I Wrote This Book in Lieu of Dying
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I Wrote This Book in Lieu of Dying is almost a memoir. It was born from a pivotal moment when the specter of mortality loomed, and the extent of the resulting doctors' bills was unknown. The author, faced with a novel experience for the umpteenth time and honestly more than a bit over it, decided to examine the
A. Almond-Harvey
A. Almond-Harvey is a chronically curious word nerd and autodidactic storyteller who mines histories and futures for shared human experiences. They love painting pictures with poetic prose and delving into immersive literature and cultural storytelling traditions. As a multiethnic disabled person with a decades-spanning career in visual design, theater, and dance, A.A.H. utilizes their experiences to inform their writing and elude the standards of the various genres in which they play. In their leisure time, A. Almond-Harvey enjoys probing the origins of life, the universe, and everything. They find great fulfillment in ambling through muddy paths in quiet forests, working in artistic mediums that encourage making a mess, and the daily ritual of a hot and fragrant infused beverage.
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I Wrote This Book in Lieu of Dying - A. Almond-Harvey
I Wrote This Book in Lieu of Dying
by Audra Almond-Harvey
edited by Merry MacIvor and
Audra Almond-Harvey
FIRST EDITION
Copyright ©2023. All rights reserved, including the right to reproduce this book or portions thereof in any form whatsoever.
REPRINTS
I Mark Time With Observational Statements
originally published in Calliope Magazine, January 2015 and published here with permission. Haunted By My Own Ghost
debuted as a live reading during Haunted, a Southern Gothic site-responsive immersive performance and installation. Ghosts In The Night
debuted in 2016 during Mundane Morose Meanderings, performed in Nashville with frequent collaborator Tavius Marshall at the Kindling Arts Festival. Ecclesiastes,
True Form,
Closets,
and To Be Free
all debuted in gallery during the author’s solo gallery show, Mostly Naked, at abrasiveMedia in Nashville, TN in 2015. A work-in-progress of A Letter To My Grandmothers Named Marie
debuted as a live reading in 2023 during Invisible Ink, a solo performance by the author during the Kindling Arts Festival in Nashville, TN.
For information, address the publisher at info@abrasiveink.com
ISBN 979-8-218-31461-3
Visit www.aalmondharvey.com and sign up for the newsletter!
follow @AAHTheAuthor on socials for extremely minimal engagement!
I Wrote This Book in Lieu of Dying is almost a memoir.
It was born from a pivotal moment when the specter of mortality loomed, and the extent of the resulting doctors’ bills was unknown. The author, faced with a novel experience for the umpteenth time and honestly more than a bit over it, decided to examine the queries that drive their existence. As it turns out, the question to probe was not Why do I live?
or What is the meaning of a life bound by death?
but rather, Who is this person who is currently living, and where have I seen them before?
As you read, you’ll embark on a journey through the intricate alleys of life, identity, and existential dread. This book eludes categorization and has been described as a concept album composed of a bewitching blend of poetry, poetic prose, and philosophical pontifications, all without a single note of actual music contained within.
This book is inspired by the author’s relationships with their ancestors, hailing from four to five continents. It is an origin story, the first book in a trilogy, a braiding of thoughts drawn from the strands of a life defined by tension and involuntarily-hewn resilience. A. Almond-Harvey is still kicking as of the time of publishing and is at least somewhat ready to share this work with the world. Take your chance to scour this remarkable tale crafted while peering over the precipice of mortality and peeking around the corners of wisdom.
I Wrote This Book in Lieu of Dying weaves a narrative that echoes with the disconcertingly rapid heartbeat of life itself.
Praise for I Wrote This Book in Lieu of Dying:
"As the title clearly states ... THIS IS NOT A DEATH. Even if she lies to us, (which she never does for one second in these pages) and tries to mask this as a resignation or a farewell, Audra’s voice is so present throughout this work that the reader would never entertain that possibility.
As someone who knows her, I can assure you that all that she remembers, so much of what she’s come to know, believe, and understand, as well as all that she intends for herself (and, more importantly, us as readers) is here. This is not a death. This is not a resignation. This is a transformation. This is the testimony of someone who’s been able to view their past with full clarity and has decided to claim the right to transform themselves and share it all with you."
Jon Royal, Director and Teaching Artist
Whether you are approaching her work for a source of inspiration, entertainment, or nourishment, you will find her words a lovingly crafted balm for the known and the hidden spaces within yourself that you may not have even realized you needed.
Kat Jones, International Installation Artist, Performance Artist, and Musician
for all my loves
This book would not be possible without the support of countless family and friends who have encouraged, cajoled, nagged, bullied, humored, and dragged me all the way to this finish line.
In Which I Am Caught Monologuing
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I have chosen what is perhaps an odd method for telling you who I am and what I have lived. My goal is not to recount events in chronological order. Instead, I describe my shifts in worldview and self-identity through seasons of metamorphosis.
Do you need to know that my father was born in 1945 and died on September 11, 1991, or is it enough to know that he died at home, and I still remember the smell of life leaving him? Would it help you to hear anecdotes of my interactions with teachers, or is it enough to know that I have learned many things and changed my mind several times based on new information?
As a teacher and leader, the characteristic I prize most in those with whom I work is independence of thought. I could tell you what to think or even fully define what I think, but I do not prefer either option.
How do we even outline what we know about our memories? Due to my evolving perspectives, I might remember the same event in twelve different ways without changing the facts of what happened.
In an era of fake news, it is the role of some to teach an objective understanding of the differences between truth and untruth. However, the role that I have chosen is to convey that though most everything we remember is subjective—because that is just how brains do their thing—in the context of personal growth and an understanding of self, I believe the most honest retelling you can give is the one in which you are no greater or lesser than you truly are.
This work explores the impact of trauma through an invented literary format, which I have termed a poetic concept album inspired by many forms of storytelling, which contains not a single note of music therein.
While I tell most of the more horrific stories obliquely², there are some that I laid bare upon the page. If you have also experienced many generational, familial, and personal traumas, please know that I care far more about your mental health than I do about my readership numbers, and I will not be offended if this is not a work for you now.
I have often been asked, Were you being sincere, or sarcastic?
in relation to words I have uttered. The answer has most always been Yes.
This is one of my child’s favorite things about me.³ Please keep this truth in mind as you read.
This book is about identity. In a story not uncommon in the southeastern region of the United States, many of my indigenous ancestors hid after the Indian Removal Act of 1830. The French and Spanish colonizers had taken my grandmothers’ language, enslaved their bodies, erased their proper names in the baptismal pools, and gave them all the name Marie.
Though I have cousins who took the Long Walk, my direct ancestors hid in the backwater regions of Louisiana. As we are also of Black descent through both enslaved people and free people of color, complex layers were added to our concealment during the Jim Crow era. Our people experienced a diaspora throughout the 1900s but never forgot our origins. Unified by the fear of being made known and the shame of being a hidden people, many of our stories and customs were passed down as family traditions or religious oddities. Some experienced a great deal of pressure to assimilate and "pass⁴;" some never had the complexion to allow for that option. These patterns were reinforced in me, as they were in many of us, through experiences of personal trauma.