Friday Bridge - Becoming a Muslim; Becoming Everyone’s Business: The Relentless Rebel duology, #1
By Dawn Bates
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Friday Bridge is a glimpse behind the veil into Islam untainted by cultural influence from the lived experience of a woman who navigated life between East and West, White and Brown, hedonism and piety.
Navigating the cultural landscape of Islam in Britain, the racial divides, Islamophobia, as well as the prejudices within the various Islamic communities themselves and their varying belief systems, Bates takes us on an insightful journey of a faith unfolding and what it means to be a successful, educated businesswoman, who chooses the most hated religion in the world.
Running throughout the story is the hedonistic rave and drug culture of Britain in the 90s. From illegal raves to club nights, euphoric highs and immense lows as friends die, and fall by the wayside – especially when the terror attacks of 9/11 and the 7/7 bombings take place.
Bates shares with us the goings on inside the mosques of Sheffield, answers the questions so many want to ask but are afraid of doing so in the ever increasing 'cancel culture' and hyper sensitivity of today's Western Cultures.
Her powerful sharing of her husband's brain injury and trauma, and the impact that has on her as she is left to deal with renovating a home, running a business and navigating the prejudices and cultural conflicts between her small farming village family and her husband's Arabian city family, gifts us moving moments of love, and the powerful feminine resilience running through every fiber of her body.
With her keen awareness and professional experience of working within the areas of cultural difference and cohesion, living life as a "terrorist" and "posh Paki", as well as facing a different kind of terrorism from those who support Britain First and the English Defence League, as well as the UKIP followers, Dawn shares the often heart-breaking reality of choosing a faith everyone loves to hate.
From random police stops and checks, fighting for social justice, religious freedom, peaceful integration and doing her best to understand what it means to be British; this book brings together the hidden meaning of 'British values' over the last thirty years of modern Britain.
It is the reality of a white English girl who fell in love with a 'bloody foreigner'.
This is a book which is guaranteed to make readers stop and analyse everything they think they know about multicultural Britain, and reflect on their own interactions with neighbours, colleagues and strangers.
With brilliantly funny anecdotes, tear jerking moments and a heart worn on her sleeve, Dawn Bates is the voice of humanity, as well as diversity, equity and inclusion that the world needs to hear more from.
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Friday Bridge - Becoming a Muslim; Becoming Everyone’s Business - Dawn Bates
PREFACE
When I first wrote this book back in 2010, I felt an element of guilt about writing it. Don’t get me wrong – I’ve always had a love of books. I read, on average, four books a month. That doesn’t include the at least thirty books I read with my children! Books for me are, some would say, verging on an addiction. Put me in a bookshop and give me an endless pot of proper coffee, not the instant muck, and I will happily lose myself.
However, me being a Muslim was something my family would rather have forgotten about, and at least one of them didn’t even want to acknowledge this part of me, therefore not acknowledging and accepting me as I am. Things they would rather just disappear from memory are written in this book and, unfortunately for them, books stay around forever. Add in talking about the ‘disgrace’ of my drug-taking days, something which was bound to also offend my now ex-husband’s conservative Arab family, and I’m sure you can see this book caused us problems.
Even the fact I wrote a book, instead of just reading one, annoyed my family at the time. A case of, ‘Oh, here she goes again, thinking she is so much better than us!’ Over time my parents have realised I do not think I am better than anyone. They realised I don’t read books for the reasons they thought I did. I read books because they can teach you a great many things, and they help you to escape into another world. I was comforted knowing the first word revealed to the Prophet Mohammad was ‘Read’, and read I do.
There have been many questions asked about why I converted to Islaam, considerably more than about why I took drugs, even, which in itself tells you something! Many people who have chosen to embrace Islaam believe that upon taking your Declaration of the Islaamic Faith you ‘revert’ to your natural state, so many believed I had reverted to Islaam. Me? I don’t really care which word is used, to be honest; I just know I chose a religion that had the one God, the Creator, and it felt right. I was encouraged, through the unaltered words of the Qur’aan, to question God’s word and not to fear questioning, although with many Muslims, even today, you would think this not to be the case … but more on this later.
Many people think I became Muslim ‘because’ of someone else, mainly my husband. Many think I ‘became’ Pakistani or Arab. Neither is correct. This book tells you why I became a Muslim. It tells you why the religion so many love to hate these days is the one I chose to follow, and love.
It also talks about my dealings with drugs, depression, epilepsy, business, and motherhood. All within the framework of what it’s like living your life as a white English Muslim woman, or a Muslim white English woman, or a woman who just happens to be a white English Muslim, because I’m a woman whose faith has become the only identity she has. This may confuse you, and believe me, it has confused me. But I can assure you I am simply me. I am Dawn.
I wondered many times whether I should actually write this book. I even wondered whether my journey was important or interesting enough to tell. Now, even over a decade later, I know this book is important. Why? Because even after all these years, the need for people to understand the content within these pages is still so vitally important. The same conversations are happening now that happened ten years ago, twenty years ago, and even fifty years ago. The level of ignorance regarding matters of race, religion, and drug-taking is astounding for me, and this is the reason why I felt it was time to re-release this book and the follow-up book Walaahi.
The deciding factors on why to publish back in 2010 were the continued interest and questions from the media, and from the many people of all faiths, nationalities, cultures, and communities I come into contact with. The responses to articles I wrote and talks I gave were positive, and many said, ‘You should write a book!’, so I did, answering the intrigue people had as to why ‘someone like me’ would become a Muslim. I was not someone who wrote a book to show how good or bad I had been. I was, and still am, someone who simply wants to answer so many of the same bloody questions in one go, instead of answering them over and over and over again. If the business world has taught me something, it is to work smarter, not harder.
My intention was to change negative perceptions of Islaam and Muslims, but mainly of Islaam. Islaam is not an evil religion; it is a peaceful religion that shows us a way to live our lives as individuals as well as communities. Islaam cannot be blamed for the way in which many Muslims choose to live their lives, just like the game of football cannot be blamed for the hooliganism and racism that infected it. Religion doesn’t cause the wars; man does with his greed and ego. Religion doesn’t have an ego and it cannot be greedy.
Now, whilst you read this book, please remember: I am not an Islaamic scholar. I am simply a person who knew enough about Islaam to know I wanted to follow it as my guide through life. I am a seeker of the truth, and I have always said, ‘If I find out along the way that Islaam is not the truth, I will take the good things from it and move on.’ I do my best, but I know I make mistakes every single day of my life – small ones and big ones.
If you listen to many of the sheiks, scholars, and imaams around the world – oh, and of course all those ‘well-meaning’ brothers and sisters who know ‘every’ hadeeth and sunnah (sayings and traditions of the Prophet Mohammad) – then remember, they all have their own take on Islaam, and they’re entitled to it. It comes from their culture, education, and understanding of history as well as of the Arabic language. But to be honest with you, I believe none of us truly know if we are right. Faith is an understanding of your chosen holy text; for a Muslim that is the unaltered word of the Qur’aan – God’s word, not a monarch’s, nor a man’s, just God’s. Pure and simple.
Traditional Muslims reading the last paragraph will have noticed I didn’t put PBUH after the Prophet Mohammad’s name. The PBUH, for those not in the know, is an abbreviation for Peace Be Upon Him. Now, as this is my book and I wish peace to be upon everyone (well, most people anyway – Adolf Hitler and Ariel Sharon and those like them can go to hell in my humble opinion, but hey, I am not God so who am I to say who goes where?), I will not use PBUH after the names of the prophets. I will also use the word God rather than Allaah, as this book is written in English, not Arabic, and I see no reason to use an Arabic word when a perfectly good English equivalent exists.
There may – no, there will – be things in here that offend people, Muslims and non-Muslims alike, but I wouldn’t be a free thinker if I didn’t offend people. What is it Napoleon said? ‘A leader never stood for anything if he wasn’t controversial.’ Well, I know I am a leader. I know I am confrontational. I have a feeling many of the people I know will already be laughing as they read this part. Well, good. I have brought a smile to someone’s face already!
This book is written as naturally as possible. I use humour, analogies, and the odd bit of sarcasm. I know sarcasm is the lowest form of wit, but it’s okay: if you have no sense of humour, you won’t notice the wit anyway! As this book is for an international audience, I have added footnotes with explanations of terms or language that will probably mean nothing to someone from outside the UK. Even people from the UK will find terms from the subcultures they do not know about unfamiliar to them, so the footnotes should help them too. I am bound to have missed a term here or there. You’ll just have to search the internet for their meanings!
This book contains my truth, the way I felt, and my knowledge based on copious amounts of research and cross-referencing. There are also a number of opinions gained from my own personal experiences and observations. This truth may be different from the truths of those mentioned in the book, but as we all know, or should know, truth is subjective and relative. Take a road accident, for instance. Four people see the accident from four different angles. The truth they see is relative to the position they were in, their personality, their mood, the time of day, and many other variables.
When this book was first written, I didn’t feel comfortable sharing certain aspects of my story, nor did I want to be pigeonholed as the token white woman called upon for all things Islaamic or Arabic. I now know that to hide or run from this influential part of my life, which has shaped the woman I am today, would be a huge disservice to the world.
I hope you enjoy reading this book as well as learn something from it. The books I love the most are the ones that challenge me and leave me thinking about them whilst also bringing a smile to my face. I trust this book challenges you and brings a smile to your face.
In Islaam, smiling is seen as charity you receive blessings for, so to get you started, here’s a cheesy rhyme I’ve always liked:
‘Smiling is contagious, you catch it like the flu, someone smiled at me today and I started smiling too.’
I hope you enjoy the journey through the next ‘few’ pages. Share it if you do, because if it speaks to you on some level, it will work for others too.
ONE
MY FIRST TIME
My father was with me when I did it the first time. I was so nervous. I had never been so nervous about anything. Losing my virginity, taking drugs, getting married, giving birth, and speaking in front of 2000 people following the international hip-hop group Outlandish at a fundraiser were all walks in the park compared to that moment.
I remember the stress, sweaty palms, stabbing myself in the head with the pins, retying the scarf many times, and thinking I could feel so much sweat on my face, which wasn’t there. My throat was so tight I felt as though I was going to choke. I went to the toilet for an imaginary wee several times before leaving the hotel room. Finally, I decided to just get a grip on myself and walk out the door. If the scarf needed retying again, fine, it could be done. I didn’t need a wee, it was just nerves. From this day on, I would always wear the scarf, so I should just get over it. So, I did. I walked out into the hotel corridor, got in the lift, and hit ‘G’.
I needed to eat even though I felt sick to my stomach. On the way down to breakfast, the lift stopped, a woman got in, and in my nervous state I started to leave. Realising I was on the second floor, I quickly got back in. The woman could tell I was nervous and anxious and asked me if I was okay. Bumbling like an idiot, I told her I was really nervous because it was my first time wearing the headscarf.
Her response came like a slap in the face. ‘Well, you Muslim women are all oppressed, aren’t you?’ She said it with such venom and in such a patronising way I nearly cried my eyes out.
But then I had this strange feeling of calm come over me. I felt as though the lift had turned from a box closing in on me to the corn fields I used to run through back home. There was so much air to breathe and the light in the lift had turned into sunlight.
I replied to her in a nice, polite way, ‘Not oppressed, no. Just dealing with ignorant people, one person at a time.’
That was the first of many similar occasions. I’ve lost count how many. I didn’t understand the number of problems my new religion would cause. Having chosen Islaam, I never guessed it would cause such interest from friends, colleagues, or the media. I didn’t anticipate the depths of loneliness I would feel, or the division and isolation it would create.
I never imagined that someone’s faith was of so much importance to other people. I had always thought, obviously very naively, that a person’s faith was between them and God … oh how wrong I was! Becoming a Muslim was apparently everyone’s business, Muslims and non-Muslims alike. I was no longer myself but the property of many.
But I guess I should start my story at the beginning. So let’s rewind.
TWO
INNOCENCE, LOVE, LOST
I skipped along West Street, Long Sutton, holding my father by the right hand with my left and swinging my treasured blue bag with the words ‘Daddy’s little girl’ on it. I could feel the sun on my face and a cool breeze. I was happy and blissfully unaware of how this treasured day would soon become one of the last days of my life as ‘Daddy’s little girl’.
Later, I sat on a stool next to the bathroom sink watching my father spread shaving foam across his face with a barber’s brush, totally enchanted. I waited for him to look at me, to smile one of his playful smiles, and to dab a little of the foam onto my nose. Would he do it? Sitting there waiting and watching the way he moved the brush so smoothly and quickly filled me with joy – it still does even as I sit and type these words. I have a smile on my face as I remember how he dabbed a little foam onto the end of my nose, remember how I giggled, and the smile breaks into a happy grin from ear to ear. I loved my father so much, and thanks to God, we have had the opportunity to rebuild our relationship over the years, despite the best efforts of my mum, my stepdad (‘Dad’), and the courtrooms.
These two memories with my father are from the age of three or four. No later because my mum decided her marriage to him was over, which meant the relationship my brother, sister, and I had with him was also over.
I don’t remember much else as a young child other than climbing trees in the park at the end of our garden. I would climb the trees with my brother Robert (Rob), much to his annoyance. He didn’t want me around him, especially when his friends were with him. He is eighteen months older than me, and with hindsight, I can see our relationship has never been a great one. There are happy memories, but they are outweighed by some very unpleasant ones.
We were very lucky as children that the park in Long Sutton was an extension of our garden. Mum would allow us to walk across the park to school each morning as it was directly opposite our home. She could see us walk every step of the way. There was a lollipop lady who helped us cross the road into the school playground. Even though I could not see my mum smiling, I could see her standing and waving at the end of our garden, with Ellen, my baby sister by two years, sitting on her non-existent hips.
The only thing she worried about was the man with the bike, ‘the hunchback’, who would be in the park at home time. I never knew why my mother, or the other locals, didn’t like him. He never tried to speak with us and never came near us; he was just resting on his bike. He was an old man who he always wore a flat cap and a dark suit jacket. I remember him wearing bicycle clips on his trousers, which were proper trousers, an olive-green colour. His bike was an ordinary black bike. There was nothing scary about him, but Mum didn’t want us to go near him, so I was always wary. Looking back now, I wonder whether it was just because he had a hunchback, and I wonder how upsetting and lonely it was for this man to be made an outcast and a monster in some people’s eyes just because he was different.
My next memories are walking with Rob and Ellen to school in Emneth, where we’d moved to. I don’t remember Mum taking us to school, but I do remember her picking us up every now and then. Seeing her at the school gates was magical and I remember running to her but being told off if I ran too hard into her. She had been punched by a man once as she tried to stop him from hitting her friend Elaine. It had left her with problems with her neck and back. I remember being so proud of my mum when she later told me why she had these problems, and I am positive this is why I am so loyal to and protective of my friends. My mum is a strong woman and inspires me on many levels, yet our relationship has always been a distant one.
Rob, Ellen, and I never got to spend much time with our father. We would wait for him to arrive at around 12:30 pm every third Saturday. We’d travel back to his house, listening to the Beach Boys on the way; I’d be singing along with him, and Rob and Ellen would be sitting in the back. We would either visit the duck pond and Granddad Smith, or go to visit Nanny and Granddad Buffham. There would always be a knickerbocker glory at our father’s house for us. As I got older, he would allow me to make the dinner, something I either did alone or we did together. I don’t really remember much about what Rob and Ellen did, although I do remember them watching TV and Rob sulking a lot.
I remember us going to the park in Holbeach, where Father lived, playing on the slide, walking around the park, and going to the museum in Wisbech a few times (much to Rob’s annoyance). I remember a trip to Food Giant where he bought us all stationery for going back to school. When we got back home, excited about our presents, it was short-lived due to the upset my mum created because we were thirty minutes late back. I remember thinking, We hardly get to see him, and you get us the rest of the time; why are you so mad at him? There was lots of traffic, why are you so nasty to him all the time?
To this day, I still don’t understand why Mum was rude to him every time we arrived home. There were times I would just wish my father would come upstairs to my bedroom and look at all my schoolwork and let me play all our records to him on the super-fast speed because they always sounded better that way. Why could our father not just join us all for dinner and a cup of tea? Why could we not be with him whenever we wanted? Why could he not come and see us whenever he wanted? Why was he not allowed to phone the house or come to parents’ evening at the school?
My mum never mentioned him to us, and she never asked us if we wanted to see him. He wasn’t allowed to call the house to speak with us, so our relationship with him died out. Sometimes I wonder whether she regretted having the three of us with him. We were just a constant reminder to her of the failed marriage she had with him, and seeing him every three weeks could not have been easy. I know she loves us and did what she thought was best. I also know she had her own challenges, but I can’t help wondering why seeing our father was not good for us. He never abused us, and he wasn’t a junkie or a dropout. He wasn’t a criminal; he wasn’t, and isn’t, a bad person. He was just the wrong man for her. But he was, is, still our father.
THREE
IDEAS ABOVE MY STATION
I think many of the insecurities many others, and I, have stem from parents splitting up. You lose your safety net. The world is not as it should be anymore. The pain you feel is like no other you can describe.
Growing up believing I wasn’t good enough for my father, and that it was my fault he left, gave me a deep fear of rejection, which impacted me well into my late thirties and early forties. I remember thinking, If only I had been a better daughter, been a good girl, been Martin James, my mum’s second child who never made it to this world alive, then maybe they would not have stopped loving each other.
I remember hearing so many times from the neighbours and a particular aunty that I had the energy and confidence of both Martin and myself, and I used to hate it. Just because Rob was quieter than me did not mean I had somehow taken on my dead brother’s persona. This was who I was. I was bright and bubbly. I was cheeky and playful. This was who I was meant to be, but somewhere along the way, I started to resent who I was. I thought if I became the opposite of who I was, then maybe they would stop saying it. And sure enough, they did. Eventually.
Otherwise, growing up in Emneth for the duration of my primary school life was so much fun. We would go next door and visit Nanny Aggie and Granddad George. They were not our real grandparents, but they were wonderful people and so kind. We would spend hours with them, playing in their garden with their little dog, a bichon frisé called Fred. He was like a little cloud, so white and fluffy. They used to give us treats and tell us off if we were naughty, and I know Mum appreciated the times they allowed us to play in their garden as it gave her time to get on with the housework, or just have a coffee by herself.
It took me years to realise the tiredness my mum must have been experiencing. She worked hard for us all. She always made a home-cooked meal, which we ate together as a family, and, out of all my friends’ mums, she was the most fun. She would play with us, bake with us, and when she laughed, I remember thinking it was the most magical sound in the world. My mum was happy again, and we’d soon find out why.
She would allow us to run up the road to Betsy’s Pad, a footpath by a dyke which ran from Hawthorne Road, the road we lived on, to Church Road. It’s a strange name for a footpath, I know, but that’s country folk for you.
At the start of the path, in the end terrace house, lived Brenda. She was a short woman with a mass of curly black hair. Although she was fierce, she was also