Knocked Out without Being Punched
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This is a heart-wrenching true story of one mother’s devastating loss of a child because of a senseless act of gun violence. Blindsided by a powerful punch she didn’t see coming, suddenly, she’s knocked down and left dazed, confused, and discombobulated.
Follow the author’s cathartic journey as she descends into hopelessness and despair in the aftermath. Feeling abandoned by God, her faith is severely tested. But she trusted the Lord to show her the way out of despair, and her faith won out, which led to restoration and recovery.
Redemption is powerful, and love is strong, and she realized there are some battles she couldn’t fight in her own strength. She began to pray and rely on God to give her strength to get through day by day.
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Knocked Out without Being Punched - Dinah M. Sullivan
Knocked Out without Being Punched
Dinah M. Sullivan
ISBN 979-8-88751-324-9 (paperback)
ISBN 979-8-88832-316-8 (hardcover)
ISBN 979-8-88751-325-6 (digital)
Copyright © 2024 by Dinah M. Sullivan
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Table of Contents
Acknowledgments
As I Think of You
Introduction
When Everything in Your World Seems to Be Going Great, Watch Out
The People Closest to You Will Speak Harsh Words at an Inopportune Time
Disbelief
Feeling Cold and Numb in a Total State of Shock and Confusion
I Was Filled with Pain and Anger
Preview
Miss Deceitful Came By
I Was Too Weak to Fight
Children Don't Always Do the Right Things
Paying for Nothing
The Most Intense Pain I Had Was Planning a Funeral: Fear Had Taken Hold of Me
The Day of the Funeral: Reflections
Reflections
Everything They Said Was Good, but No Words Could Mask My Pain
There Was No Care in the Room
Another Battle
I Was Never Alone
Forgiveness
Coming to Grips with Myself and Others
You've Got to Get Up after a Big Fall
Acceptance
A Letter from Him to Me in My Spirit
My Reply in My Spirit
Life Can Be Lovely and Gratifying
Deliverance Came
Food for Thought
Reality Check
Looking to Find Me
Evolve
Lift Up Your Head
Just a Simple Thought
Prayer of If
About the Author
To the heartbeat of my son, Braxton D. Washington Sr.
His memory will forever be with me: his strength, courage, love for others, and the laying down of his life to save others. He was strong, courageous, charismatic, loved by most, but hated by some others—others that wanted to be like him.
He poured out all he had to the people in his circle, helping and encouraging them in every way. I was captivated by knowing that he was teaching and preaching to his friends a week before his untimely demise (everything took place with him). All his friends remembered him asking them one question, the one question that they could not answer: what's the one thing man can't escape? They did not know the answer, but he told them, Death.
Death was the only thing he never feared because he said, You have to stay ready for it.
His friends and family were angry with him because that was all he was talking about the week before death took place, as if he were preparing them to get ready for it.
Thank you for the embodiment of being true to who you were. His life may have been taken away violently, but no one can take away a memory.
Though he slay me, yet will I trust Him.
—Job 13:15 (KJV)
Acknowledgments
I would like to pour out my gratitude to my family and friends for their support, tenacity, and persistence in standing with me while I endured heartache, pain, and weakness.
A special thank-you to a man so precious, even when I thought he turned his back on me in my weakest moment. I realized he is yet a special part of me, my husband/Kieran, for standing in the face of adversity and not walking away from me during my fiery trial. Also, for his persistence in helping me to put pen to paper and the time he took sifting through the pages of my broken heart and encouraging me to complete the process. Thank you.
Mighty grateful for my armor-bearers: Minister Mary L. Favors of Forerunner to the Nations ministry/FTTN; my brother Thomas Washington for coming to the rescue of my husband, and his wife, Carol Washington, who dedicated her arms to me faithfully; Brian Atherton, my manager, for getting me all the assistance I needed and being a lifeline for my family; Peggy Ladd, who walked with me through the trenches of heartache and stayed the course; my spiritual mom Mae Jackson for the words of encouragement.
I thank my loyal friends: Diane Tharpe, for coming to my rescue at work; Margaret Harris; and Shawna Christian, for feeding the mass of people.
Thank you to the Wiggins family, the Nelson family, Ministers Marvin Easley, Barry Briscoe Ray, Bishop Drayton, and countless other friends and family.
Thank you to all my children: Bobby, Sade, Brandon, Kevin, Kiara, and Little Braxton, for seeing about me.
Also, my special friends Brenda and Gary Bible helped me push through and make this happen so others can hopefully be blessed. I thank especially Brenda, for allowing her husband to take time from her to dedicate to me for this process.
A special thank-you to all the people that helped carry me along the way.
Please! Forgive me if I overlooked anyone. Much love to you all!
As I Think of You
One morning, the sun opened its eyes to the grandeur of another day, and there you were, a little boy, a breathing and moving bundle of joy gracing the world with your presence. And like the sun begins to rise and warm the earth, you begin to grow and warm the hearts of the people around you.
There were days when clouds rolled in and blocked the sun, and you felt gray, not feeling your best. Some days, you would hide behind the fog of the day. Then the atmosphere would change, and so would you, piercing from behind the fog as good as new.
Always taking time to talk with people for a while and drawing them in with your loving and kind ways. The elders around you were in awe of your confidence, and your name alone, they said, carried with it strength. How you ministered downtown to those in need and how you'd give the clothes off your back or the shoes off your feet or your last penny, if it would help someone.
There were some dark days for you and some skies of gray, growing and learning, but you didn't always obey. You can't learn on this journey unless you make a few mistakes and have some heartaches and setbacks, but onward, you would tread until you bounce back.
Just like I am in awe of the vistas from the sun shining through the trees, I am thankful just knowing your spirit was so free, free to be kind and free to love. That could have only come from above.
You came into the world and did what you were supposed to do with the time God had given to you.
Your time was short-lived, and the sun began to go down and slowly close its eyes with the darkness of the night's sky. Although, there will never be another sunrise because it has been set for you.
Your existence and the story of your life still warms my heart just thinking of you. You were like the morning dew waiting to greet anyone you encountered. The blanket of the morning dew that covers the ground, and every time I see it, I feel like God is covering me with his resounding love, and his love has no bounds.
Yes, I yearn to see your face and hear your voice again. I miss you telling me, I love you, and don't let people get to you like that, it's not that serious.
I still feel the emptiness inside without you being here. When everyone comes around, and you are not here,