School: A Novel
By Ray Levy
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At once angry and jubilant, Ray Levy’s School is a curse on a dying system and an incantation for transforming pain into a vessel for capacious, creative selfhood.
A dissertation manuscript possessed by the spirit of Marquis de Sade; a lecture on psychoanalysis delivered as stand-up comedy by a dysphoric graduate student; a review of a found-footage horror movie that’s also a YouTube video of a conference presentation on French theory; an interview with an avant-garde filmmaker that’s really an invocation for conjuring your demon brother; oversharing and withholding, chanting and channeling, School is a slapstick roast of Derrida’s corpse and a mystical vision of a life in which you have not lost.
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School - Ray Levy
I. DIALOGUE BETWEEN A PRIEST AND A DYING MAN
When you write about yourself, I’ve noticed, you place the terms woman and lesbian in quotation marks. That’s one way to communicate that those words don’t fit. Although I feel like maybe I’m stating the problem too lightly. How would you describe it?
PRIEST: [. . .]
Mmhmm. Yeah. So, another way to pose my question is hmm. Well, this will seem reductive. Did the linguistic turn result in an incredibly painful form of entrapment?
PRIEST: [. . .]
Um, okay. To be honest, I guess what I’m talking about is—whatever, I want to talk about my experience as a student in the graduate program. Sorry.
PRIEST: [. . .]
Sure, thanks. Okay. Well, I guess I thought This is so twisted and impossible. Because if I take this stuff seriously, if I take theory seriously and go on to live out my life surrounded by people who are serious about theory, then at best I’ll get to live my life in relation to a sentence. I’m a woman in quotation marks. That is the best world they’ll offer to me. And I’ll be required to accept the offer with pleasure. It will be the price of admission for every conversation. I’ll have to be willing to perform nonequivalence with a sign I might not even want, with pleasure.
PRIEST: [. . .]
I think it felt like torture to me. I don’t know, I was like why is this even the point? For some reason it was the saddest thing to imagine that one day, maybe at the end of my life, I’ll be able to say with delighted conviction that I know how to read and I’m a woman in quotation marks.
PRIEST: [. . .]
I know, but that’s not really what I’m talking about. I get what you’re saying. But I’m not talking about that.
PRIEST: [. . .]
No, what I’m saying is I don’t think it’s pleasurable. I think it’s painful when you don’t like being a woman and the best you can do with that feeling is you can put the signifier in quotation marks.
PRIEST: [. . .]
I know. I see. I don’t really disagree with you.
PRIEST: [. . .]
Well yeah. Then sometimes, like, when you’re having a conversation, there’s this totally uncanny feeling. It’s like your interlocutor has gone and lent you a depth that isn’t—it’s like you have two depths. You have the one your interlocutor is giving to you and the one you’re giving to yourself. I think for the entirety of my time in the graduate program, the depth you gave me belonged to Andrea Dworkin.
PRIEST: [. . .]
I’m serious! I felt like there was no way for me to show you your mistake. You were the one with the authority to grant depths and pin words to surfaces. It never worked when I tried to do it back to you, or to the others on my committee. It was impossible to do to others what was being done to me.
PRIEST: [. . .]
I think so, yeah.
PRIEST: [. . .]
I’m still ashamed. I’m still thinking about it, which is embarrassing. I’m a professor. I shouldn’t be obsessing over what happened in grad school. I mean, why do you think I’m talking to you? I said I wanted to interview you about your book, but what I need is something else. Closure? Or recognition? I honestly don’t know when I’ll stop thinking about whatever the hell happened to me in grad school. Hopefully one day I will? I don’t know.
PRIEST: [. . .]
But I was playing. That’s what I thought. I thought I was playing. I think you guys were taking me too seriously. Or maybe your version of play read as anxiety and torture to me, and my version of play read as displeasure and disobedience to you?
PRIEST: [. . .]
I don’t think I understood what the committee was asking of me. I was able to sense the pressure of the demand, but I don’t think I understood what it was or why it was given to me. I didn’t have the perspective.
PRIEST: [. . .]
One of the things you wanted from me, I think, was a mirror for your pleasure. It was never a matter of making mine legible. Liking the same things in the same ways, that’s what it meant to be smart in that program.
PRIEST: [. . .]
But none of us were being smart! What was happening was I wasn’t liking the text in the preferred way.
PRIEST: [. . .]
Okay, but that’s confusing. Because if you were asking me in good faith to buy into your paradigm, if you honestly wanted me to approach literary analysis as some kind of sex, then why wasn’t it fair for me to say Okay, fine, but you should know I don’t have sex like you do. I’m a sadist.
PRIEST: [. . .]
I kept thinking Oh my god, I’m going to have to learn how to be a masochist. Or else my professors are going to deem me an idiot and derail my life! That was really depressing. I got so depressed. I couldn’t get up. After a point, I couldn’t get up anymore. That’s why I kept failing my comps.
PRIEST: [. . .]
But the reality is I was playing just like you were, but differently? Whatever. I guess now I know that I never want to do that to a student. I will never demand that a student produce my enjoyment for me.
PRIEST: [. . .]
Yeah, true.
PRIEST: [. . .]
Yeah.
PRIEST: [. . .]
I remember there was one professor who wouldn’t allow me to leave the classroom. I was the last one in there. I was packing up my shit, and he went and stood in the doorway. He wouldn’t let me pass until I told him what I really wanted from the texts.
PRIEST: [. . .]
I was thirty years old. Would you trap a thirty-year-old adult in a classroom?
PRIEST: [. . .]
Yeah. Okay. I get what you’re saying.
PRIEST: [. . .]
Do you know what scandal this conversation brings to mind?
PRIEST: [. . .]
Yes, bingo. So you’ve been following it.
PRIEST: [. . .]
Would you want to talk about it?
PRIEST: [. . .]
Oh good. What’s your take?
PRIEST: [. . .]
Mmmmmmm.
PRIEST: [. . .]
Mmhmm. Mmhmm.
PRIEST: [. . .]
Wow. Well, for whatever it’s worth, I don’t see her as another gay person. I mean, right?
PRIEST: [. . .]
Yeah, the guy’s gay.
PRIEST: [. . .]
Okay, sure. Queer.
PRIEST: [. . .]
I know, fair enough.
PRIEST: [. . .]
Ha, yeah, Bully Bloggers ran a ton.
PRIEST: [. . .]
I guess I get a kick out of those defenses. They’re like What you don’t understand, scandalized audience, is how to read!
PRIEST: [. . .]
I think it’s fascinating how post-structuralist theories about reading supplied the discourse those academics called upon. It’s as if they really believed that deconstruction would exonerate her. Deconstruction and intimidation.
PRIEST: [. . .]
Come on, they tried to deconstruct the Times article. They tried to deconstruct the legal brief.
PRIEST: [. . .]
But he was never into her. That’s what was so disturbing to them. That all those layers of anxious uncertainty could be so easily reduced. It was disturbing to them. Turns out he didn’t love her. He never loved her. He was faking it. The sum of his enjoyment was no greater than the function of her authority.
PRIEST: [. . .]
Well, I guess maybe my point is it seems unfair to apply the paradigm of sexual seduction to acts of literary analysis within a pedagogical setting. It’s difficult to differentiate between seduction and coercion in the classroom—or is that the point for you?
PRIEST: