Forty Days
By Jenni DeWitt
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Travel with Jenni DeWitt through the first forty days after her son's childhood cancer diagnosis and share with her in the battle between faith and anxiety. With Jenni's raw honesty and quick wit, you'll feel like you are right there with her as she weather's the storms of childhood cancer with less grace and more lessons to be learned than she'd maybe prefer to admit. Through it all, you'll learn, with Jenni, there can still be a little light, even on the darkest days.
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Forty Days - Jenni DeWitt
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Basketball Fever
C ome on boys, hurry up, we are going to be late!
We are always late, but I still wasn’t going to give up the dream. The smell of French fries lost in action drifted up from the crevices of our minivan as I watched Tony pull the seatbelt across his little body.
The cold February air was biting at my hands, and I thought, Maybe someday I’ll be the sort of person who remembers to wear gloves.
Hurrying to get Cooper strapped into his 5-point harness, I lunged for the driver’s seat and shut the door quickly against the cold.
On my knees, I turned around to give their seat belts one last tug as I said in an overly perky voice, Safety check!
My friends laugh at what an overprotective mother I am, but I don’t let that stop me.
Tony and Cooper are 4 days short of 3 years apart and the spitting image of each other, with the exception of the eyes. They were both blessed with my husband, Justin’s, big beautiful eyes and long lashes, but where Tony’s eyes are brown like Daddy’s, Cooper’s are crystal blue like mine.
I crossed myself as I started to say my usual prayer for safe travels. All day long I had been fighting a feeling of dread. When I let my guard down, it would start pulling at my arm. Now that I was in the car it was settling more into my thoughts, Death is lurking.
It made my skin crawl.
What if we were going to get in a car crash and die or something? Is this the sort of feeling people have before they set out for the last time? But surely I was being ridiculous. It was just a bad combination of hormones and anxiety, and there was no sense letting a bad feeling ruin our fun.
Glancing at the boys, who were peacefully watching their DVD player, I decided to make good use of the rare quiet to call a few friends. After several messages and hours of great girl talk, I said a thank you prayer as we pulled into the McDonald’s parking lot. Despite my feelings of dread, we had arrived safely at our destination – Wayne, Nebraska -- where we planned to watch my husband coach in the girls’ basketball district championship.
See,
I told myself, more proof you were just being silly and worried for no reason. We made it here just fine!
The snow crunched under my tires as I pulled up next to my parents' old Jeep in the parking lot. We had intended to sit inside and eat, but of course I was running late so there would be no time for that. Mom climbed in the passenger seat as Dad opened the sliding door and made his way to the back seat through a minefield of blankets and discarded sippies.
Their arrival was enough to break the TV trance, and the boys’ faces lit up with joy. Both of them started talking at once in their typical efforts to get Grandpa’s undivided attention.
Putting the van in reverse, we began making our way the short distance to the McDonald’s drive-through. As I handed over my credit card, my mind was on the clock. We should still be able to make it before the game started.
Luckily, that night, I had my parents there to help me keep an eye on the boys. Maybe I would actually get to see a little bit of the game for once?
There is no good place to change a diaper at a basketball game, so as we pulled up to the stadium I decided it might be best to just take care of it in the cramped space of the van.
As I was changing Cooper’s diaper I said, Mom look at these weird red spots. They are right where the elastic of his diaper rubs.
The rash had been going on for several days, and it seemed to be spreading. It was little red spots that looked like they should be raised bumps, but when I rubbed my finger over them they felt smooth.
Earlier that day I had called the doctor’s office to see if Cooper needed to be seen for the rash. They said it would be a good idea so we set up an appointment to have it looked at the next day. At least they didn’t seem to be bothering Cooper at the moment.
With quick efficiency, I finished changing Cooper’s diaper and grabbed some sanitizer before crawling out the sliding door to escape the cramped conditions. The smell of