Diary of a Schizophrenic Poet
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Delve into the mind of a clinically diagnosed schizophrenic in this gripping autobiographical anthology written in poetic form. The author takes us on a journey of a life lived with mental illness, and all the insights, elucidations (and delusions?) this offers up.
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Diary of a Schizophrenic Poet - Nico K Lawrence
Copyright © 2020 Nico Kyle Lawrence
All rights reserved.
Nico Lawrence asserts the moral right to be identified as the author of this work.
No part of this book may be reproduced, or stored in a retrieval system, or transmitted in any form or by any means, electronic, mechanical, photocopying, recording, or otherwise, without express written permission of the author.
ISBN: 978-1-7384788-3-5
Cover design by Ana K. Quintero.
Other Works by The Author
The Chronicles of Existence
To me, myself and I
Contents
Copyright
Other Works by The Author
Dedication
Schizophrenia
Insanity
Psychosis
Delusion
Hallucinations
Voices
Thoughts
Anxiety
Paranoia
Depression
To The Man in My Head
The Thought Police
Q&A
Deja Vu
The Phoenix Cry
The Alarm
Dear God
The Abyss
I Lie Ready
Seeing Is Believing
If
Once Upon a Time
The Mirror
Escape Inside
Vipassana
Rise
Tick-Tock
Dark Magic
Religion
War
Speciesism
Moo
Memories
Evil
Existence
The Mind
Women
The Square Root of Happiness
Afterlife
Truth or Daring?
Life
Goodbye
Thank You
Smoking
Music
Friendship
Family
Love
Sex
Flight of The Stars
Sparkling Eyes
Tainted Love
Smile
Sing a Song for Me
Dear World
The Eternal Rift
Space and Time
Fortune
Muse
Tears
Naiveté
Revulsion
A Part of You
Vice and Virtue
Sorry
Rico
Persecution
Oppression
Suicide
Rage
Tears II
Why Are You Like Attacking Marketing?
Dead Syrian Refugees
Smiling Lies
Scum
Enough
British charm
Nigger
Fear
Hunting
Faces
Betrayal
Force
R.E.S.P.E.C.T.
Dies Irae
A Pleasing Nod
Marching Orders
I'm Not Your Slave
Dear Mother Africa
The Good Man’s Burden
I Did Not Stand at Your Grave and Cry
The Prayer
God Rises
A Note From The Author
Afterword
Acknowledgement
Schizophrenia
I think of schizophrenia as a kind of overly friendly stalker.
An acquaintance who doesn’t take the group's many hints.
A blooper reel of my worst days forced to play on repeat.
A cat that won't fail to wake me up at 5.30am if the door's left open.
A teenager constantly spurring their mates on to commit crimes.
A hammer perniciously hacking away from the insides of my temples.
An alien that abducts me and insists that I invited it for drinks.
A carpenter attempting to sculpt granite with a saw and hammer.
A game of ping-pong where I'm the ball and the paddles.
A thief breaking into my house to rearrange the furniture.
A flute that fills my lungs with water the harder that I blow.
An alarm clock that plays in my mind to sing me to sleep.
A Sergeant Major screaming commands in my face.
A song that gets caught in my mind and plays on repeat.
A gun aimed at my head constantly threatening to shoot if I think.
An avalanche set in motion by the sneeze of a mouse.
A book that starts at the back and reads from bottom to top.
A child given the reigns of the world’s armies.
A row of hot coals I’m forced to run over every time I wake.
A police division that forces crime then punishes me for it.
A dog that barks every time I walk past its fence.
An anthology of poetry written entirely in modern form.
Insanity
Insanity and grandeur are two concepts I know well.
The devil and an angel singing from the depths of hell.
An unimaginable story of cosmic battles between evil and good.
Thanatos at work, perhaps? Initially it was not understood.
What even is reality? I could no longer tell you.
My mind has lost all capacity to acquire new value.
I know there are before me many objects to view.
Yet I could not tell you whether that is true.
I know I think I know what lies outside my door.
But whether that is true or not I am not really sure.
The only thing I think I know of which I’m fairly sure:
Is that I’m having many thoughts and that there will be more.
How many different entities can play a single flute?
I would have considered there to be no soul left for them to loot.
It seems that our existence has asked something of me.
Something that I am unable to not unclearly see.
And every time I answer I feel I’ve gone completely mad.
It couldn't all be possible! Not every dream I've had!
Psychosis
Psychosis my old friend!
Once more my life upends!
We play our endless game
of unrelenting shame
You've come back in my life
to offer me a knife
That can sever the ties
of my life’s many lies
You speak to me in rhyme
to offer me the time
To write down what you say
on each unbidden day
You play me on repeat
until I know defeat
My thoughts are in disorder
pressing on the boarder
Of the shield in my mind
hoping that