Ramblings of a Mad Man

By Terence Stewart

Influenced by his many years of traveling to different countries and meeting different cultures, the author has developed a unique view of the world, love, and himself. In this collection of poems, he takes a deep and honest look at this emotional journey. His fears, joys, woes, and hopes come together to paint a vivid picture of his mental

• Language: English
• Publisher: TCXS
• Release date: Oct 19, 2023
• ISBN: 9798868932779

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Rambling of a Mad Man

By Terence Stewart

1.

Bear witness to my misery onlooker.

See how what should not be thrives in the midst of its own perceived impossibility.

Knowing better,

I drown my soul in the sweet nectar of its poisonous fruit.

I am satiated.

The words of wiser men than me, sharp and pointed bounce from my throne.

Here I am king.

A king of fools

but a king nonetheless.

I suffer no chastening.

My heart pumps and pushes wickedness through me.

Terrified of changing. . .

Terrified of remaining. . .

I drown my soul in the sweet nectar of its poisonous fruit.

And I am satiated.

2.

So often I long for the end of my race.

The sweet symphony of life’s song,

I find too much for my broken soul to bare.

How does a man blessed beyond. . . so deeply crave freedom from it?

The joys of life,

shape blades twisted in my gut.

The blood splatters against the mask I wear.

We pretend to be and not to be under their protection.

As of late,

mine has become too heavy.

My wrongs scream and howl.

My rights question themselves.

I am a bird with broken wings.

A fish out of the calming push and pull of the water.

I search.

and search

and search

for my tormentor.

Only to find myself holding the blade’s handle.

I am he who hurts.

I am my own despair.

Am I addicted to the pain?

Or addicted to causing it?

Why do I simply watch as those I touch wilt and fade in my hands?

This weight I bare. . .

I am tired of suffering its load.

But it begs the question. . .

How does a man so blessed beyond. . .

so deeply crave freedom from it.

3.

Now I am