Stay Til Sunrise: A Mental Health Journey Through Poetry and Prose
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I was diagnosed with borderline personality disorder in 2017 and I felt like my world flipped upside down. In these past 7 years since my diagnosis, I have experienced a lot of pain and trauma, but also so much hope and love from those walking the same path as me. These poems and the occasional prose are my deepest thoughts and fears as someone
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Stay Til Sunrise - Lauren E Rathjens
Stay Til Sunrise
by: Lauren Rathjens
To Mom and Dad-
Thank you. For everything.
Content Warnings
Hello reader. Lauren here. This book deals with heavy subject matter, and I wanted to let you know what will be included so you can prepare yourself and take the precautions needed for you and your triggers.
Suicidal Ideation
Depression
Anxiety
Body Dysmorphia
Weight loss
Fatphobia
Self-harm
Assault
Grief
A Note from the Author...
Hello dear reader. I never thought the day would come when I would write to you. This book has been a labor of love for the past 5 years and these poems have been my lifeline. Now I am passing them on to you. I wrote some of these poems at rock bottom. I wrote some of these poems when I felt on top of the world. I wrote them on receipts and journal pages, typed them in my note's app, and scribbled them on the backs of essays handed back.
During the timeframe of this book being written, I experienced some of my lowest lows and my highest highs. I fell in love. I went to residential treatment. I laughed. I cried. I survived even the worst days. I feel as though I am giving a part of myself away to you in these pages, but I am ready to let this part of my story go out into the world.
Remember, dear reader, that you are not what happened to you. You are not your demons. You are not the thoughts that plague you in the middle of the night. You are so much more. And your life means more than you could ever imagine. I know it sounds cheesy, and maybe you are at a place in life where this feels like mockery of your pain. It’s not. I have published some of my darkest thoughts here to let you know that you are not alone. You are never alone.
Thank you for your love and support and thank you for helping me live my dreams. I hope you love it. I hope you feel seen. But most of all, I hope that it gives you hope.
Part One: Midnight
I have forgotten what my own name tastes like
when I say it out loud
Driving at night in the rain
Screaming a song from a shared playlist
Used to be my favorite activity
Until my passenger seat became perpetually empty
And the burn in my throat from yelling at traffic lights to turn
Is now the only way I know I’m alive
I don’t feel the tears til they have soaked my shirt
And even then, they are just a reminder of my sadness
I have ticket stubs in my car from shitty tinder dates,
Mixtapes from people I haven’t spoken to in months,
Smiley faces drawn in backroad dust form people
I have