Invisible Mothers: When Love Doesn't Die
By Emily R Long
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Invisible Mothers gives voice to the experience of love and loss for mothers whose babies have died during pregnancy or infancy. It chronicles the journey of mothers without any living children who must learn to continue living while grieving. Their arms are empty, but their hearts are filled with a love that does not die.
Invisible Moth
Emily R Long
Emily Long is the mama of two daughters gone too soon, a Life Archaeologist, coffee shop writer and consumer of bagels and hot cocoa, endless reader, lover of travel, and occasional hermit. You can find her in her hermit house re-reading Harry Potter (again).
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Invisible Mothers - Emily R Long
Invisible
Mothers
when love doesn’t die
By Emily R. Long, LPC
Invisible Mothers © 2015 Emily R. Long.
All rights reserved. This book or any portion thereof may not be reproduced or used in any manner whatsoever without the express written permission of the publisher except for the use of brief quotations in a book review.
Printed in the United States of America
First Printing 2015
ISBN 978-0-9965556-0-9
Firefly Grace Publishing
292 Woody Lane Suite A
Asheville, NC 28804
www.EmilyRLong.com
Interior Design: ShiftFWD
Cover Design: Davon Embler
For Grace and Lily
Always.
Also,
For the daughter of my Aunt Suz,
born still August 22, 1974
For the son of my Grandma Long,
David Allen
1/24/49 - 1/25/49
For all the mothers aching in the silence for their children to hold,
You are not alone.
Contents
Gratitude & Love
Breaking the Silence
Part One: Our Experience of Love and Loss
A Mother’s Love
Unimaginable Loss
Shining a Light on Isolation, Silence, and Shame
The Emotional Storm
What You Don’t See
A Lifetime of Mothering
Part Two: Sharing Love and Support
A Foundation of Understanding
Ban the Platitudes, Please
Bring Your Presence and Your Honesty
Remember With Us
See Our Motherhood
Honoring Our Differences
From Mother to Mother
Life Continues: A Brighter Today
Dear Invisible Mothers
Mothers and Children
Gratitude & Love
To Mom and Dad: You have always loved, supported, and encouraged me along my crazy path. You gave me a foundation of unconditional love and the wings to fly. I love you.
To my chosen family: You beamed a light that brought me home to myself. You brighten my life every day. I love you.
To Amy Davis: Without your absolute faith, kick-my-ass coaching, and incredible love this book may not have come to be. You truly are a burst of love and sunlight in my life. I love you.
To Barbara Waterhouse: You were the first to hear Grace’s name and the first to call me a mother. Thank you for being my teacher. I love you.
To Amy Hermodson: You taught me a great deal in the classroom. You taught me so much more about the beauty of learning to live while grieving. Those hours in your office were like a balm to a very raw and wounded heart. I will always remember your Anna. I love you.
To all the mothers who entrusted me with your stories and children for this book: You are my inspiration. You were held close with every word I wrote. You made this book possible.
To my editors: You made this book better, clearer, and more beautiful. Thank you for bringing your gifts to this project.
And to Grace & Lily: This is for you. Thank you for being my children and my teachers. There is nothing I cannot do because I am your mother. Mama loves you, always.
Also, extra thanks to my favorite local coffee shops: City Bakery (Charlotte Street) and Edna’s of Asheville as well as All Good Coffee of Weaverville for supplying bagels and the many cups of hot cocoa that fueled the writing of this book :)
Breaking the Silence
It was my daughter’s would-have-been 6th birthday when I realized that no one had ever spoken her name to me and, other than me, no one remembered that she had lived.
It was then that I finally told someone about her life, and her death. It was the first time I’d spoken of her to anyone. I cried for the pain of her loss and the freedom of being seen and heard for the first time. Finally, the pain and grief that had pressed so heavily around my heart for so many years began to ease just the slightest bit.
That moment of realization, and of finding my voice, was the initial seed of this book coming to life.
As the years have passed since that day, I have talked of my Grace and her younger sister, Lily, with many. I speak openly of their lives, their deaths and my grief process. Remembering and acknowledging them eases the terrible ache of not being able to hold them, nurture them, and mother them the way I want to in this lifetime. The more I talk of them, the more alive they feel to me.
When I am able to talk of them and acknowledge their lives, I feel less like an invisible mother and am simply their mother.
In the twelve years since my first daughter’s stillbirth, I have looked for books about mothers like me. I found countless books on pregnancy loss and child loss in general. I found many books on pregnancy after loss and parenting after loss.
I found nothing on what it is to be a mother without any living children. I could find nothing on what it is to heal from loss without either having a living child born before loss or a living child born after loss.
It felt like there was no one else like me. When the isolation and loneliness of my grief felt unbearable, there was nothing I could reach for to remind me that I wasn’t alone. If there were others like me, it seemed no one was talking about it. Even in baby loss communities, this experience of being a mother without living children wasn’t really being acknowledged.
That is, in part, what this book is about. It is about giving other mothers like me, mothers who have lost their babies and who don’t have any other living children, the acknowledgment they rarely receive. I want this book to be there, available in those dark moments of isolation and loneliness to let other mothers know, I see you. I know that you love. I see your motherhood. You are not alone.
I did eventually realize that I wasn’t alone in this experience of mothering without a physical child here. When I first started the process of this book, I still wasn’t entirely sure that I wasn’t alone. As I reached out and started talking I discovered that there are many invisible mothers in the world. So many of these mothers are also searching for someone who shares their experience. Finding them helped pieced together a crack in my heart.
This book is not a dry, academic book on grief or child loss. It’s both personal and professional – and more. For this book project, nearly 50 other invisible mothers came forward to share their stories and their experiences with me. They are a small group among the thousands of invisible mothers who live in our world.
These mothers come from all across the United States as well as five other countries. They come from a wide variety of backgrounds with diverse faith systems, sexual orientation, relationship status,