Bodies Unbound: Transforming Lives Through Touch
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This is a memoir. In it, Cynthia vulnerably reveals her search for reasons as to why she left her family. For a time, Waring lives homeless, broken, and unable to deal with her life. Almost by accident, she becomes a Massage Therapist, and through her client's appreciation of her, her self-esteem blossoms
Cynthia Waring
Cynthia Waring became a licensed Massage Therapist in 1976. She estimates she has given over 30,000 massages. While teaching a workshop at the Ojai School of Massage, she discovered she had unconsciously created a system by which she was reading bodies, which reveals the origins of a person's trauma. Cynthia has worked with children of holocaust survivors, Viet Nam refugees, people who have survived incest and rape, and an African American church in Brooklyn. When she met the Pastor, he told her, "When we were enslaved, we left our bodies. We are still living outside our bodies. I've asked you here to find out where we went and to help us find out how to stop passing the effects of enslavement down to our children."Waring's book, Bodies Unbound, Transforming Lives Through Touch, has sold over 20,000 copies. Cynthia wrote and performed a one-woman show based on her book by the same name. Bodies Unbound, the play, has received awards and played all over the United States and at the Edinburgh Theater Festival.She now lives in Santa Barbara, CA, with her fourteen-pound Maltese-poodle, who, she admits, runs the show. She teaches memoir writing in person and on Zoom. She can be reached through email, ThiaWaring@gmail.com.
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Bodies Unbound - Cynthia Waring
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Bodies Unbound
Copyright © 2023 by Cynthia Waring
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To my son, Russell, who said, "It stops with us.
Contents
Acknowledgments
Introduction
1 A Voice
2 Signs
3 The River, the Fire, and My Son
4 My First Massage
5 Getting Started
6 Smoke
7 Mrs. Adams
8 Hoover
9 Sam and Babe
10 Massage of the Heart
11 Stories
12 Katherine
13 Stewart
14 Jan, Muktananda & Kirpal Singh
15 Lola
16 Stars
17 The Countess
18 The Lamb
19 The Shadow Side
20 Memories Emerging
21 Creating a Cocoon
22 Breakdown
23 Sarah
24 Katrina
25 The Tear
26 Mimi
27 Unraveling the Mystery
28 Old Main
29 The Queen
30 The Concert
Epilogue
MORE PRAISE FOR BODIES UNBOUND
This is a book about hands: hands that break us, hands that heal us. And so we are touched as we open to both the grief and vitality of Cynthia’s story and, within it, the compelling stories that were triggered and eased by her healing hands.
- Deena Metzger, Writing for Your Life
Bodies Unbound is about the journey of a woman who found something to love in everyone she worked on and ended up loving herself. It is a journey of healing; inspirational and uplifting
- Diane Zukerman, Daily Camera
Cynthia gave voice to her own experience and gave sacred meaning inherent in a life.
- Susan Crane, Denver Post, columnist
This will appeal to individuals committed to personal growth who have sympathy for the human condition. Cynthia gives us a startlingly honest account of her life and short vignettes from the lives of some of her clients. It is a fascinating story, one I read straight through without pause. It’s powerful and poignant, but a wild ride, and not a book for the faint of heart. Waring tells her story boldly, un-self-consciously, apparently unashamed of the messiness of life. She allows herself to be healed on many levels, and she becomes a powerful model and servant to her clients. Bodies Unbound is full of inspiration and warmth.
- Mary Vineyard, Massage Magazine
I picked up Bodies Unbound in the afternoon. Except for a bathroom break, I didn’t put it down until I had finished it, late at night. As I read Cynthia’s story I laughed, cried, shook my head in acknowledgment, shook it again in amazement, felt judgmental and then forgiving, questioned the ethics
of giving such accounts, then realized I had been reminded of my own shadow issues. Finally, I felt deep gratitude for having been privileged to share a spiritual journey along a holy, though rock-strewn path. It is extremely well-written and totally engaging. This book is destined to be a best-seller, not only to massage professionals but to all who are seeking the path to inner healing, forgiveness, and love.
- Jack Thomas, Touch Therapy Times
Here is a modern woman’s journey through the underworld of alcohol, drugs loss and despair. With deep insight and psychological honesty Waring peels away the layers of a wounded heart to reveal a resilient and tenacious soul on a long but rewarding healing mission.
- Ron Liggett, Boulder Books
A must-read for those committed to emotional and physical healing, Bodies Unbound
is an unusually powerful book.
- Gillian McIntosh, Whole Life Times
We store life experiences in our bodies. Waring masterfully illustrates this by sharing her own story and that of her clients, thus motivating us to become aware of our own bodies. I highly recommend this book.
- Laurie Grant, Reiki Master,
Enlightened by Angels and Unlimited Reiki Manuals
Cynthia Waring is a dangerous woman, who has lived life to the extremes. Becoming a massage therapist, and the self-discovery that followed, changed all that. Her difficult journey through loss, incest, alcohol and drug addiction, near constant moving – 50 times in ten years, because the intense pain, confusion and chaos was home to me
– is chronicled in her book, Bodies Unbound, Transforming Lives Through Touch. This book details the most harrowing moments of her life, when a carefully constructed self finally hit the wall of truth, leaving no way to go but through. Every page of this book sings with courage and forgiveness.
- Janine Gastineau, Wordplay
Acknowledgments
I want to thank my mentor, Deena Metzger, who led me by example to speak my truth. Special thanks also to my fellow students in Deena’s classes who encouraged and listened to my stories as they were discovered and formed into words. I also thank my dear friends Linda Powers, Odette Springer, Kevin Bellows, Raina Paris, and Jeanette Dyer. They supported me through this arduous journey and lent me their courage and inspiration when I had none. I am grateful to those who helped me edit this book in various forms, especially Judith Huntera, Jacqueline Darrigrand, and Sharon Weil, whose wisdom, love, and generosity have supported and nurtured me. I am thankful to Christopher and Pausha Foley, who never lost their belief that my book needs to be available, and for their many hours of help in sending Bodies Unbound into the world again. Finally, my gratitude goes to all those brave men and women who openly and unguardedly told me their stories, letting me know I was not alone.
There were two pictures on my bedroom walls while I was growing up. Lying in bed, to my left, was a Hummel print. An angel holds the hand of a little girl. The angel points up to heavenly realms. The little girl looks down at a small snake. To my right was an autographed picture of Cousin Fred, famous for his group called Fred Waring and the Pennsylvanians,
and for the Waring blender.
Introduction
I love bodies. I love every shape they come in. I love the smoothness of skin, hair texture, the contours of feet, hands, backs, and faces, and especially their comforting heat. And I love touching them. I have been a masseuse for thirty-seven years. The veins in my hands are like rivers. When I lay my hands on a body, just put them down on warm, soft flesh, I am ecstatic. I love intimacy. I love knowing secrets. I love to get to the core of things. Whenever my work takes a person deep into the center of her being, and she remembers when she began to contract and how she protected herself out of fear, I feel fulfilled.
My parents wanted me to be a pianist. I wanted to be a singer and sing with my cousin Fred. He was famous for his musical group, Fred Waring and the Pennsylvanians. Luckily, I became a masseuse and learned the art of intimacy, of being in the body. I had the most challenging time being in my body. I experienced passions and fears I couldn’t control. My body was haunted, so I lived in my head. Now when I catch myself thinking
instead of being,
I take my attention and put it on my feet. I feel the sensations in my feet. When my feet tingle with awareness, I take the effervescent feeling into the tissues of my calves, the miracle of the knees, the magnificence of the thighs into my favorite place—the pelvis.
Many of us, especially women, have been talked out of being in our pelvises. I believe it started long ago when men decided to become fathers. Before this, their role in a woman’s life was that of a lover or son. When they decided to become fathers, they had to control women’s sexuality so they would know who their children were. To do this, they created religions making sex a sin and horrible punishments for women enjoying their bodies. They created chastity belts! Thousands of women are sexually mutilated each year to this day. It’s called female circumcision. I believe it’s time we made friends with our pelvis and brought sacredness back into sex.
When my pelvis is alive with sensation, I bring the energy into my belly. This is where we digest our experience and assimilate the outside world. Then I feel the energy around my lungs and heart. My heart has brokenhearted feelings. The world tends to break our hearts. Some say it’s how we learn compassion. When I’m in my heart, I can’t imagine hurting anyone. When my heart is open, and I’m in love with all humanity, I bring the energy up into my vulnerable throat and fragile face. I feel the areas around my eyes and mouth. I focus on my mind when I am alive with sensations from head to toe. I free it of all plots and plans, ideals and dogma. It is ready for infinite possibilities when it is free of all thought. That’s what I mean by being in the body.
I became a massage therapist through a series of accidents in 1976, within months of leaving a convent. I went into the convent to avoid the mess I’d made of my life. I wanted to rise above the pain of my mistakes by escaping into the arms of God. But God seems to know the difference between the love of Him and the fear of pain, and my days in the convent were numbered. I believe God knew the way to my heart was through learning the sacredness of ordinary life and the wisdom of the flesh, and I learned this by becoming a masseuse.
As a body therapist, I have spent hours watching bodies tell their stories at cafes. So many lonely, sad bodies drooped over, pelvises tilted, hidden under layers of tension. Necks that have lost their curve, flat feet, and compressed chests. And then there are the runners, demanding their endorphins for the day like Catholics, their tongues hanging out at the rail, beaten horses, hyped on their adrenaline.
And some bodies walk like sticks, heads on top of tight necks, shoulders stiff with pride, stomachs touching backbones. They do not eat. They are not nourished.
Some bodies sway and swish as if walking to the beat of Caribbean music. They melt into chairs and doorways. They flow past parked cars like a vision.
And sometimes I see a body that bounces along, free as a let-go balloon, fresh as new leaves in spring, and I wonder, how can anybody be so joyous? How did she escape the crippling effects of our civilization? Where is her shame, her mask? What kind of person made that kind of body? What is her life like? What is her story? Through massage, I have found many answers.
I have given over thirty thousand massages in the past thirty-seven years, arriving with table, sheets, and oil at strangers’ homes. I’ve massaged every type of person, from movie stars to babies; women dying of cancer—no breasts; men from war—no legs. I’ve been a masseuse to young girls as a present from their mothers, like some initiation rite. I’ve been a birthday gift to lovers, coming to their houses with balloons tied to my bag.
I’ve massaged in hospitals, country clubs, beauty shops, exercise salons, hotels, out by swimming pools getting sunstroke, and in bedrooms getting scared. I’ve had jets sent for me by the rich and people calling for sexual perversion.
I’ve massaged women who have just been raped and mothers who have lost their children. A soap opera queen cried every time I touched her; she couldn’t tell me why. People have remembered every emotional and physical abuse on my table, making me remember mine.
My clients have shown me the parts of themselves they never showed anyone before. During the massage, they were open and vulnerable with me, and it was in this state of being that I was nurtured as well. My clients’ trust in me allowed me to see myself as valuable. Through their eyes, I saw my strengths, courage, and ability to love. I listened to the woes of my clients like a confessor and told them stories of my own. They let me in to see their bruises from facelifts, asked for my prayers when they couldn’t get off drugs, and called at 3:00 a.m. when bosses, lovers, or friends had hurt them. I would go to them to help them make friends with life again.
How a person feels shame, bewilderment, and other thoughts usually kept private were common topics on my table. My clients begged me to get rid of their fat. I’d listen to the pain and grief hidden in their flesh, first with my hands, then their cries as the sorrow worked its way out of their bodies through tears and memories. I was told about sexual problems, affairs, and hilarious, almost unbelievable stories.
I listened to my clients’ nightmares and massaged their mothers when they visited. My clients would say, Knock some consciousness into my mother, would you?
These mothers had usually never dreamed of having a massage. They were women who had never heard about positive thinking,
affirmation,
or reflexology.
They had never heard of emotional abandonment
or that grieving was all right. Many of these mothers had never had anyone on their side before. They were shy