Charge It To My Heart
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Our experiences in life could teach us various lessons-may it be getting out of addiction, accepting one's self, embracing one's inner child, being alone and peaceful, falling in love, getting wounded a thousand times but coming out stronger, and other messages from life's intricacies. Antoinette Calwonsen has experienced it all-sorrows and joys-and has passionately turned everything into writing. Being sick for a long time and having been diagnosed with bipolar/manic-depressive disorder, this a
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Charge It To My Heart - Antoinete Calwonsen
Accept Me as I Am
Accept me as I am
No matter my past
There have been guardian angels following
Me for years now
Unbeknownst to me
Forty-five years
How much more can one body take, Lord?
I will stay the course
Till that day you shout my name and call me
To your side
My eternal home
There I will rest in peace knowing I did my
Best
Just be done with me carefully
I am getting tired already
Addictive
You are addictive
Just like the food we eat
I crave you
Just like a drink
I thirst for the sight of you
Just like the sun
I am warm thinking about your touch
Just like a breeze
I ache for the cooling feeling of our time together
Just like the rain
I cry for times to come
Just like the moon
I see your presence around me
You are addictive
A Child in Me
There is a child in me
Screaming to play on a jungle gym
Swinging on a swing back and forth
There is a child in me
Who wanted a simple kiss on the forehead
Misbehaving in school
Playing alone till dinner was ready
There is a child in me
Who craves to be safe
Praying for peace when it came time to sleep
Feelings of disgust
With feelings of being free
This Is No Joke
I have no sense of humor
I have often been told to lighten up
I have never had a blank mind
Horror and hard times roll until the mountains erupt
This is no joke
My life I had too much against me
Laughing and even smiling are still foreign
I yearn to have a mind that is free
Sure I can chuckle at a good joke
Or a smile may cross my lips when a friend calls
Most of the time I am guarded
Waiting to push off and fall from that cliff
This is no joke
Wounded and crying in fear
Isolated
Feeling so alone
Somehow I am still here
Alone
A world unlike reality
Unreal but peaceful
A time and space captured only in dreams
Beautiful to the eyes
Soft to the touch
Tamed yet wild
Free but constantly careful
Alone
A world not suited for some
I do not wish to share
So beautiful at first glance yet so destructive
Horror stories that should not be heard
Memories I wish I could prevent
It is all such a waste
Yet I prefer to be alone
Please
Please take this load off me
Please take the breath from my lungs
Please stop the reruns in my head
Please remove me from this world
Please help me understand
Please give me hope
Please strengthen me even more
Please extend a hand
Please lift me up
Please I want to go
Please do not leave me
Please I have had enough
Please believe me
I am failing quite fast
Please a prayer is all I have left
Please I did nothing wrong I think
Please silence ridicule I still hear
Please help me see how to go on
Please
Captured by You
Why am I captured by you?
I find myself curious to know
Your feelings
You frame of mind
Your history
I want to trace you like an artist
I wish to unfold your many layers
I am captured by you
Your look
Your strength
Your beauty glows
I want to know your soul
Why?
You asked about me
Do you really want to hear?
I am hard to handle
My two sides can spin on a dime
I can be as cold as a stone
Then deep as an abyss
I may not be what you think you see
I am good at masks
Been doing it all my life
If you’re still interested
Come do some capturing with me.
Range of Rage
I capped a temper at a young age
Too often a witness to the adult version
Swore to myself I would never be
I fought the desire to drink
An example lying flat on the floor
But still I wanted to escape
If I let it all out at that time
I feared what I would become
How many I might hurt
Range of rage
I found ways to soothe myself
Poetry
Music
Still I lost me when I lost my mind
What is to become of me now?
I no longer know how to show my range of rage
Children of God
We are all children of God
No matter gender
No matter level of class born into
No matter which neighborhood
No matter the influence, mother or father
No matter how much God throws at you
No matter how much you pray
No matter how we choose to live our lives
No matter how hard you believe things to be
No matter how hard it is to ask for help
We are all children of God
For a Thousand Reasons
Here it is, time to lay me down again
Exhausted in hopes of passing out
For a thousand reasons
My eyes close and a picture show starts
No control whatsoever
On occasion I have found myself on the floor
Screaming inside without making a sound
I got good at that
For a thousand reasons
I have issues with trust
Confidence
Love and even lust
It disgusts me to even think of ever again
Being touched
I have too much to deal with
Too much to find the words to describe
Too much to learn how to say
For a thousand reasons
I pray for sleep with no attack
Emotional fears are fierce to uncrack
Come Home
Sitting here at my desk daydreaming of you
Your smile as bright as the morning sun
and as