Where Is Ashley? A Woman's Journey To Healing and Hope After Abortion

By Kimberly I. Lewis

Has Abortion Affected Your Life?

Have you ever felt a numbness, an ache deep inside that seems to never go away? Do you feel a sadness and a loss? Is there a deep secret you've kept hidden because it's too painful to face? Have you wanted to reach out and talk to someone but are too ashamed? This book is for every woman who has experienced abortion…no matter if it was last week or decades ago. God can and will heal you from the pain of your abortion. God has healed me and he can heal you. There is hope, healing and forgiveness after abortion!

 

If you are a woman or man who has gone through an abortion, or you know a friend, a spouse, a girlfriend, or a family member who could use this book, please buy today!

• Language: English
• Publisher: Kimberly Lewis
• Release date: Mar 11, 2023
• ISBN: 9798201387914

Kimberly I. Lewis

Kimberly Lewis is happily married and has two beautiful daughters and two adorable grandsons. She lives in Texas. Kimberly loves to read, write, do rubber stamping art, thrift shopping, long walks, camping, fishing, camp fires, singing, and spending quality time with her family and tuxedo cat, Sophie.

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Forward by Debra Braun

I met Kim in 1986, shortly after I had started working as Education Director for PEACE of Minnesota. (The name was changed to Pro-Life Action Ministries in September 1986). Kim and another post-abortive woman had come to our office to view The Silent Scream and to talk about their experiences.

What struck me about Kim was her quiet gentleness. Many times throughout the past 49 years of legalized abortion under Roe v. Wade, I’ve pondered the fact that if someone as gentle as Kim could have succumbed to the temptation of abortion, how pervasive must abortion be in our culture and what a disservice its legality is to women. I remember asking Kim once if she would have sought out an illegal abortionist if abortion had not been the law of the land and so easily accessible when she aborted her child. She said that she would not have.

With the fall of Roe on June 24, 2022, I am hopeful that abortion will, with the grace of God and the hard work of His people, be rooted out of our society so that lives will be protected and other women will be spared the pain Kim has experienced; she has so eloquently expressed her story in this book. I trust that post-abortive readers of this book will be led to begin or continue along their own journey to healing and peace so that our society can begin the deep spiritual and emotional healing needed after nearly 50 years of abortion pain.

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Debra Braun

Pro-Life Action Ministries

Endorsement by Carol Everett

Former co-owner and abortion clinic director

turned pro-life, now fighting for the unborn

Founder of The Heidi Group

In Where Is Ashley? Kimberly Lewis nailed it. Kimberly is the perfect model of a

post-aborted woman.  She recounts the emotions of the abortion, the shame she felt, and the self-destructive lifestyle to unknowingly self-punish. Two events led Kimberly to the truth—her sister's new baby and the horror when she saw a picture of a fully formed 12-week baby in utero, the very time she had aborted. Guilt, shame, and depression took over her life as she learned more about life in the womb. Kimberly's investigation of life bravely led her to a pro-life group where she learned she was not alone. Post-abortion counseling and healing was available.  

Kimberly courageously shares her pain to educate readers about the steps of processing the abortion and forgiving yourself and others who were part of the decision. Kimberly details the steps of healing for women and men who have suffered through their own abortion experiences. This book may well be the first step in the healing process for many still in some stage of denial.

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I encourage you to purchase several copies of this book, one for your house and several for the many we know still in denial of their past actions.

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Carol Everett

Post-aborted mother of Heidi

Author’s Note

This story consists of my memories of my own abortion and the fight against on-demand abortions as I worked in the pro-life movement for ten years. If this book offends you in any way, that is not my intension. My goal is only to tell my story and to inform.

I completed my book just weeks after the Supreme Court overturned Roe v. Wade on June 24, 2022. It had been almost 50 years since abortion became legal in the U.S. Even one minute of abortion was too long for the unborn. I pray millions of unborn babies will be saved from this day forward.

CHAPTER ONE

THE CLINIC

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A frightened 21-year-old woman sat in a waiting room, weeping. There were several other women in the room as well. The Price Is Right blasted in the corner. Why would anyone want to watch TV here? One by one each lady was called back. The young woman felt sweat on the nape of her neck. It was a hot summer morning, Monday, June 10, 1985.

She tried to be strong, but how could she? This was her first pregnancy. With no idea of what to expect, she feared what was going to happen. Would it be painful? What if there were complications?

Why wouldn’t her boyfriend come with her? Why did she have to go through this alone? Why did she even have to go through with it? She didn’t want this...but he had insisted that it was the only way.

Under different circumstances, she would have told him where to go. For reasons beyond her comprehension, her usual boldness was absent; she felt lost and alone. Even at 21, she was still quite naïve and unsure of herself. She had grown up in a small town with a population of about 1,500. City life was foreign to her until only recently when she had reached adulthood.

The Meadowcreek Women's Clinic had an extremely long hallway to get to the main entryway. The waiting room was huge, with chairs encircling the space. Prominent flowery prints covered the walls. A long reception counter had a woman who accepted payments. There were no windows. No sense if it was day or night.

The young woman was frustrated by the noise emitting from the television. It was such a futile distraction from what was really happening in the crowded room. Several women were by themselves, others sat with a friend, a boyfriend, or a parent. Many were very afraid. No one talked; there was only crying.

She was there all by herself as her boyfriend refused to come with her. He had given her the money and demanded it be taken care of. The night before her appointment, she curled on her bed in a fetal position, crying terribly while holding her belly. She didn’t want to let go.

Panic struck as her name was called.

The young woman was led to a