Memories and Regrets

By Dave Soboleski

This book I wrote “memories and Regrets” is a labor of love, death, unimaginable fights and reconciliation. It’s a full circle of my life and the special people I keep close to me.

• Language: English
• Publisher: Xlibris US
• Release date: Nov 8, 2021
• ISBN: 9781664197930

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Copyright © 2021 by David S Soboleski.

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Rev. date: 11/04/2021

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Dedications

This book I wrote memories and Regrets is a labor of love, death, unimaginable fights and reconciliation. It’s a full circle of my life and the special people I keep close to me. Obviously my wife and kids, but not limited to our foster kids and stragglers. Our extend family, which to call them that is hurtful and a disgrace. They are proof that blood don’t make you family. You know who you are! It’s been a ruff year....my mom committed suicide, as well our sister Michelle. Suicide is no joke...be mindful and heartfelt. So to my Wife Moneka Soboleski, Michelle Smith and Linda Barber, I deducted this to you. And the few others that have been on my ride....thank you and love you all!

Contents

Acknowledgement

Memories And Regrets

It Was A Date

Broken Umbrella

Ask Too Much

Hand Shaking Still

Ocean Rolling Tide

Being Me

Baby

An Angel’s Hymn

Better Than Planned

Broken Glass

Lair Of The Damaged

Broken Parts

Love So True

Broken

Building The Machine

A Wife Scorned

Champagne In Scars

Crash

Be In Strength…. Amen

Dragged To Hell

Loss Of Communication

Criminal

Daddy’s Gone Psycho

Amazing you

Simple

Flaming Doves

A Devil Woman

Floating In The End

Afraid

Blood Brothers

book is over

bring the road i just traveled

call me your ocean

Sabbatge hotel

echos and silence

Lord of your thighs

Never say goodbye

riding with my angles

Pocket Watch

Don’t Let Tomorrow Take Away Today

Endless Fight

Eye To Eye

No God

Fires

Just An Illusion

It All Makes Perfect Sense

Another Day Without The Beach

All Around

Time Wasting Time

For The Love Of

Gift

I Know What I Want

Catch Your Ride

Give Me Your Heart

All The Same

Hard To Say

Heart Broke And Broken

Moonlight

I Hate

Damned

Out Of All These Years

I Am

I Know You Know

Are We Friends

The Broken Cross

King Me

Debbie Dirty Snacks

Little Big Lie

Novelty

Lord Of The Reich

Shifting Lanes

Love Spell

Having Your Back

Bar

Love

Missing You

Blood In, Blood Out

Burry The Bones

Bitter Tongue

Dick Less Cunts

Monkey Tails

The Waitress With A Smiling Cup Of Coffee

Strength Of Family Strength

Mom And Dad

Mr. Throw Away

Still Machine

You Are My Muse

You Lied

My Baby

My Neighborhood

My Shitty Shit

Muse 2

Open The Door

My World

Never Rehabbing

Where Are You Going

No More Life

On The Fence

Humans(Not)Being

Luna-Fucking-Tick

Other Sand In The Glass

Outside The Vow

Fading Away

Thinking It Was Forever

Here To Stay

Parking Go

When The Stars Don’t Shine

Pride

Your More To Me

Princess Of Mine

The Reminded Rewind

A Note To A Landlord

Run Run Run

When The House Folds On You

Psycho- Kiatrist

Second Chance

Sunshine

Forget Me

The Angriest Angry Soul

Sands Of Glass

Sip Of The Devil

Rain On Me

Slayer

Riddles And Rhymes

As It Fades

Suicide Note To A Friend

Who Knows

Put It All To Rest

Tattered And Torn

Crab Sand

Tears And Fears

The Clown

The Killing Of A Friendship

The Original Machine

The Room

Nameless

You Left Me Behind

The Truth I Never Say

The Trying Machine

Start Again

The You That’s Mine

The Golden Hammer

Time Of Our Lives

Two Hard A Hold

Trembles

Truth

Un Best Friend

My Beautiful Angel

Vows Make Our Vows

Waiting For You

What Do I Do

Damaged Goods

What I Want To Do

When Life Jokes Back

When Hurt Catches You That Way

Who Are You Really

You

You

Unto you

Your Eyes

The Broken Dead

Speaks For Itself

The Prophecy Sonnets

Deaths Doorway

Journey of the Dead

Searching for Answers

The Return

Acknowledgement

I would think people in general and of many ages as well as disabilities should find it interesting. I write from an odd perspective myself. I found out at the age of 45 that I was born with autism as well as manic depressive bi-bolar. My writing stretches the gaps of the mind where most like to forget. It comes forward with ideals from mid school age to mid life crisis. Over all it will make one think, make one laugh and even possibly make one cry….either way, I’d hope you enjoy.

Memories And Regrets

Time goes by ….

and the days drift away ….

by the time you realize it’s over ….

Do you have regrets for what you didn’t say

So, don’t expect tomorrow

while you’re living in today

Because love that’s never heard

is love you let walk away

months become years

In a life of Memories

did you say all that you needed

or choose fear over destiny

now you’re old

with only the past behind

Do you look back with teary eyes

or is all just fine

(memories and regrets)

the meaning

I’ve had no breakdown

no time to rest my fears

these ghost of mine

follow me through the years

don’t believe this cover

unless you read this book

and before you stare at me

maybe you need a personal second look

I’ve had no delusions

nothing to keep me here

this ghost I carry with me

by the stories of my years

It Was A Date

Now that you finally see

the words off my lips

where do you fit in

On all these trips

so much love

so much hate

times ending

it was a date

now you’re getting meeting

The thoughts to be seen

and do you know your part

with words coming clean

so much love

so much hate

times ending

it was a date

now it’s off my lips

I can see what I’ve gone thru

somebody tells me my part

what’s the next step I should do

Broken Umbrella

Don’t try to show me the sunshine

As I’m sitting here in the rain

Pretending the whole world loves me

Then all I feel is its pain

Don’t tell me everything is beautiful

When tears cloud all in vain

Nothing refers to everything

So where is what you call sin

Don’t try to make me feel special

cause all I got has been drained

My life is one big wash out

Thank God for a fucked-up brain

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