Beforelight
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Beforelight explores queer childhood as a site of
rupture and queer coming-of-age as a process of both becoming and unbecoming. With wisdom and grace, the speaker in these poems confronts
the impacts of fragmented relationships and trauma on his nascent identity,
ultimately committing to the self's authenticity as the highest form of
devotion. Lush, cinematic, and deeply psychological, these poems grapple with
the fragility of our most formative connections—familial, communal, and
ancestral—as the speaker searches for communion with himself and tries to
discover how not to “make a life out of pain.”
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Beforelight - Matthew Gellman
BEFORELIGHT
Matthew Gellman
Foreword by Tina Chang
NEW POETS OF AMERICA SERIES NO. 52
BOA EDITIONS, LTD. * ROCHESTER, NY * 2024
Copyright © 2024 by Matthew Gellman
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CONTENTS
Foreword
So Much Light
*
Replica
Little Brother
Mother, Sleeveless
Brother, Age Six
Homecoming
Not Music
The Wheat Field
Brother with Rupture
Doe
Snipe
*
Lacuna
Ephemerals
My Family Asks Me to Speak
Painting November
Night Logic
Brother in E Flat
Echo Lake
Trying to Grow
Brother in C Minor
Sixteen
Connor
*
In Second Grade Our Mothers Help Us Believe in Fairies
Pause
Smoke
Special Report, After Rain
Beforelight
Brother, in August, with Hesitation
Watching the Heron with My Mother, I Remember Apertures
*
Dialectic with Snow
Grand Island, Nebraska
Something Like Grace
Cloudburst
Rob
New Year’s Eve in Dresher, Pennsylvania
Tyler
Mother, After the Hurricane
Hunt
Saint Timothy’s School, 1975
Alpenglow
Notes
Acknowledgments
About the Author
Colophon
All I want is boundless love.
Even trees understand me!
—Frank O’Hara, Meditations in an Emergency
For my mother
FOREWORD
The first words of Matthew Gellman’s magnificent debut collection Beforelight include All, Everywhere, and So Much, a gesture to Gellman’s artistic leaning toward abundance in his soulful journey of personhood and selfhood. He fills moments of inner questioning with generosity in the form of light, in the form of seeing, and remembering, in its multi-faceted praise of love and desire. While the reader is invited into the muscular