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By LYRIC HAWKINS

ROTT3N~$~APPLE DECISIONS OF A WALL STREET THUG BL3$$3D & H8'D!
FROM THUG TO WALL STREET THIS IS A SOUTHSIDE JAMAICA QUEENS STORY

Lyric Nino Nasir Hawkins is a young black king growing-up in the mean streets of New York’s Sin City; the most infamous public housing projects, known as 40 Projects. He is an all-around great kid coming into man-hood who loves and protects his family, but due to critical circumstances, he becomes a product of his environment...

Inducted into the game at a very young age, he began working for the most notorious drug kingpin in New York!

Subjected to drugs, drug crimes, money laundering, kidnappings, murder, prostitution, molestation, rape, and terrorism.

THIS EXPLOSIVE ACTION-PACKED URBAN TRUE CRIME STORY WILL HAVE YOU ON THE EDGE OF YOUR SEAT!

Follow Lyric On His Journey Of Trials, Tribulations, And Spiritual Warfare As He Puts On The Full Armor Of God To Become The Man God Meant For Him To Be.

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• Language: English
• Publisher: LYRIC HAWKINS
• Release date: Mar 19, 2022
• ISBN: 9781005856847

LYRIC HAWKINS

Lyric Nino Nasir Hawkins, hailing from SouthSide Jamaica Queens New York, is a Multi-Talented Lyricist, Performer, Mentor, Entrepreneur, and Published Author of a new creative political work-of-art -ACTIVIST THE BLACK BOOK: THE 14 CHAMBERS. This book was inspired by the injustice that continues to oppress our people; in conjunction with my previous writings and groundbreaking non-fiction autobiography memoir, of organized crime, that will enlighten and spark the intellect of young minds -ROTT3N~$~APPLE: DECISIONS OF A WALL STREET THUG "From Thug 2 Wall Street" BL3$$3D & H8'D! ROTT3N~$~APPLE delves into the captivating world and the realities of organized crime, shedding light on its dark underbelly while simultaneously igniting the intellect of young minds to encourage them to think strategically and critically about their own paths in life.... This novel offers a unique perspective on personal growth and transformation. Lyric continues to evolve and expand his creative horizons; He is driven by a relentless pursuit of excellence. His personal mantra is to create content that is emotionally engaging, taking pride in his ability to connect with diverse audiences to deliver content that is not only entertaining but enlightening leaving a lasting impact on those who encounter it. His work is a testament to his commitment to excellence and his dedication to creating memorable experiences for his audience. Lyric has been a lifelong poetry writer and lyrical performer, with a passion for lyrical expression, who has opened shows for a multitude of music industry artists. His ability to connect with readers and listeners on a profound level has earned him recognition and respect within the industry. His journey in the world of music began at an early age when he discovered his innate ability to express himself through lyrics and melodies. Over the years, Lyric has honed his skills as a lyricist, captivating audiences with his thought-provoking verses. His passion for music has not only allowed him to connect with his audience on a deep level but has also granted him the privilege of collaborating with renowned artists in the industry. Beyond Lyric's artistic endeavors, Lyric is a dedicated mentor committed to guiding and inspiring individuals to unlock their fullest potential. Through his mentorship program, Lyric strives to empower young minds; he is familiar with the challenges faced by today's youth. It is his mission to provide them with the tools and guidance necessary.to overcome obstacles to achieve their dreams, and reach their full potential no matter their circumstances. Through sheer determination and unwavering focus, Lyric embarked on a journey of personal transformation. Armed with an unyielding work ethic and a thirst for knowledge, he immersed himself in the world of IT security engineering. It was a realm that demanded technical expertise, analytical skills, and a deep understanding of the ever-evolving cyber landscape. As a Professional Information Technology Security Engineer who has truly walked the paths of his character, Lyric has spent the last decade researching data for his work of art. In conclusion, I am Lyric Nino Nasir Hawkins, a Multi-Talented Lyricist, Performer, Mentor, Entrepreneur, and Published Author. I bring my humanity, creativity, expertise, passion, and humor, to every project I undertake. I have experienced a life that few can truly understand. My personal journey is one that has shaped me into the individual I am today. I am a force to be reckoned with. I am committed to delivering nothing but the best, and I look forward to making a lasting impact on the world through my creative works of art, lyrics, music, and business endeavors. I invite you to join me on this extraordinary journey. WALL STR33T THUG A highly intellectually intelligent individual. A financial hustler by nature, who knows the power of the dollar! HU$TLE 24 S3V3N

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PUT ON THE FULL ARMOR OF GOD!

THE HOLY BIBLE | EPHESIANS 6:13-17

"Therefore, put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand.

Stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled around your waist, with the breastplate of righteousness in place, and with your feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace.

In addition to all this, take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one.

Take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God. Amen!"

INTRODUCTION

This is a story about my life, a young Black King growing up in the mean streets of Sin City (40 Projects, South-Side", South Jamaica Queens), New York. 

THIS IS A SOUTHSIDE JAMAICA QUEENS STORY!

INTRODUCTION

SPECIAL THANKS

First And Foremost , All Praises Due To Almighty God, The Supreme Being, Architect of Life, Baring Knowledge, Wisdom, & Understanding!

To My Mother, Who Has Always Guided Me To Do The Right Thing. Rest In Power Queen!

To The Spiritual Direction of Brother Malcolm X, For The Inspiration, Enlightenment, And Intellectual Guidance From Your Teachings That Allowed Me To See The Truth. Peace!

Rest In Power King!

LETTER TO WIFEY

LETTER TO WIFEY

To My Amazing, Loving Wife, Nina:

Before I found you, I was lost with just a personification of you; lost without intent or desire.

Through my dreams, you inspire the manifestation of love which burns in my heart like an eternal fire.

Being the most-highest form of understanding it gave me life; the momentum & motivation to achieve and conquer.

Thank you, thank you for being my wife!

I thank you for being such an inspiration in my life.

Through you, I have truly learned to love.

I Love You Past My Mind, Beyond My Heart; I Love You With My Spiritual Essence, My Soul!

-Papi!

DEDICATION

THIS BOOK IS DEDICATED IN THE LOVING MEMORY OF MY MOTHER

MRS. E.M.H.W

1947-1994

SPECIAL DEDICATION

IN LOVING MEMORY OF MY AUNT—A LIFE TAKEN TOO SOON!

J.M.H

1962-1988

READERS NOTE

TO MY READERS:

I do not condone the activities you may read in this book.

The incidents stated within are intended to be used as a learning tool only.

It is written to inspire and to spark the intellect of young minds; so that you as an individual, will to be able to extract value from my experiences that can be used as a prevention or inspiration to do better, to be better, than I was growing-up in the hood.

No One Is Excluded From The Trials, Tribulations, And The, Spiritual Laws Of Life; For We Are Born To Die!

THE ORIGINAL NAMES OF CHARACTORS HAVE BEEN REMOVED TO PROTECT THE INNOCENT.

Viewer Discretion Is Advised!

COMMENTARY

LIFE IS LIKE ONE BIG talent show; it’s based on professionalism, intelligence, integrity, creativity, stamina, style, and swagger. Every move you make must be similar to those of a chess game. The decisions you make, and how well you perform on stage will dictate how successful you’ll become in this game of LIFE.

YEAR 2015

YEAR | 2015

As we reached the state of Virginia, we were caught right I the middle of the hurricane. It was crazy, trees were falling all over the place, crazy flooding from the rain, and there are barely any lights on I-95 North.

I was driving 55-mph in a 40-mph min and 70-mph max speed limit. My Beamer was handling the road just fine until, we approached this bridge in King George area of Virginia. There were absolutely no highway lights at all, it was dark as hell even with my H.I.D Head-Lights, Fog-Lights and H.I.D High-Beams on, it was still less than 10% visibility. There were no other vehicles on the road for miles at that time of the night.

Suddenly; I hit a huge body of water and it looked and felt like the car actually went under the water. It began to hydroplane, the car started to fish-tail, I steered into the spin to try to regain control. I tapped my brakes slowly several times, suddenly, it felt like something spiritual took the front of the car and spun it really hard into a complete circle towards the side rails, and as I watched the whole thing take place all I could do is pray, and repeat, oh God No! No! No! My car had hit & flipped over the side-rails; all I kept saying is please don’t let anything happen to Nina, please don’t let us land into the river with the Alligator’s. Please Lord Please, if you gotta take someone, please save Nina, and take me!

The sky was completely black, I couldn’t see anything, I felt the car hit really hard to the front left side, and then really hard to the rear right side, I could tell that the car was still spinning. It then hit extremely, hard about four more times, and then one final extremely hard loud crash. I had no sense of direction at all at that point, I didn’t know if we were on land or in the river; all I knew is that there was dirt and tree branches entering the vehicle as we kept sliding downward. I must have lost consciousness or something, because when I snapped out of it, my head and body was hurting, I heard ringing in my ears, and I couldn’t move my left leg or my right arm and I was crying from all the pain...  I looked over at Nina, and she was not conscious, I kept, calling her name, over and over, again repeatedly, but she didn’t respond. I leaned over against the driver’s side door and I used my right foot to shake her as best as I could, suddenly, she moved and I kept asking her over, and over, are you okay? She responded briefly, stating that her head was pounding; she asked me what had happened, I told her that we were just in an accident and we went over the side rails, then suddenly, she had passed out again...

LET’S GO TO THE BEGINNING WHERE IT ALL STARTED...

CHAPTER 01 | THE BEGINNING

CHAPTER 01 | THE BEGINNING

B

orn a Black King raised in the trenches, the ghettos of New York, better known as Sin City. So, you may ask yourself, why does he consider himself to be a King? I address myself as such in the image of our God, King of all Kings, whom we are created in his own image and considered to be his children.

My mother Elise (Virgo); God Bless Her Soul, Rest-In-Power! she did the best that she could possibly do as a strong black woman, single parent, mother of six hard-headed boys.

Being raised by a single parent was a blessing and a curse.

My Mother taught me compassion, empathy, patience, tolerance, respect, and how to always speak my mind no matter what the cost, and to love unconditionally. That is my blessing!

She was the sweetest woman in the world; she would give you her last of anything, even if it meant she had to do without. She raised and taught me how to be a good man.

But what she couldn’t teach me is how to be a man; that was my father’s job and a task I had to learn on my own.

I was born @ 3:30 PM in St. Mary’s Hospital located in the Bedford Stuyvesant area of Brooklyn New York (Bed-Stuy, Do or Die!), on December 14th of 1966 (Sagittarius).

My mother lived with her parents, Jacob (Aquarius), and Ella (Virgo). At the time my grandparents had seven girls and seven boys, out of those seven boys only two survived; people were known to have lots of children back in those days.

They lived in Brooklyn for many years on Greene Avenue between Sumner Ave (Marcus Garvey Blvd.) and Lewis Avenue.

That’s where my mother had the mistaken pleasure of meeting my dead-beat father, Alonzo Reid (Cancer); I guess that is his correct name.

I remember overhearing my mother cuss him out in a few heated discussions as a child. Until this very day, most of the bad things I’ve had the pleasure of hearing regarding my father; continues to be a one-sided story. The last time that I saw or heard from him, was when I was about eight years old.

My mom was a federal employee, she worked at the post office in the Brooklyn area of New York. She was also a United States Navy Cadet Lieutenant who later became a Certified Registered Nurse.

While she was working as a postal worker, she was robbed on her way home from work one day and they stole her purse, jewelry, and money. Just the day before, she had just picked up my baby pictures she had taken at a photography studio. She had brought them to work to show her co-workers; unfortunately, they were also stolen along with her leather bag when she got robbed.

She never got the chance to retake them and as of today, I have no photographic pictures of myself as a baby, toddler, or pre-k student.

Most of my childhood memories are blurred (lost), due to being burned in a house fire at the age of four. It happened two years after we moved out to Queens in 1970. In 1968, my grandparents purchased a house on 142nd Street and Rockaway Boulevard, (South Side).

Like I said, I was raised in the ghetto, but what I can’t figure out is; why is the south side of every city in every state in the United States considered to be the ghetto?

Anyway, where was I? Oh, yes, the fire! It was a pretty house indeed... It had three levels:  the basement, the 1st floor, and the second floor. We had a huge front and backyard to play in. At the time my mother only had two children, my brother Rico, and I; she was also pregnant with my brother Chino Jr. (Cancer).

One day, my stepfather Chino Sr (Aries); who is also Chino’s biological father; was outside in the backyard of the house. We were having a family Bar ‘B’ Que that day and Chino noticed that there was a colony of ants crawling up the side of the house. He grabbed a box of matches and a can of cigarette lighter fluid and he began burning the ants. I guess he didn’t realize that my baby brother Rico (Cancer) was actually watching him do this. We all enjoyed the food and entertainment that day. Everyone pitched in and helped clean the Bar ‘B’ Que Area, we were exhausted.

Later that evening while everyone was asleep; my brother Rico somehow found the can of cigarette lighter fluid; which Chino had stored on the top of the refrigerator in the kitchen. He must have seen a few ants crawling around inside of the house and tried to mimic my stepfather by burning them with the lighter fluid. How Rico got to the top of the refrigerator remains a mystery. Rico put the tip of the lighter-fluid can inside one of the electrical wall outlets and then squeezed out all the fluid. This you can imagine caused an electrical fire within the walls of the house. A few hours later the whole house went up in blazing flames. There was thick black smoke everywhere. Pieces of the ceiling came crashing down into the house and you can faintly hear everyone in the house screaming. I was still fast asleep in my bed; everyone else was trying to get out of the burning house.

The local fire department was only two blocks away and they were out on another call that turned out to be a false alarm at the time. My mother couldn’t get to my brother and I due to the location of the fire and had already jumped out of the upstairs window. Shortly after that, the fire department had finally arrived. My mother told the firemen that her two children were still in the house and that she could not get to us due to all the fire and smoke.

The rescue squad immediately rushed into the house and began searching for me and my brother. I was found lying in my bed where I was still asleep. By that time; the mattress I was sleeping on had caught fire. one of the firemen sprayed and soaked the mattress with water from his fire-hose and carried me out of the house while the others were still searching for my brother. They finally found Rico hiding under the bed in my mother’s bedroom.

I was unconscious by the time they pulled me out of the fire; the rescue team put my body on the gurney by the fire trucks which was low to the ground and began trying to revive me. They worked on me for a half-hour cause my heart had stopped beating. Several minutes later the EMS Paramedics pronounced me dead! Everyone was hysterical; the fire fighter who was trying to revive me (Fire Fighter C. Wade), became very emotional, tears filled his eyes as he continuously performed CPR. He kept working on me though, everyone was in complete awe. Suddenly my mother and my aunt Isabel (Capricorn) noticed that my feet had moved, while the firemen were still pumping oxygen into my lungs. They started screaming His feet are moving over and over again. The EMS Team rushed Rico and I to Queens General Hospital located in Flushing, right off the Grand Central Parkway. A few hours later, due to the seriousness of our conditions, we were transported over to Triboro Hospital where they have a specialized burn center.

Rico and I both suffered second & third-degree burns. Rico was burned on his chest, under arm-pits, and forearms. He had to have multiple skin graph procedures. The doctors took skin from his buttocks to cover several areas on his body due to the burns he suffered. Back then, I use to tease him a lot about that; whenever he got me upset, I would call him booty man. Aside from all the burns he had suffered from, he was pretty much ok.

As for myself, I had 3rd degree burns on my legs and I suffered from very bad smoke inhalation from the fire and smoke. My heart had stopped beating for several minutes. Due to the lack of oxygen to my brain, it resulted in me having mild brain damage. I had lost the mobility of my neck, arms, and legs. We were hospitalized for at least six to eight months before they released us. The hospital released my brother first; I came home a few weeks later.

The doctors told my mother that I lost complete mobility of my limbs and that I would never be able to walk again. Due to having mild brain damage, my vision and speech was affected, the muscles in my eyes were damaged and at times they would cross. My speech was slurred and I couldn’t pronounce words correctly. I had to learn how to talk, hold my neck up, and learn to use my arms and legs all over again, (At 4 years old).

A few weeks later after being released from the hospital; My mother took me to visit the New York City Fire Department - Engine 302 - Ladder 155 located in (Queens),143-15 Rockaway Blvd. Jamaica, NY 11436.

At that time, we had learned that Fire Fighter C. Wade, the same fireman that had saved my life, lost his own life, in another four-alarm fire.

I send my eternal gratitude and condolences out to his family!

My grandparents needed that big house; they had a lot of children together. My grandma had seven girls and seven boys. Most of the boys did not survive... The two that did survive birth are my uncle Damien (Aquarius) and my uncle Richie (Taurus) R.I.P... Richie was killed after graduating from boot camp in the United States Marine Corps. at the age of nineteen by his so-called friends.

My uncle Damien is a schizophrenic; I was told that he became that way after witnessing his older brother being murdered. I think that’s the reason why he started getting high at such a young age, he also sniffed glue as a kid; I guess he needed to get high just to get rid of some of

the bad dreams and bad memories. It seems that everything else in his life went downhill from that point on.

Sometimes it got pretty scary though, like the time when he tried to kill my mother and my aunt Brenda (Gemini). He came over to our apartment one evening while we were living in 40 Projects. He chased my mother and my aunt Brenda with a long butcher’s knife; he actually threw the knife at my aunt as she was running trying to get away from him, lucky for her she was wearing her thick brown leather jacket that day. The knife got stuck in the leather of the back part of the jacket without penetrating her skin.

He also tried to rape my other aunt Zendaiya a.k.a. Zaiya (Cancer); his own sister.  At the time, Zaiya was dating this guy named Romero who later became my cousin Sonia’s biological father. Zaiya had told Romero what had happened; so, Romero and his friend Cass took my uncle Damien into the garage and they beat him up with a baseball bat, really bad. This is the short version of the crazy shit Damien use to do. He was also arrested on several other occasions as a juvenile delinquent which continued into his adult years.

No matter what my uncle Damien has done in his life; I will always have love for him. I guess the reason that I have this close bond with him is that, he is the one that spent a lot of time with me trying to teach me how to walk and hold my head up after I was released from the hospital. It was kind of comical sometimes... I can look back now and actually laugh at the time shortly after being burnt out. Social Services had relocated my family into a local Hotel; The Q Motor Inn; it was a nice little hotel out in Kew Gardens right off the Grand Central Parkway a few blocks away from the Hospital my brother Rico and I were in.

We stayed at the Q until we were able to find another home. I remember this one night; I was sleeping in the bed next to my mother who was also asleep. I had somehow fallen off the bed and onto the floor. I started crying and calling for my mother... When she had finally awakened, she ran out of the room like a mad woman looking for me. She ran up & down the hotel corridor, she searched everywhere that she could think of hysterically. I was still lying on the floor frustrated and crying because I could not get up on my own. After a few minutes of running from room to room searching for me; she realized that I was under the bottom side of the bed we were both sleeping on.

It was then that my uncle Damien decided that he was going to teach me how to walk again. He made me his own little project... He worked with me every day, and every day, I got just a little closer to doing it on my own, slowly but surely. It took a few months before I actually got up and walked without anyone holding on to me. It happened one day while all the adults in the family were in the adjacent room we stayed in within the Hotel. I was sitting on the floor surrounded by four huge pillows like a fortress watching cartoons. I had decided that I didn’t want to watch that particular channel any longer. So, I called out for someone to come and change the TV channel for me... I guess they didn’t hear me calling because it was surely taking them a long time to respond. So, I decided that I was going to get up and try to do it all on my own. I pulled myself up onto one of the big pillows, and I grabbed the edge of the bed... Then, I took tiny steps across the room where the TV was sitting on top of the TV stand.

My mother caught a glimpse of this through the corner of the door and got nervously shocked, she screamed so loud that she startled me and I fell to the floor. Everyone was so happy for me; the doctors had said that I would never walk again, God had other plans.

There were a lot of good times, and a lot of bad times back in those days. There was a time when my mom and her best friend Madalina Terreto would go out to some of the neighborhood parties, just so my mom could bring home food so that my brother and I could have something to eat. I guess that is what being a great parent is all about; doing what is necessary in troubled times. Madalina (Pisces) had two kids of her own at the time, her oldest daughter Gloria (Gemini), and her son Theo (Leo) Teretto. Gloria was a year younger than I was, when my mom and her mom were hanging out, we would have sex all the time. She was my first and I was hers. I’ve been having sex since I was 8 years old.

When I was about the age of 10, my mother and her friend Madalina were out somewhere and they asked my aunt Justine (Aries) to mind us. Justine was just four years older than I was, she came over and she brought her friend Faye with her. Justine needed to go somewhere and she asked Faye to keep an eye on us until she got back. After my aunt left, Faye came into our bedroom and my brother Rico and I hid under the blankets on our bed. Faye kept calling us but we didn’t answer, suddenly she pulled back the blankets and we all started laughing. Faye took off her shoes and she got into the bed between my brother and I. she started kissing me and she put my hand on her tits and she grabbed my dick. My brother saw what she was doing and he put his head on her chest and started sucking her other Titt. We both took turns finger-poppin her and she let both of us fuck her.

When my aunt came back, she asked Faye if we gave her any trouble, Faye said I’ll Baby sit them anytime, they were no problem at all!

My Mom and Madalina stayed partying, even when my mother wasn’t partying with Madalina, she had to have her Virginia Slims cigarettes and a six-pack of Golden Champaign. I remember her being a little tipsy while hanging out in her bedroom with her friend Idris. They had got into an intense argument and Idris had punched my mother in her face. My Mom threw a glass of Mayonnaise jar at him and hit him in the head, Idris said, Next time throw the mustard, you know I hate Mayo!

I had just come into the apartment and my aunt Zaiya yelled over to me, Nasir, Idris just punch Elise in the face!"  I kicked open my mother’s bedroom door and punch Idris in the face and he grabbed me and threw me across the room. My aunt Zaiya jumped into the fight and I took my leather belt off and strapped it around Idris’s neck while my mother and Zaiya were punching him in the face. Idris stopped breathing after a few minutes so we dragged his body out into the hallway and threw him down the steps. We waited to see if he was going to wake up, but he didn’t. I went back into the house and got the mop bucket and filled it with hot water. I threw the water on him and the metal bucket followed hitting him in the head, he then snapped out of it. Idris never came back after that day...

My mother and I ran into him one day on our way to catch the (F) Train at the Parsons Boulevard station... He didn’t even bother to look our way.

CHAPTER 02 | GROWING PAINS

CHAPTER 02 | GROWING PAINS

A

fter living in the Hotel for an extended period of time, we had finally found an apartment in South Jamaica Houses, 40 Projects, and the heart of SouthSide Queens. This is where I spent most of my growing years. We first lived on 159th Street and 108th Avenue. We had lived in two apartments in the 108-09 building. The first apartment we had was on the sixth floor in apartment 6-B. After about three years we then moved onto the second floor, apartment 2-B, right over the nursery. And if ya’ll know the PJ’s Like I know the PJ’s; it wasn’t a welcome sight. It looked bad and smelled bad; there were all sorts of bugs and rats all around the projects. The roaches were like gangsta terrorists, you literally had to stomp on them several times and then check to see if they were still kickin, and then stomp them even more before they would die.

Let’s not forget the fact that everywhere you went, there was a drug scene. Drug Dealers on every corner. My mother bought new furniture for the entire apartment, wall-to-wall white carpets everywhere. When people came to visit us, they would have to take off their shoes at the door before they could enter. My mother didn’t play, she made us keep the house spic & span.

When I was about eight years old, my aunt Princess (Pisces) ran into my father one day out in Brooklyn. Princess had decided to give him our contact information. She told him that I was getting big and that he should come to see me.

He came to the projects to visit and he brought his other two children with him; my brother Vance and my sister Sierra. This was the first time that I had ever heard of them... Until then; I never knew that I had other siblings other than my brother Rico.

My mother use to tell me stories about how when she was just a few months pregnant with me; my father sent his two sisters to beat up on her, to try and make her have a miscarriage. The both of them jumped her one day, kicking her in the stomach trying to make her hemorrhage. My mother also told me about the time when my father’s mother had tried to make her drink bitter apples and Gin so that she would get really sick and be forced to abort me. A few years later; my aunt Grace (Taurus), mother of my three cousins Cole Capricorn)

, Timothy Sagittarius), and Thia (Scorpio). Grace told this story to me about how my father was married to another woman, while he was dating my mother, but that’s no excuse for what he did. Until this very day, I still can’t figure out why my father didn’t want me.

Even If there is some truth to what my aunt Grace told me; that’s certainly no excuse for his actions and not taking responsibility as a man!

We lived in the 108-09 building for about 8 years total, that’s how I became friends with Lloyd Banks, he frequently hung out on the corner of 159th Street and 108th ave. (The Square), getting money with the rest of