honoring of daddy-o, and his process, set a very high standard while shoring up the walls with integrity so that the family embrace, the container holding daddy-o up, was strong and durable, thus giving him the support he needed to march his march. Your earnest respect and acceptance, Rob, along with your drive to do the right thing, the kind thing, shines brightly for me... a star to set in my life compass. I love you!
And to my scrumpdillyicious Uncle Cole, daddy-o's brother, who at intervals, plopped down into the scene like a sweet nugget of divine delight bringing humor and lightness into the fold -- an imperative ingredient. Dear Cole, your adoration of your brother and your sweet heart-felt desire to keep him as long as possible, celebrating the life he had left, was crucial to the story. I cherish your insights. Thank you! I love you!
And to my sisters-in-love, Alison and Karen, who were never too far away, thank you both for the personal support. I am so grateful for the deepening of connection. I treasure and love you both dearly.
On May 31st, about 3 weeks after daddy-o took to his death bed, Coleman Terrell Lewis transitioned. The Lewis family moved in next door to the Mallards when Coleman was a toddler. Our two families have shared greatly over the years and this year, 2014, the sharing went to a profoundly deep level as we lost our youngest and our oldest. In sharing such grief our thread of connection has become even more intimate. Thank you Luther, Martha, Claire, Beth and Coleman! My life story, the Mallards' story, is far richer having shared a driveway of heart and soul with you all! I love you all deeply.
I want to express great gratitude to all the beautiful people from the ripples rippling out that kept us in their prayers and sent love through food, flowers and messages during daddy-o's death march. There were so many; most especially from Glenn United Methodist Church and the Emory/Druid Hills communities. Thank y'all so much. A well connected community of loving exchange fills like nothing else can.
Norkeyta was the hospice aide who came every day Monday through Friday taking care of daddy-o, cleaning him up and making sure everything was okay. She always was enthusiastic and cheerful and handled daddy-o with incredible compassion. We couldn't have done it without you, Norkeyta! Thank you!
Carol was the hospice nurse who helped mom and me as much as daddy-o, really. She guided us in invaluable ways and daddy-o always felt