In the Shadow of My Lost Twin: Spiritual Journey Diary
By Ágota Sipos
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"One who lost their twin in the womb spends their life repeatedly re-enacting the twin's life and death. Nothing is more important to them than this—not even their own life. If it ever becomes clear what happened before their birth, what they are constantly re-enacting, the tendency to repeat the experiences from the womb often decreases, or it may stop entirely, which brings significant improvement for the individual." Althea Hayton (a notable researcher and expert on the subject)
This book was not written with a scientific aim; it contains no numbers, scientific references, or analyses. The author has strived for simple, easy understanding. This is a spiritual travel journal that can also serve as a key or user guide to evoke thoughts and memories in the reader.
The author writes about how they found their lost twin, their further discoveries and experiences, and has compiled a collection of general characteristics indicative of a lost twin, along with their own life experiences. They describe the "symptoms" that may be typical for survivors of lost twins, the difficulties involved, and how they managed to turn these to their advantage. At the end of the book, the author provides some tips on what might help those who wish to delve deeper into this subject.
"I am here to help you live and process your own burden by sharing these thoughts and feelings, and to remind you!"
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In the Shadow of My Lost Twin - Ágota Sipos
FOREWORD
Welcome, dear Reader!
I am glad you are here with me, and if you have bought this book, then perhaps you know something, or at least you are curious about the topic. And it may be because you are affected, or someone in your family or circle of friends might be. Anything is possible.
What was my intention with this book?
This book can now help in remembering and processing. A spiritual journey diary into the unknown familiar.
I suspected a few years ago that I would need to write a book, God was already whispering to me then. What you are about to read is not comprehensible by the mind, I know, it's not easy to accept. There is no verifiable basis that anyone can prove. Yet I know it happened.
What happened to me, and how I continuously awoke to what I am writing about now, took place over at least a decade and a half. As I often say, the puzzle pieces of my life's events continuously come together, giving me understanding of the past events as they occurred.
My parents are no longer alive. The only close relative I have is my brother, Tamás. On my 55th birthday, I told him – who was also born on May 13th, just three years later – that we had a twin sibling who was not born. That sibling, Anna, developed for a while with me.
Even if she lived only a few weeks in our mother's womb, she still lived, and she belongs to our family, as I am talking about our sibling.
I remember, many years ago, Tamás told me during one of our meetings to stop analyzing the past and to live happily instead. He brought this up again now, which I accept, as he views my experiences through his own filter. He acknowledged what I told him, and I trust that this book will also help him in acceptance. Now I see that the persistent curiosity that kept me from being dissuaded also led me to write this book.
This book is not created with a scientific intent; you will not find numbers, scientific references, or analyses in it. I aimed for simple, easy understanding.
This is a spiritual journey diary, which can also be a key or a guide to evoke thoughts and memories in you, so I ask you from the beginning to be open and perpetually curious!
I write about how I found my lost twin, my additional discoveries, and experiences, I've gathered a bunch of general characteristics pointing to lost twins, and added what I personally experienced in my own life.
You might be shocked by the intense feelings and the detail I recount them with at certain parts, but I intentionally avoided speaking in codes
to convey the thoughts and feelings that emerged while I experienced the events. Some feelings or trains of thought repeat in the book because I wanted to show that resolving the issue did not happen in one instance, and there were times I experienced similar feelings multiple times with different intensities throughout the processing.
I write about the symptoms
that may be characteristic of survivors of lost twins, about their difficulties, and how I managed to turn these into advantages. At the end of the book, I also offer some tips on what might help if you want to delve deeper into this topic.
I am here to share these thoughts and feelings to help you experience and process your own burdens, and to remind you!
With love,
Ágota
GUIDE TO MY SPIRITUAL JOURNAL
Write a book...
This inner urge has confronted me so many times, I've even started a few times, writing for days, then stopping, lacking inspiration. I put it aside. Then self-doubt would kick in. What should I write about? Would people believe what I want to share? Or would they just think I'm crazy?
Yes, dear Reader, you might have similar thoughts while reading my lines. That I'm not normal. But I accept that—abnormally normal, normally abnormal?
But I believe that if this book has spoken to you, if you are holding it in your hands now, then you have a purpose with it.
I want to share a few things with you now that might help you further:
What you will read here goes beyond the normal limits of human thought, so please be open and curious, let the words that have formed into sentences within me, which I am sharing with you, affect you, wash over you. Let yourself flow into this Stream.
If you get bored, that's OK, set it aside. I first read a sentence from Edith Eva Eger, a Hungarian-born Holocaust survivor, which went something like this: You are ready when you are ready! I didn't