Something Like Poetry – A Story of a Damaged Writer

By Ahang Ashti A.

I see a pile of the wreckage of a human.

But I can still visualize the statue of beauty you used to be;

Still, among all the ashes, the tears, the damaged parts,

And the cold touch of your buried pain.

After all, it was I who demolished you,

And it was the sound of your crumbling that awakened me.

• Language: English
• Publisher: Austin Macauley Publishers
• Release date: Jun 21, 2024
• ISBN: 9781035871940

Ahang Ashti A.

Ahang Ashti A. has always been fascinated by language, specifically metaphors, and how they can profoundly impact and shape the human experience and depict a single emotion in infinite streams of expression. Such drastically different writers have influenced him – Gibran, Rumi, and Bukowski – and moulding those three influences to create a unique writing style has been his ultimate goal in his literary approach.

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The writer has always been fascinated by language, specifically metaphors, and how they can profoundly impact the human experience and depict a single emotion in infinite streams of expression. He has been influenced by such drastically different writers—Gibran, Rumi, and Bukowski—and molding those three influences to create a unique writing style has been his ultimate goal in his literary approach.

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I dedicate this, full-heartedly, to the unfortunate damaged people who are still roaming this planet with their wounds and past baggage. I hope these words relate; I hope these lines give you hope, and I hope you find the closure towards an epiphany and join me in this healing journey as well. We all deserve that.

And to her.

I’d also like to show my immense appreciation to Marwa Koofe for creating all the impeccable artwork that compliments the poetry of this book and to Maha Sarchil for creating the book cover’s artwork.

My acknowledgment is definitely towards heartbreak, as strange as it sounds, but it was indeed the main artery that these words flooded from.

Table of Contents

Preface

1. I, Write

2. The Sound of Your Crumbling

3. The Gaze of Trauma

4. I Am Empty

5. The Burial of the Past

6. Throb

7. Xanax

8. Pages

9. Her Thorns

10. Aching Mesmerization

11. In the Company of Other Lovers

12. Frankenstein

13. I Was a Vampire

14. I Was a Werewolf

15. I Am Human

16. I Am a Sufi

17. If I Were a God

18. XYZ

19. Psychedelic – Al Poetry

20. The Physics of Love

21. Dear Beloved

22. A Vulnerable Pride

23. The Corner of Her Cheek

24. To a Damaged Lover

25. Poetic Psychology

26. The Confessions of a Self-Taught Healer

27. Poet Goggles

28. The Wink

29. The Blacksmith

30. Dear Confused Girl

31. To My Daughter-to-Be

32. The Angry Poem

33. Ink Bottle

34. My Heart’s Kingdom

35. Paddle

36. Silhouettes

37. A Turn On

38. The Glowing Sign

39. Poetry and Stitches

40. Cutscenes

41. Ink Dots

42. Vagina Trophy

43. Poetic Masturbation

44. The Pilgrim

45. Fingerprints

46. A Sincere Apology

47. Poor Men

48. The Three Dots

49. Bed Sheets

50. Narnia Kingdom

Preface

In Something Like Poetry, I have attempted to reflect on the journey of a damaged poet toward awakening, sentimental breakthrough, and trauma healing. It depicts a real transformation of personal experience and how I translated that process into writing.

1. I, Write

I guess writing had been in love with me long ago without my notice

Like a one-sided lover who would pay a visit every six months

But it seemed like she didn’t want to leave like she always did this time

I didn’t mind

She would never hurt me; she’d accept my most terrifying flaws

So I decided to settle with her, with Writing

We agreed on almost all the terms except for one

She would allow me to orgasm all my thoughts into her

On the condition of never mentioning my past lovers

I agreed, knowing I would eventually cheat on her!

There was a stain of blood on the paper sheet, my bed with her

From the papercut she stung me with earlier