A Reason to Look for Tomorrow
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Poetry is a form of expression but, for people dealing with mental illness, expression is often a luxury they can't afford. Sometimes it takes encouragement to help someone shed their mask and allow others to understand their struggles.
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A Reason to Look for Tomorrow - Saad Manasterli
A Reason to Look For Tomorrow
Saad Manasterli
new degree press
copyright © 2023 Saad Manasterli
All rights reserved.
A Reason to Look For Tomorrow
ISBN
979-8-88926-636-5 Paperback
979-8-88926-637-2 eBook
I wanted to dedicate this book to Teta, my late grandmother. She always believed I would accomplish great things. Thank you for believing in me.
Contents
Introduction
Chapter 1
Friendship and Love
Room for One
Time Wasted
To Love That Wasted My Time
How Do You Love
Dream of Mine
Jittery Nerves
A Relationship
Chores
Still
Original Sin
Regardless
Sing Along
Smile My Lover
Threads of Love
This Love
Wayward Soul
You Rise
You Showed Me
What Was It Supposed to Mean?
Your Man
On to the Rest
Love
In Your Eyes
Highway
My Earth
Beauty
A New Beginning
Back to Me
A Moment to Think
Worthy of Us
Cursed
Back to You
My Zen
Chapter 2
Mental Illness
Depression Is a Sin
My Night
Out of Steam
Restraints
Seasons Change
Sleepwalking
Time Has Passed
Turning in Circles
Not Bonding
Bloodstains
Nothing
Wishes
Hopes
Me
My Reflection in a Bag
Muted Lips
Let You Know
Lets Go
God as My Witness
Hallowed Calls
Heavy Heart
I Don’t Want to See My Face
Crown
Bittersweet Friend of Mine
Clown Face
A Curse to Me
Another Friend
For Sale
Seer
Buildup
The Train
Withered
Cancer
Abandoned Cabin
A Way to Cope
In the Soil
Chapter 3
Society
Forsaken
You Czar
Aren’t Allowed
Kindness
Faith
One
Rewind
Squares
Tell Me
Tomorrow
Useless Psalms
Wide Shut
She Remained
Fame
Poetry
Scheme
In Layers
Life Is a Simile
Ignorance, Ignore Me
Desirable
Fairy Tale
Ashtray
Buffering
Cross Fires
Always Cold
Debt
Worth Forgiving
A Better Future
Chapter 4
Identity
Plan
Sideways
Spectator
The Void
Too Fleeting
Tormented Blurbs
Truth Within a Lie
Evaporated
Nameless
Home of Birth
I Am What I Seek
Illusions
What I Feel Like
You Keep
At Peace
In Disguise
Father
Fiction
Fruitless Desires
Be Forgotten
By the Batch
As I Lay
See It Clear
Awake
Joy
Travel
No Longer Here
Misplaced
Fire
Home
Ball and Chain
Imperfection
Dismantle
A Reality
A Cup
Damnation
Weakness
Challenges
Patience
Blood Is in My Eyes
Who Keeps Score
Maybe
Path
Turns Scary
Confined
Playing Pretend
Acknowledgments
Appendix
Introduction
I am alive today due to my ability to uncork my bottle and share with the world, for the first time, all of me. All my walls have crumbled; this is me, uncorked.
I have suffered from mental illness since I was a teenager, and it has taken years to figure out a treatment plan to manage it. A combination of medication, writing, and self-reflection have helped, but I still have ups and downs. I am still triggered by certain things. But I am also more than my illness. I am a successful human being with a career, a family, and friends who love me. I have become more confident in myself and my abilities, although the scared teenager is still there within me.
Some of the stigma surrounding mental illnesses is dissipating. Mass media and popular culture have helped to shed light on the complexities of mental illness in general, but there is more work to be done. According to National Institute of Health statistics, 21 percent of US adults experience mental illness (US Department of Health and Human Services 2020). That’s about 52.9 million of us (in 2020). Most people know somebody who struggles, whether they are aware of it or not. Some win their battles but, unfortunately, some lose. And the COVID-19 pandemic has only made things worse—according to the World Health Organization, the pandemic has caused a 25 percent increase in depression and anxiety (World Health Organization 2022).
So, my goal is to share my struggles and show readers who may be similarly struggling that they are not alone in the fight. I write for the masses who are in the same boat. I am finally in a place in my life where I can break the chains and shed my burdens to share my deeper, darker side. I can free myself of these troubles. I understand I am not alone, that I continue to fight alongside many others in silence.
My pains and struggles stem from bottling up my emotions, from wearing a mask to make sure the people around me are not aware of the struggles and battles I fight within myself daily. Sometimes thoughts and phrases roil in my head, and I must get them out in whatever medium is close at hand (including having my wife type them on her phone if we’re in the car). The words just fight their way out. When I write, I remove the mask and face myself head on, expressing my pain in verses as I create poetry between the paper and the pen. Sometimes I can go days without a single verse—those are the good days. But on others I am slammed by verses left and right, high and low. These are the bad days, and going through a slump makes it harder. But I fight the slump daily. I make it happen because I am strong. And I want to help others do the same.
My mental illness went undiagnosed for a long time. Once diagnosed, the miracles of modern medicine helped me treat the symptoms for a while. But the body adapts