Falling Through the Madness
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This is a collection of poetry by the author that functioned greatly as a diary as she navigated her way through the rocky existence that was her mid twenties. She describes what it's like to burn with anxiety, drown under the weight of depression, feel misrepresented with chronic health conditions, grieve the loss of a loved one, and more.
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Falling Through the Madness - Kylie M McGeehan
Falling Through the Madness
A book of poems by Kylie McGeehan
Edited by Devin McGeehan and Heather Ponda
Kylie McGeehan
Contents
1 ANXIETY
2 DEPRESSION
3 MENTAL HEALTH
4 SELF HARM
5 CHRONIC CONDITIONS
6 RELATIONSHIPS
7 GRIEF/LOSS
8 RANDOM
9 NOT AS DEPRESSING
10 About the Author
Copyright © 2024 Kylie McGeehan
All rights reserved.
TRIGGER WARNING: This book contains content about anxiety, depression, overall mental health issues, self harm/suicidal thoughts, rape/sexual abuse, eating disorders, alcohol abuse, and more. Please make sure you are in a good head space when approaching this book of poetry.
If needed please use the following resources:
-SAMHSA’s National Helpline: 1-800-662-HELP (4357)
-Mental Health Hotline: https://mentalhealthhotline.org/ or 866-903-3787
-988 Mental Health Emergency Hotline
-Teen & Young Adult Help Line Text Friend
to 62640; chat at nami.org/talktous; call 800-950-6264
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Intro Poem
I read my own words
Words of hope
Words of hurt
Words of healing
And it feels like they came from someone else
I relate to them, I feel them in my soul
But I don’t sound that dark and twisted do I?
I don’t hate the world that way?
But it was all me, my very own words
Words of spite
Words of hate
Words of death
Words drip, drip, dripping with pain
1
ANXIETY
Anxiety I
They picture anxiety as this cute, put together, slightly pacing girl
And I think to myself, have I ever been that calm with anxiety?
To me anxiety is crippling, hiding under your desk at work,
Crawling into bed at 1 pm to sleep the day away because you can’t handle it,
Hiding in the closet in the dark, with your pillow and a blanket,
Blocking out extra stimulation, jerking various parts of your body uncontrollably.
I would love to be calm and pretty when I’m anxious,
But I’m just in plain survival mode, trying to get through the day.
Anxiety II
The Anxiety crawls up my body,
Slowly sucking away the feeling that my body is my own,
Slowly sucking the life out of me.
I start to feel the pain in my chest as my lungs feel compressed, claustrophobic, painful.
They’re suffocating. I’m suffocating.
I barely notice my heart until it’s about to rocket launch out of my chest
It feels so fast and irregular. But I check and it's not.
It’s 10 in the morning and this workday is seeming longer and longer
And harder to accomplish minute by minute.
I feel my sense of pride and my determination to succeed pulling together
The thin threads of what's left of my composure.
Questions flood my head of what if’s and what could be’s,
What may never be and what I am willing to fight for.
I’m suffocating; help me.
Anxiety III
I take a breath, but the air doesn’t feel refreshing or relieving.
Instead, it feels like acid, burning its way through my lungs, hot and painful,
It makes my insides shrivel up, crawling decrepitly away from the one thing that should bring relief,
Yet repeatedly fails to do so.
My body stiffens, tenses, and hardens, waiting for whatever physical symptom of this disease will come next.
Because that’s what this is, right?
A disease, an abnormal condition that negatively affects the structure or function of all or part of us.
Not hell. Not some form of purgatory. Not being burned alive.
It’s a panic attack. Anxiety. All consuming and fierce.
Anxiety.
Anxiety IV
Why does it burn so much? The anxiety?
It burns as I breathe in, my lungs breathing in the acidic heavy air.
It burns in all the nerves of my body.
It burns as I tense and relax different body parts.
It burns in my heart, feeling like some kind of heart attack.
No amount of water calms the flames,
No amount of medicine is making this go away,
There's no extinguisher for this fire.
So I sit, and I burn.
Putting on my smiling face for all others to see.
Anxiety V
Where do I feel my anxiety? Where is it centered?
You ask from the other side of a computer screen.
I don’t know,
I want to shout, like everywhere
But then I stop and think about what you really mean.
I feel it in my stomach, in my gut first,
It starts to clench and twist and turn like no other,
Like Silly Putty twisted to look like a Rainbow Twist Lollipop.
Then I feel it in my heart, and it starts to beat out of my chest,
Like in a cartoon when the character falls in love, except it's not cute or romantic.
Then I feel it in my skin, the vibrations