Send My Roots Rain: A Companion on the Grief Journey
By Kim Langley
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Langley offers comfort and encouragement to those struggling with recent loss or grief, helping them find language for complex emotions, and open their hearts through poetry.
Send My Roots Rain is a companion full of stories—sometimes wry and funny, always observant and accepting—for letting grief unfold and teach us. Langley invites a keen awareness that the passage through grief is the navigation of a narrow strait, requiring patience, skill, and worthy companions. These poems can be those companions on the journey.
Langley has carefully selected 60 poems and arranged them in a meaningful arc, beginning with the shock of early grief, leading through a sensitive exploration of a new inner space. She introduces each section, encouraging the ongoing embrace of the healing power of poems, writing, and entry into the grieving process. Each poem is followed by a brief meditation and quotation, with questions for contemplation, journaling, or group discussion.
Kim Langley
Kim Langley, M.Ed., is certified in DDI, Achieve Global, and as a spiritual director. She is president of LifeBalance Enterprises, Inc. with 20 years of experience as a retreat leader and trainer. Kim's most popular speaking topics are Emotional Intelligence, Happiness and Resilience, and Spiritual Poetry Circles. She founded WordSPA ministries for the advancement of Spirituality Poetry Appreciation. She lives with her husband Bill in Lakewood, OH.
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Send My Roots Rain - Kim Langley
KIM LANGLEY
SEND
MY
ROOTS
RAIN
We listen, our heart ears wide To the roars and whispers of your grief.
JANICE FALLS,
from Sorrow Shared
A Companion on the Grief Journey
TO SANDY RIDER, VIRGINIA DOUGLAS, AND BILL FICHTER
You lent your time, skills, hearts, brains and faith to this project. You sent my roots rain, and without you, there would be no book.
2019 First Printing
Send My Roots Rain: A Companion on the Grief Journey
Copyright © 2019 Kim Langley
ISBN 978-1-61261-949-1
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CONTENTS
Blessing for Falling Into a New Layer of Grief
JAN RICHARDSON
You thought
you had hit
every layer possible,
that you had found
the far limit
of your sorrow,
of your grief.
Now the world falls
from beneath your feet
all over again,
as if the wound
were opening
for the first time,
only now with
an ache you recognize
as ancient.
Here is the time
for kindness—
your own, to yourself—
as you fall
and fall,
as you land hard
in this layer
that lies deeper than
you ever imagined
you could go.
Think of it as
a secret room—
this space
that has opened
before you,
that has opened
inside you,
though it may look
sharp in every corner
and sinister
no matter where
you turn.
Think of it as
a hidden chamber
in your heart
where you can stay
as long as you need,
where you will
find provision
you never wanted
but on which
your life will now
depend.
I want to tell you
there is treasure
even here—
that the sharp lines
that so match your scars
will lead
to solace;
that this space
that feels so foreign
will become for you
a shelter.
So let yourself fall.
It will not be
the last time,
but do not let this be
cause for fear.
These are the rooms
around which your
new home will grow—
the home of your heart,
the home of your life
that welcomes you
with such completeness,
opening and
opening and
opening itself to you,
no part of you
turned away.
Prologue
Poetry illuminates the darkness and companions the loneliness of grief. When you lose someone, you feel lost. In times of sorrow, poetry can be a light, a solace and guide.
Well-intentioned friends and family, trying to help, may offer platitudes such as these:
Time heals all wounds.
You’ll have another baby.
God must have needed him more than you did.
They lived a good, long life.
Their suffering is over.
They wouldn’t want you still to be grieving.
You should get back out there and (date, dance, join a book club, etc.).
I’m not sure it should take this long for you to move on.
This kind of advice was probably about as welcomed by you as wilted funeral flowers, leaving you isolated and in a place of despair. You may not think of poetry as a powerful resource to help sort out your feelings. But poetry can create a tender space for reflection. Poetry says the unsayable, offering words that can’t be articulated otherwise.
These poems, carefully chosen for you in consultation with grief work counselors, can be a source of consolation and strength, and a springboard for meaningful conversations. The result is a selection of poems that sing, weep, and steadfastly embrace you. They are digestible, fortifying, and at times challenging and can be taken in big or small bites.
Poet Jane Hirshfield knows. She wrote, To step into a poem is to agree to risk.
I am guessing that you are willing to risk doing the good and hard work that is grieving.
You’ve probably picked up this book because you have had an experience of loss that divided your life into before
and after
in a way that leaves you forever changed. Every day you do your best to shower, brush your teeth, and keep putting one foot in front of the other, and you ask, What’s next?
Most of the people and poets you will meet in this book have stood where you stand now.
State Poet of New York Marie Howe offered, Every poem holds the unspeakable inside it. The unsayable … The thing that you can’t really say because it’s too complicated. It’s too complex for us. Every poem has that silence deep in the center of it.
Marie Howe knows. She lost a brother to AIDS.
Stanley Kunitz wrote a poem called The Layers
in which he asked: How shall the heart be reconciled / to its feast of losses?
Yes, how? And think of that image—a feast of losses. We try hard to put aside this knowing, but if we live richly, with hearts open to intimacy, each of our lives could lay out such a banquet.
Author Lidia Yukanavitch in her TED talk commented on the beauty of being a misfit.
She made the case that if you choose not to stay stuck in the litter, you can be the misfit who is willing to dive into the waters of one’s life, swim to the wreckage at the bottom, and bring something back to the surface.
This is not to say that loss in and of itself makes us better people. Dreams do die, and we can let that harden us. People say everything happens for a reason. I think things happen, and then the choices begin about how to reshape a life. I don’t think it’s a test, I think bad things happen to good people.
Yukanavitch describes how after the death of her newborn infant, she lost her marbles,
stopped eating, and was brought back to life by her sister who fed her bits of saltine crackers to lure me back, then one day an egg, and eventually, a milkshake. The milkshake made me smile.
No wonder Robert Frost’s poem Nothing Gold Can Stay
is a favorite for many. It captures in such simple language the ephemeral nature of so much that we love:
Nothing Gold Can Stay
ROBERT FROST
Nature’s first green is gold,
Her hardest hue to hold.
Her early leaf’s a flower;
But only so an hour.
Then leaf subsides to leaf.
So Eden sank to grief,
So dawn goes down to day.
Nothing gold can stay.
Whether you, personally, are grieving, or you work with the grieving, welcome.
You may have lost someone close at a time when you felt that there was no space to grieve. Some have experienced something named disenfranchised grief.
This refers to being made to feel ashamed about our grief, or having a secret sadness, or one that others trivialize. We may have been too busy raising kids, or in too demanding a job, to give ourselves permission to express, or even feel, the harm in the way we wished. It may never have occurred to some that the death of an ex-partner or spouse requires normal grieving. A parental abandonment of the family, an incarceration, a missing-person event, an early miscarriage, making an adoption plan, a divorce, a traumatic job departure, or the death of any cherished dream is a disenfranchised grief. This pain may be silently clamoring for attention.
You may be suffering the slow and anticipatory grief of the diminution of elders who are disappearing into one of the many types of dementia. You may be a cheerful (or not), exhausted caregiver. You may be reeling from a sudden or shocking bereavement, a violent death, or the emotional havoc of losing a child.
Maybe you are struggling to come to terms with this pain. Some days you feel you are getting along well, and other days you can hardly get out of bed. That’s normal.
While I was in the third year of working on this book, I had to release my old friend Susan, who took a long journey with ALS. Immediately after her funeral, I had to navigate the unexpected death of my stepdad of forty-two years when a devastating blood clot felled him after a routine surgery. His death was followed a month later by release from Alzheimer’s disease of my sweet mom, who was in excellent health and seemed to be settling into a new life without my stepdad. It was not to be.
Our lives are bittersweet. As Robert Frost said, Nothing gold can stay,
not our younger selves, our loved ones, our faculties, or our passions. It can all change in a moment. Our grief is our own, and we are achingly alone with the wearing of it. Ask people who have suffered the collapse of their world, and most will say the same thing—I never imagined it would be like this.
I heard about a counselor who, when he began his practice, said that people would come to the first meeting, and they would tell him about their sadness. Now he observes that the most common beginning he hears from grievers is Am I doing this right?
Who needs that pressure? He calls it the cages of the stages.
You may have wondered whether there’s a right way
too. I know I did.
When you’re lost, you don’t blame the forest. It’s a forest. People get lost. So there you are, with your back against a tree, trying not to panic, and your muscles screaming, and what do you wish for? A friend, a guide, or even a compass