Torn Apart Heart: Parts 1 and 2
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Carole Lonsdale
The poems that have been written resonate with mental health, illness, and coping with bereavement, which many people will relate to. Writing these poems has been a release for me, the author, to put all my innermost thoughts into poetry, and I hope they will receive an understanding from many.
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Torn Apart Heart - Carole Lonsdale
About the Author
The poems that have been written resonate with mental health, illness, and coping with bereavement, which many people will relate to.
Writing these poems has been a release for me, the author, to put all my innermost thoughts into poetry, and I hope they will receive an understanding from many.
Dedication
I dedicate this book to our son, Darren, who we lost through panic and anxiety attacks; a tribute to his sense of humour.
Also to our daughter, Kerry, who has been to hell and back and is now disabled through Lyme Disease.
Also, my husband who has supported me to put my thoughts into words.
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Torn Apart Heart
Our torn apart heart will never be the same again,
From that knock on the door, when two policemen came.
They said with no feeling, that your son has died,
With shock in our mind and body, we said it’s not true, you have lied.
We were not there to hold your hand
As you were taken to God’s special land.
We were told later, there was no medical reason for you to die
In this torn apart heart, we can get no answers, WHY?
Panics
In the last 10 years of our son’s life
Panic attacked time and time again, causing such strife. Try to calm down, try to control,
But they take over, pushing you deeper in that hole.
Can’t breathe, literally gasping for breath
Takes you to a lower depth.
Those who suffer will understand
You cannot control, they come unplanned.
Body feels weak, do not want to be in this world,
Try comfort and love, but they still come unfurled.
As a mum you feel so helpless
Just wish his life would find some redress.
Then on that fatal day, his last breath was taken away
Our son is now at peace, that’s all that we can pray.
PTSD
Post Traumatic Stress Syndrome
PTSD, he is told he has got
Living a life of Anxiety, and trapped in this spot
One doctor, his kindness really shone through
Said, Don’t worry, Lad, I am here for you
Unfortunately 12 months later, his doctor moved away
More signs of anxiety and panic he did display
His rare condition, ataxia was also taking its toll
He felt his life disappearing down a black hole
People around tried to spur him on
But our fun loving guy, had now gone
Just a daily life, living in fear
Of more panic attacks, and bringing the tears
Years go by, little help out there
Not many people, that show if they care
Then that fatal day, a panic took his breath away
And now pain left for the family, day after day.
Missing You
I woke up this morning with tears in my eyes
Remembering how we could not say goodbye.
You are now in the arms of an Angel out there afar
I look out of the window and see a bright shining star
Presents for Christmas and