The Price of Life

By ECILA

The Price of Life is poetry full of chaos as is life. These poems are not in any emotional order because life is not in order emotionally. Life and emotions are thrown at you every day the sun rises and sets. The Price of Life will take you on a ride as if driving on an old country road with twisting curves and steep hills as you turn the pages you may be surprised, thrilled, scared, brought to ecstasy or to tears. You might even go down memory lane or laugh at a few. They are mostly based on true life, nightmares or pure sexual fantasy. You don't have to be a great poet to emotionally connect with a person. Making the connection is the only thing that counts. Enjoy life with Ecila...Poetry taking you to new realms in life.

"CONTAINS ADULT CONTENT" xxx

MAKE ME A BUTTERFLY

"I will flap my wings
By your side
Until this life span ends
Make me a butterfly...again"

RAINBOW OF FIRE

"Like a real life fairy tale
Who knew death could be so beautiful
In its horrific end of existence story
Your last vision being a rainbow of fire"

• Language: English
• Publisher: AuthorHouse
• Release date: May 7, 2014
• ISBN: 9781496906540

ECILA

She woke up from a coma almost 9 years ago with a burning desire to write. This was her gift from God. An arsonist set her bedroom door on fire and trapped her inside to die but her Guardian Angel blanketed her with her wings and saved her from getting burned alive. She died several times during her ordeal and spent four thousand years with God. She is still in therapy for the PTSD, agoraphobia, anxiety and depression that developed from the fire. Most of her time is spent writing poetry and a novel about her experience during and after the fire. It is her hope that her writing will reach out to people, help them see that nothing can break you if you have the will to survive and have God in your heart. You're never alone and the price of life is too precious to give up so easily. She lost everything precious to her in the fire and realized those were material things. She still had her life and rebuilt a new foundation. From the ashes came a new person and more spiritual spirit. She prays that somewhere in her writing you will relate to the love, passion, fantasies, memories, loss, grief and spirituality that she has written in her own poetic style. She lives in the beautiful state of West Virginia with her fiance. She has four beautiful daughters, three granddaughters, and one grandson. Her ma has always been her inspiration with all her spunk and beauty. She is an honest and down to earth country girl from a large family hoping to help people with her writing that comes straight from her heart. If one, she would be happy; if more, that would be even better. www.ecilabooks.com - [e-mail]

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© 2014 ECILA. All rights reserved.

No part of this book may be reproduced, stored in a retrieval system, or transmitted by any means without the written permission of the author.

Published by AuthorHouse 04/30/2014

ISBN: 978-1-4969-0656-4 (sc)

ISBN: 978-1-4969-0654-0 (e)

Library of Congress Control Number: 2014907533

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List of Poems

My Love Is On Fire

Life… Passed Away

Almost In Tears

Licking…

Just Me

The Thorns Of Winter

Spread Your Mighty Wings

Two Wedding Bands

Bittersweet

The Pendulum Of Time

Passionate Electricity And Grains Of Sand

Monsters In My Nightmares

Staring Into A Teacup

The Day I Died

Hands All Around Me

Butterfly Roses

Our Ghostly Shadows

God, The Artist

My Dad’s Feet

Depressed In Fired Desire

Feelin’ Alone In The Shadows

With Arms Wide Open

A Sexual Feeling

Closing My Eyes

The Country

Quicksand

Horrors Of No Escape

I Never Finished

Good Woman Gone Bad

Lift Me Up

Make Me A Butterfly

Ugliness

Trying

We…

Demons Dance

Cutting Words

So Trusting… So Naïve

He Heard Me Tell Another Man

I Died Last Night

Like Diamonds

I Want To Feel You

Raindrops On A Tin Roof

Stepping From The Ashes

Winters End

Their House Of Love

Have You Found Someone?

My Love Is Free

Rub Away The Scars

Sending A Prayer

The Millionth Tear

Lovers At Night; Strangers In Daylight

Why Did You Hurt Me?

Understand

Two Ships Passing In The Night

My Minds Ghosts

Sitting Here All Alone

The Light

I Am Pining Away

Guilty By Guilt Not By Heart

If I Were An Angel…

Starfish

The Rose

I Am Safe In Your Arms

Laying In The Darkness

The Ecstasy Of You

Missing Mr. Moe

She Holds Him

Next To You

I’ll Be Your Blanket

You Left Me

When We Danced

Torn

I Looked For You

Guardian Angel

Loneliness And Hurt

Heart To Heart

Your Breath

Why Can’t A Woman?

Did You Remember Me?

Filled With Fears

God’s Child

As I Sit In The Darkness

Don’t Stop Loving Me

An Overwhelming Love

Clouds Are Hanging Over My Head

First Sight

A Beautiful Tree

Couldn’t Have… ?

I Am Scared To Death

Loneliness Is…

Hallucinations

Old Comforts

The Slams

Painful

Two Hearts

I Miss

Your Love Is Like Breathing

When The Love Is Gone

Trapped… Cursed

Heartbeats

I Saw A Man

Don’t Throw Away My Love

Forgive Me

At The Foot Of My Bed

I Fell In Love

Heaven Sent Love

Fluffy Clouds

Bubbles And Candlelight

I’m Afraid To Open My Eyes

April’s Fiery Demons

Come To Me

Drifting Apart

The Stars In Your Eyes

Societies’ Castaways

Like A Leaf

Feelings Of The Heart

Gods’ Pristine Earth

When You Turn To Your Lover

I Ache For A Man

Sadness Builds

Rainbow Of Fire

Sustenance

The Tears In Your Eyes

I Loved You

Wiping Tears

Your Own Words

Couldn’t Give Up

Are You Feeling?

I Long For

The Old Cherry Tree

Separate… Yet Together

Red And Fuzzy

On Father’s Day Weekend

My Path

God’s Tears

You Say You Love Me

A Bed Of Roses

Unburden Their Heavy Heart

My Imaginary Lover

Sinful Delights

I Am Sad

Alone Inside My Soul

Toiling Over Troubles

When I Call Your Name

A Whisper Soft Kiss

Years Of My Life

Drowning In A River Of Tears

Anger Flashed

You Are Going To Be Singing The Blues

I’m Always Me

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A very passionate, poetic write about a person who has gone through tragedy in life and is still willing to help people through her writing. These are heartfelt poems to sensual poems. This book has a full rollercoaster ride of emotions that will keep you turning the pages.

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Titles by Ecila

LIFE AT A PRICE

This book is dedicated to my brother, Thomas, who died of lung cancer on August 29, 2013.

My four beautiful daughters

Who almost killed me during three emergency C-sections.

You were all preemies, brave and the loves of my life.

My heart was captured when I heard your first cries;

Saw your tiny, fragile hands and toes,

Bright eyes so inquisitive,

Little button noses,

Pink lips smile.

I will love you all

Till God calls me home.

xx

My, Ma, who I received my spunk, temper and stubbornness from;

you taught me never to give up.

My very special friends on my poetry site

who make my mundane life more exciting and bearable.

God, who is so awesome, He placed the love of writing in my heart and out my fingers.

My fiancé, Brian, who I love with all my heart;

Never to change from the first day

I laid eyes on his sheepish grin,

Saw my future in his eyes,

Connected my soul with his

When he tenderly moved a wisp of hair from my face,

Ignited passion that had fizzled out,

Shared a rock on a cold summer night.

I wanted him to be mine until I died.

xoxo

My seven brothers and sisters;

We may be scattered

Out of touch

I love you all

Very much.

xx

AUTHORS NOTE

I have added a few blank pages in the back of THE PRICE OF LIFE

for you to write down your desires, secrets, passions, thoughts or notes

as you read the poems or have ideas of your own.

Ecila xx

MY LOVE IS ON FIRE

My love is on fire

For the gentle touch

Of your warm lips

All over my silky skin

It’s been far too long

Since I have drank

From the source of your love

And I need my fire ignited again

I desire you in the darkness

Of my most secret places

Only a woman can know

The pleasure you light in me

My fierce wanting

Will never wan

But only gets stronger

With each passing melancholy night

Loneliness sets in

And my mind conjures up

The intriguing memories

Of our passion filled nights

I am eager for your virile manliness

To be inside my warmth again

I need your smooth strokes to satisfy my need

To light my love that is on fire within

Come wrap yourself in my eager embrace

And give me a taste

Of the sustenance I need

To ignite my burning desire tonight

Only your hot and eager touch

Will satisfy my burning essence

On the cold winter nights

I only want with you, Baby

My love is on fire

For the gentle touch

Of your warm lips

All over my silky skin

LIFE… PASSED AWAY

Life takes turns and twists when least expected

Leading you down paths mysterious and dark

Into realms unforeseen to the human eye

Whether you are ready to take a new path or not

Falling down into oblivion when bad news comes

Thinking the whole time you should be the one

When God had His chance to take a family member

Why send you back just to choose another one?

Confusion encircles every thought and feeling

Depressing you further into your thoughts of frustration

Because you were already there and feel

You should be the one suffering now instead of him

Heavy at heart and sick to death from hearing the news

With no warning to prepare that your loved one

Will be gone before the shock is worn off

And you will never see him again after three weeks’ time

Insidious cancers not only affect the person that it is eating alive

They destroy every life that person has touched

Causing a cascading effect that never ends

Until you feel so sick to death you crawl into a fetal ball

Facing depressing times ahead of you it seems

Having another curveball thrown in your face

With nowhere else left to turn but the heavens

Praying for another chance at life for him

God brought you back for another life

Why not the brother you never got to know and love

The way a brother and sister should have

Because their lives got in the way

Life takes turns and twists when least expected

Leading you down paths mysterious and dark

Into realms unforeseen to the human eye

If taken now as You want lead him into the light

Life took those twists and turns when least expected

Leading us down paths mysterious and dark

Into realms unforeseen to the human eye

Whether you are prepared to take that new path or not

Falling down into oblivion when the call came

That the cancer ate your lung and you had passed away

Around ten o’clock last evening in Hospice House

Surrounded by the beautiful mountains in South Dakota

We went and visited dad’s grave the other day

And set a colorful basket of fuchsia and yellow