Things I Didn't Do with This Body
By Amanda Gunn
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Told in six parts, Things I Didn’t Do with This Body sings in myriad voices and forms—ragged columns rich with syncopated internal rhyme, crisp formal sonnets, and the angular shapes of a stream-of-pill-induced-consciousness.
Bedecked in Fenty and Shalimar, Amanda Gunn’s startling debut, Things I Didn’t Do with This Body, invites you to read with all of your senses and gives fresh meaning to the phrase a body of work. Told in six parts, this collection sings in myriad voices and forms—ragged columns rich with syncopated internal rhyme, crisp formal sonnets, and the angular shapes of a stream-of-pill-induced-consciousness. Both tender and emotionally raw, these poems interweave explorations of family and interrogations of history, including an unforgettable sequence that meditates on the life of Harriet Tubman. With Tubman’s portrait perched above her writing desk, Gunn pens poems that migrate from South to North, from elegy to prayer, from borrowed shame to self-acceptance.
Writing with frankness and honesty, Gunn finds no thought, no memory, too private: a father’s verbal blow, a tense visit to a gynecologist’s table, the longing to be “erased/by a taxi at 50 miles an hour,” and grief at the loss of two former lovers, decades apart. Death is familiar here, yet we find softness, grace, and hope in the culinary lessons learned in warm family kitchens, in the communal laughter of a rehab center’s common room, and in the rewards and pleasures of the fat erotic. With poems as malleable as the skin that “misplaced one hundred nine pounds” and filled it again, Gunn proves that, for the Black body, memory often presents the heaviest weight. Things I Didn’t Do with This Body is a reminder that “carried in the body is the future, the present, and the past.” The most capable thing a body can do is remember and bear it and live.
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Things I Didn't Do with This Body - Amanda Gunn
I
FATHER AT TABLE
There was what he demanded with one word
and a pointing finger—chicken,
cornbread,
’tatoes
—the delicacies his labor both purchased
and prepared for us, all his long hours ours. Trying
not to interrupt the table talk that had snapped
shut and refused him. Not vain, not white folk,
he asked only one courtesy: no swearing
he could hear. He was a Christian and my father.
That godforsaken finger. How stingy it seemed
then. Now how tender, how pleading. How I bristled
at the soft of his voice, an engine rumbling under
the hood of our attention. And, oh, what kindness
I held back, expecting things he would never ask
of me: wait your turn, say thank you, say please.
HIGHWAY
What brings us here can barely be called
highway: a thread of road each direction
and vines overtaking the verge.
This isn’t a dream. Dad
is driving now. We find, at the end of the path,
three towns where my father
was someone else once. Houses the hue
of dust and sunflowers that lean in the swelter.
At the Florence Sonic Burger, you’ll get a Coke
for your church program. There are
no mountains in our midst, just twenty-three
Churches of Christ. This is
the land in which they are grown. This is
the land in which he was grown, before
something sent him searching. Was it
my mother waiting unknown, was it
the pulpit he couldn’t preach from,
was it a mask of his own face speaking—
a foreigner from up north?
A LONG WAYS FROM HOME
My mother’s father never knew his father,
but mornings he could see, as he would shave,
the bluer eyes and there, beneath the lather,
skin paler than his own. His mother gave
her son what start she could from washwork—no,
she wouldn’t name the man she’d met or where—
in love or something darker. Not to know
that history bred a rage he seemed to wear.
He wandered far afield, from home to war,
to work, to marriage, out of marriage, gone.
He left the girls his cheerful wife had borne,
still looking for a father, finding none.
In summer he slept days and woke by night,
humming Motherless Child
in the meager light.
MONARCH
Of Grandma Jessie, little’s left: a hymn,
her words like hootie-rah! for heat, a gold-
and-rhinestone fritillary pin, grown dim,
a Bible bound with threads too thin to hold.
Her husband left young, his intellect a fire—
he burned. He called her country
: sweet, but cold.
Released, alone, she fixed to her attire
butterflies whose pearls seemed to flash, unmold.
That flat, unpeopled land is still the scene
through which her favored monarchs fold, unfold
themselves from north and home to glorious sun,
their wings cathedral glass, unfettered, bold.
Our Jessie saw them, knew her kin and kind,
and, seeing, lifted skyward in her mind.
GIRL
A girl among boys is most ways alone. My brothers were mean, then sweet, then packed and gone. Mom was looking sideways at how I’d grown—my hair down my neck, my shorts too short. Too fast, too grown. She had hands that worked. Dungarees. Cotton shirts. Not ruffled or pleated or flounced or flirty, and oft-times a little bit dirty. She kept house. And quiet and small and tenacious as a mouse, she kept us: three kids, a dog, and a man. She made dinner and Christmas and plans and clothes. I don’t think she ever said No. More like an Oh. A sniff. So, I somehow lost my girlier gear, those things she called prissy: feathered hair, big hoops swinging. Years later she said she hadn’t meant to be tough. Her mother had been the salt of the earth. Cleaned nights at Mercy, though she’d sneak a spray of Oscar de la Renta on a holiday or for her Sunday best. Dressed clean for the Lord. Clean for his glory. Her mother before had gone to church and cooked the meals. Nothing less, but never more. What could I do but follow their ways, these sturdy women who’d brought me forth? Even now, the catch of getting out my door is lipstick on, then lipstick off, and bright blouse on, then something plain, asking, Can I be this thing? The kind of woman with night-blue lips who’s flashing, perhaps, a gaudy ring? Fine thing, being grown. So I step