Remember Not: My Journey in Forgiveness
By Hannah Lake
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We all suffer hurts and heartaches throughout our lives; some of them can be easier to forgive than others!
This is the story of my journey as I learn to forgive, one step at a time; until the time that God called me to forgive the unforgivable. Was that even possible? How could I ever be able to forgive such a thing? Would I be able to answer that call of God?
Join me on the journey, and you just may find your own path to forgiveness.
Hannah Lake
A sinner, saved by grace in 1971, Hannah has journaled her blessings, heartaches and prayers to her Savior ever since. As a wife, mother, grandmother and retired Registered Nurse, her call has always been to encourage others with the mercy and love of Christ. She enjoys writing uplifting devotions online and serves on the Care Team at her church.
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Remember Not - Hannah Lake
Remember Not
26850.pngMY JOURNEY IN FORGIVENESS
26853.pngHannah Lake
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Dedication
This book is dedicated first to the Lord, who taught me what forgiveness was, and inspired me to write the story about my journey. He has led me every step of the way, providing the strength I needed, and the faith to trust Him completely.
I dedicate this book also, to my precious momma, who was my protector, my encourager, and my great, shining example of womanhood. Her advice to me so many years ago, has rung loudly in my heart, giving me the motto that would carry me through so much in my life. She told me, Don’t judge people too quickly. There is always a reason why, behind the things that people do.
She was a steady ship on high seas, fearless and unsinkable. Life had been hard and cruel, and yet she remained a lady through it all. She went home to Jesus late, last year, just as lovely in her old age as she was all through her life.
Thank you for everything, and Vaya con Dios
(go with God), sweet Momma, your little redhead, Hannah.
Epigraph
For I will forgive their iniquity, and their sin I will remember no more. (Jeremiah 31:34b)
Contents
Dedication
Epigraph
Preface
Acknowledgments
1. Uncovered
2. Finding Jesus
3. Sowers of Seed
4. Light and darkness
5. Hope Deferred
6. God Answers!
7. Our Courtship
8. A Simple Wedding
9. Our Honeymoon
10. A Blessing from God
11. A Turning Point
12. Twice Blessed
13. A Name from Heaven
14. Mothering Two
15. A New Direction
16. God Protects Our Children
17. Loving Our Neighbors
18. A Fiery Trial
19. Tares in the Wheat
20. A Troubling Dream
21. Our Home
22. A Gift
23. Forgiving Myself
24. A Mysterious Dream
25. My Precious Grandma
26. My Birth Father
27. I Want My Momma!
28. Reconciliation
29. Grandma Goes Home
30. Why, God?
31. A New Calling
32. Blessings from God
33. Tragedy Strikes
34. Dark Memories Revealed
35. My Sweet Momma
36. Forgive as We Have Been Forgiven
About the Author
Preface
I was compelled to write this book, after realizing how many others had experienced the type of trials that I had. I wanted to give them the hope, that they may be able to lay their unforgiveness down at the feet of Jesus one day too.
The Lord spoke to me through His word, in dreams and during prayer, that I must write this book so that others could be encouraged through it. It is because of my love for my savior that I obey His call, with the prayer that others indeed, may be helped.
I offer this book to every wounded soul who has been harmed by others, and I pray that each of you can find the freedom that comes when we surrender our unforgiveness to Him.
Acknowledgments
I would like to acknowledge the support and encouragement of my husband, Henry; daughter, Claire; and son, Gabriel. Without their constant support, this book would have never come to be. I am forever grateful for each of them in my life.
26881.pngUncovered
26904.pngH ow could I ever forgive such a thing? The memories came back like deadly fumes under a door jam. They nauseated and horrified me. My heart raced, and I felt as if I were dying. I could not breathe. This would be a hard journey! There were many other times in my life that I would learn about forgiveness and be led to forgive. But this journey was long in coming, built on a foundation of mercy that the Lord gave me, which taught me how to have mercy and forgive others. A lifelong journey, as the potter shaped me with His hands into something He could use.
How can we be of use to the Lord if we have never suffered and realized our desperate need for Him? How can we have compassion for others if we have never needed compassion ourselves? It is a truth that experience is the best teacher, and I had a lot to learn!
The Lord was allowing the memories to be uncovered so I could know the truth and, with full understanding, release those fumes,
turning them into the sweet fragrance of the forgiveness of Christ.
It took a lifetime before the Lord allowed the memories to return; for several years they came, unannounced, relentless, searing memories, as I clung fast to the robes and feet of my savior, Jesus.
26881.pngFinding Jesus
26904.pngI have loved my savior from the moment I received His forgiveness as an eighteen-year-old harlot. A harsh title but a truthful one.
I was raped at fourteen years old, the summer before my freshman year. I told no one. I had already told my friends lies about how experienced
I was, so I couldn’t tell them the truth. I would not tell my parents because I didn’t want the man, who was not a stranger, to get in trouble. Realizing I was no longer a virgin, I allowed whatever advances from others that came my way. I just didn’t care anymore.
It was the sixties, and although I tried different drugs a few times, I did not like them. They didn’t fill the emptiness inside my heart, but neither did my promiscuity! My high school years passed in a dark blur of late-night trysts with strangers that led to a black, empty chasm in my soul. The emptiness grew deeper and darker after an abortion at seventeen. I started flirting with suicide, dreaming of walking into the ocean waves at night and allowing myself to be swallowed whole by the darkness consuming me. I wrote poetry, and in one poem I described myself as a beautiful, empty coffin. Lovely on the outside but empty on the inside. I was acutely aware that I was missing the most important thing in my life, but I had no idea what that was! It was the age of Aquarius,
where everyone seemed to be seeking paradise in some way, but for me, I knew it was a matter of life and death. I was so very lost!
In my senior year, I had to get a job, and found one at a doughnut shop a few blocks away from our house, where they offered me the night shift. I made fast friends with a girl a year older than me who was also working there. I did not get along so well with the cook. John was only a few years older and a nice guy, but he was also one of the Jesus People.
We worked many shifts together, and he never lost the opportunity to tell me about Jesus. He was gentle in spirit, and was not pushy, but I did not want to hear about Jesus!
I had a girlfriend who meant a lot to me. She told me that I had better never become a Christian or it would be over between us. She had a good friend who accepted Christ and left to become an evangelist. She felt betrayed and abandoned. Not wanting to upset her, I listened reluctantly to John as he told me how much God loved me and how Jesus died for my sins. He has no idea how sinful I am! I thought to myself. He told me once that I may as well accept Christ now because God had already told him that I belonged to Him! Oh, that really made me angry! I dreaded going to work! But he never gave up on me.
Then all my hopes and dreams died when my boyfriend broke up with me. He was headed to college, and his best friend told him to drop his current girlfriend so they could be free to date in college. He was apologetic, but he broke up with me just the same.