An Unexpected Goodbye: The Journey from Man to Nothing
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Though this poetry book isnt about that fear, its about making a choice. Through a collection of poems and song lyrics written over the past eighteen years about my beliefs, dreams, hopes, and thoughts, I express a choice I made to purge myself of what I thought Ive known all these years and to start over again from nothing.
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An Unexpected Goodbye - Bret J. Nolan
Copyright © 2017 by Bret J. Nolan.
Library of Congress Control Number: 2017917284
ISBN: Hardcover 978-1-5434-6455-9
Softcover 978-1-5434-6454-2
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Contents
The Beginning
I Wuz Here
Six Weeks Too Soon
Baby, I’ll Tell You
No More
Too Much
Fucked Up Again
Plentiful Youth
North Brunswick Kids
I Might Be
Do It or Die
Open
Somebody
Lost Kid
Burn
Start to Show
Just for You
Aliens
Deal (The Cards)
Relax
Teenage Suicide (When the Night Goes Bare)
Postcard
Wet Dreams
Unremarkable
Never
Got My Way
Blessed
Fallout
Chameleon’s Emotions
You Mean Everything
Little Cory
Captured
Was All Over Now
Year in Me
Never Crack
Precious Memory
Trust Me, Ira
Here I Am Again
Haven’t Minded the Sanity Yet
Children Tears
How I Feel
Bleed
Ample Thought
Dead
Bleeding Eyes of Adoration
Cloudless Night
Angel’s Vast Sky
Accem
From Hell Home
The Search for Resurrection
The Ballad of Jesus Christ
Can This Be a Dream?
Golden Eyes
Regret I
Regret II
Regret III
Trying to Find
Luck or Faith
Virgin
Moonlight
Difference of Opinion
Brink of Madness
Knife
I Got to Drown Myself
Wait until the Morning
Darkness Follows Me
Valentine’s Broken Arrow
Killing the Red Land
Awake at Dawn
Touch the Sky
Times Rush By
Plastic Shell Covets the World
Legions Have My Soul
Dead Man
Thoughts of a Lonely Man
Felt Like Heaven
Blind to the Fact
Trip
Demons
Reflections Looking Back
Pathetic Minded
Broken Pills
The Myth in the Mirror
Paranoid
Ghost of Cupid
Perfect
Better Day
Cocksuckers’ Dreams
Monster
Seeing the Real You
The Last Hug
Dead-End Tracks
If I Was More of a Man
Powder My Nose
The Only Hero
The Sunny Deposition
Lack of a Better Word
Calendar
For Every Little Bit
Funny Way
Confession of Me
Master of All Disguises
Random Acts
War within My Breath
Had the Love
Tears Fall on This Blank Page
Optional
Thought Process
Bullshit
Let Me Down
White Mirror
Murderer, Rapist, and Thief
Mushroom Ears
King of the Streets
Another Causality
Relive My Childhood
Naked Sundays
Vanishing Act
Treat Me Like I Am
Self-Abortion
I Want to Die Like I Lived
Utopia
Lightning
Been Like This
Foolish Sentiment
Shouldn’t Care Now
Eighth Street
What We Had
Drive Away
To Lay to Rest
You’re
End of It All
Own Name
Bret Nolan
Cruelty
Without
Sometimes I Wish
Short Story
On the Break
Here for Me
Didn’t Get
One World
Being
So
Heaven
Come Around
No Longer a Boy (Or a Man)
In-Between
Suicide Note
Part Two
Make a Change (Before I Die)
All You Can Mutter
Closer to the Sun
Mind Fuck
Time To
Little Moments
Star of Hope
One of Us Fell
I’ll Change
Lenartbon at Death’s Door
Lenartbon at Death’s Door 2
Lenartbon at Death’s Door 3
Lenartbon Is …
Sweet Death Angels
Tunnel of Love
Tornado Chaser
I and I Being Lonely
Below Love
Always Rise Again
Beneath the Waves
Ten Thousand Times
Know It
When I Fall
Believe in Miracles
Windshield
I Got Me
The Beauty of Nature
Hollowness
When I Prove to You
Outside the Gate
Take Another Turn
Answer to My Prayers
Just Dancing Around
I Love You So
All the Hope
Maybe, but Not Yet
Know That
Reasons
Worth the Wait
Damaged Brain
Silence
Simply Put
Drunkard
Sinking Ship
The Constant Struggles of My Heart
Misery Loves Company
Cynical Eyes
Nothingness
The Religious Entity
Linger
Emotional Enclosure Freed
Every Last Emotion Gone
Reliable
Among Us
Before I Go to Bed
Meaning of Life
Bitter
Bipolar
My Strength
Idea
Not So Wonderful
Tombstone
Unaware
Rock Bottom
Are You Listening?
Silly Dreams
Settling
The Only Teacher I Listened To
With Every Bit
Have Worth (If There Is)
Playlist
Existence
Uncertainty Known
Uninvited Guest
All Good Things Must End
Long Summer
The End
The Beginning
The time has come, and I have come undone
This life I have known has fucked with me too long …
46067.pngLost tonight
The world I tried to capture
It softly slips away
And I am lost tonight
I worry sometimes
There are things I come to expect
While it gently burns
I worry sometimes that I’m a joke
Love my misery
For I am asking for all the hurt
In one ear out the other
While love of my misery is my personality
Creation’s absurd
Human being and mortality asks
If death is comfort
Then creation’s absurd for us all
Suicide conversation
God is listening but doesn’t answer
I must walk out of my shoes
Talk to a poet about suicidal conversations
Borrowed mask
I have finally accepted my problems
My face is covered with hair
My borrowed mask is my bearded face
Ask me not
For my love asked me not
She burns my fire
She is my burning fire
Love is love
With these arms of desire
46065.pngTurn my bed inside out and sleep in it
Don’t risk what they already know
I open my entirety to you
To you, Dylan
To you, love
I don’t want to fuck, have sex, or make love,
Though I do, my mind is fucking clean
To you, I have it already,
Enjoyment or life, love, and peace
46063.pngI met you in May of 2006 before the holiday
I fell in love with you April of 2007
Told you June of the same year
And today, July 2008, my heart pumps
For no matter how long I wait
I wait with patience
I wait with understanding
For no matter how long I am still me
Still me with the new
New, alone, still
For no matter how long I stay, there’s a reason
God told me
He let me have one thought of an answer
The wait will answer your questions
Feel down inside what wasn’t empty
Emptied out this year
The lifetime of marriage mangled
Around the anniversary of our first
Time and time again
I’m still not convinced to let go
Of my broken watch
Love will come to freeze
46061.pngUnreeling the last yarn of thread
That was knitted to comfort my heart
And kept it warm
For the old lady that sits rocking
Holds the ball by her side
And makes a sweater
The gift I really want
Is summer all year round?
One month to covet
46058.pngTo a whore:
Our love is unbound like broken chains
We spent a few hours together
No less, no more
To a whore:
Don’t buy the cow if you can get the milk for free
We burned out everything from things to sheets
Gone out the door
To a whore:
I don’t want this anymore
My itch
46056.pngThere’s an angel that brings forth
A heart and a smile
A song that caresses my face gently
And stretches a mile
I wish to die this day to go to heaven
This is my style
God, you have failed me times before
Check the file
What is tomorrow?
It’s a day for lovers and fools
Sacred all awhile
Meet me, angel, in the morning
46054.pngBright colorful hair and sparkling
Brown eyes capture and imprison me
I’m a slave to your heart chained
Up in the prison of free love
Since I’m under oath, I raise my hand
I will not cheat, steal, or hurt you
I walk smiling, with happy thoughts of you
Through this gangland romance town
Every time my phone rings inside my pocket
I hope that it’s you on the other end talking
Thought more than that every shadow down
And alley, I wish it’s you around the corner
And I look up to the black night sky
Where have all those shooting stars gone?
This road I walk on I don’t hesitate to stop
Because I’ll travel forever for you
Just to find all I prayed for nightly
This isn’t time to question any doubts
46052.pngI’m a child masked before Halloween
And the man I will be puts me in debt
So what I owe you I can’t possibly pay
Unless you give me the time I feel I need
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