The Hard Way: A Doctor's Fight Against Addiction, Poverty and Depression
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When he was growing up, Jason Ramirez, MD, didn't know what it was like to have a stable home life. Since he was young, his parents' heroin addictions had ruled their family. Jason remembers seeing his parents try to stop one of their friends from overdosing, and he remembers them being too consumed in their own addictions to take care of their young children. His troubled childhood involved homelessness, domestic violence, poverty, and the later life complications that comes from the disease of addiction.
It was no wonder Jason turned to a career that helped people. It wasn't easy for him: the trauma of his childhood and the symptoms of major depressive disorder made his coming-of-age nearly impossible to get through. But as he shows in The Hard Way, it was only nearly impossible. Find out how he overcame these obstacles and more in this highly inspirational memoir.
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The Hard Way - Jason Ramirez, MD
Table of Contents
Title
Copyright
Introduction
Acknowledgements
The Ramirez Family Origin
Exodus from Connecticut
If You Can Do It, I Can Do It Better
Depression Takes Hold
A Second Chance at Medicine
The Poster Boy Becomes the One
Losing Everything…Again!
One-Last-Chance Doctor
A Foundation Is Built Yet Tested
If I Can Do It, You Can Do It Too
About the Author
cover.jpgThe Hard Way
A Doctor's Fight Against Addiction, Poverty and Depression
Jason Ramirez, MD
Copyright © 2024 Jason Ramirez, MD
All rights reserved
First Edition
Fulton Books
Meadville, PA
Published by Fulton Books 2024
ISBN 979-8-88982-570-8 (paperback)
ISBN 979-8-88982-571-5 (digital)
Printed in the United States of America
Introduction
As I left my office for the day, the February air ventilated my lungs with each chilling breath. I reflected on how good my life had become. I was educated, owned a luxury home, had the career of my dreams, and the most beautiful, loving wife. It had been a good day, although busy. Though I was early in my career as a family medicine doctor, in Carlisle, Pennsylvania, I had established a good- sized patient panel already. I recalled the patients I had seen throughout the day. It had been a typical day occupied by a steady flow of sore throats, high blood pressure and diabetic care visits, well child and routine adult physical exams. At the core of family medicine, and a primary motive for choosing to practice family medicine, are the close personal relationships developed with our patients. Continuity of care allows for truly knowing
our patients, physically and emotionally. We have the privilege of caring for several members of the same family, often over different generations. We take pride in having a broad medical knowledge base as most patient's concerns are initially brought to their primary care provider. I thought to myself, there is nothing else in the world I would want to do with my life. Nearing my exit, I felt life was perfect. How could it get any better?
The commute home on Interstate 81 found traffic lighter than usual, allowing me to arrive home several minutes earlier than I typically did. As I pulled into the driveway, I was excited to share my good day with my wife Melissa. I entered through the powder room to find the house clean and quiet.
How was your day, love?
The look of trepidation on my wife's face told me there was much more to this question than the simple inquiry would suggest. Sit over here.
Her voice quivered as she gestured to our loveseat, which was warmed by a stone-walled fireplace five feet away. Without saying a word, I obeyed her plea, hoping for the best but expecting the worst. Seconds seemed to draw out into minutes, until the silence was broken by my wife's cracking voice, I'm pregnant.
I could not acknowledge anything after that as my brain failed to register any further words Melissa had spoken. For my poor wife, the second period of complete silence must have seemed like an eternity. I don't know if I visualized the wall I stared at for a reported five minutes, or how I maneuvered my body upstairs to our master bedroom, but I went into hibernation for the next fourteen hours. When I arose, I went downstairs to find Melissa sitting on the living room couch. She appeared anxious to hear me speak, yet her eyes pleading for the silence to be broken.
Did we have a conversation when I got home from work yesterday? Something about having a baby?
I asked. Indeed, we had. I had not had a dream. I was going to be a father.
I was content living a life without children— not because of a dislike for them but rather due to a fear of not being a good father. Though we never discussed starting a family, Melissa was aware of my concerns. She knew I'd had a challenging childhood, unlike hers, which had been based on strong family ties and values. I knew my childhood experience was the root cause of my fear. Now I had to face that fear head on, and I had no idea how I was going to do it.
Thirteen years and two children later, my life could not be any better, nor would I change it for anything; I love being a parent. My family consists of my beautiful wife Melissa Anne; our son Alexander Louis; and daughter Olivia Violet Ramirez.
Alex is my absolute mini me. A friend once commented that it looked like I was thrown into the dryer and out popped Alex. Intelligent, athletic, and one of the funniest people I know, Alex possesses a calm, laid-back demeanor, a trait acquired from Melissa. His passion is baseball. We travel often to tournaments where we all are together as we watch him grow into the successful young man, we know he will become.
Olivia looks just as adorable as her mother, and the joy she has brought to our lives goes beyond words as well. Though she looks like Melissa, her personality is 100 percent from me. Nicknamed GP and GP2.0, we form the GP Crew—GP standing for grumpy pants. Olivia amazes all with her extreme inner determination and focus. At the age of four, Melissa and I found her in the living room, kicking and punching the air while watching the iPad. When asked what she was doing, she replied, I'm teaching myself karate.
To this day, we are not sure where the passion came from, but we took her to a tae kwon do introductory lesson, and now she is first degree black belt at the age of nine years.
My wife Melissa is my soulmate, my foundation for happiness, and as I will detail, my savior. Her love for people and life amazes me to this day. I have never seen Melissa angry at anyone, excluding me, but that is always self-inflicted, I'm sure. As the mother of my children, she is the best I could have imagined. Our children are who they are because of her love and attention to them.
Marrying Melissa and having a family provided me with a secure foundation for the first time in my life. A foundation which has allowed me to achieve professional and personal goals I never thought possible. I was once told by individuals who were supposed to be my mentors, You are not a good enough person to be a doctor,
You are not faculty material,
when I shared with my residency associate program director that I planned to be faculty for a family medicine residency program. Sometimes my stubbornness is a blessing as I have been fortunate enough to work as an assistant professor for the University of Maryland School of Medicine in the Department of Family and Community Medicine. Not only did I become faculty, but I was also given the humbling honor of serving as the residency program director for the family medicine residency program.
My journey to professional success has been anything but easy or traditional. On a road paved by parental heroin addiction, homelessness, and major depressive disorder, many obstacles have threatened my success and my life. Fortunately, I have transformed from an angry and bitter young man who prided himself on beating the odds on his own, to a mature husband and father who acknowledges the influence of the caring people who contributed to my success. My intent in sharing my story is that lives will be touched by the pages which follow. May they offer hope to all who feel they cannot achieve their dreams because of disparities and social injustice. I believe anyone can achieve their goals and aspirations through a relentless work ethic, a little help, and personal belief that no matter how impossible or hopeless things may appear, persistence and dedication will pay off.
Acknowledgements
To my parents—through all their struggles, they did not give upon their children. The lessons learned from them may not have been intentional, but I learned to work hard for everything I wanted and to never give up.
To the many supporters who took a chance on a teenager they barely knew. Thank you for seeing in me the potential to succeed. I hope I have made you proud.
Most importantly, thank you to my family, Olivia, Alex, and Melissa. Without Melissa's unconditional and unwavering love, I would not have had the strength to go on in life. Alex and Olivia keep me feeling young and full of life. Because of Melissa, Olivia, and Alex, I have an inner peace, a sense of purpose, and a happy life—a life where I am no longer living the hard way!
The Ramirez Family Origin
Ihave always envisioned my mother as a beautiful young woman the day she met my father. Robin Elizabeth Tuller was fourteen years of age when she was approached by a handsome man in the mall one summer day. Daniel (Danny) Louis Ramirez, a twenty-four-year-old Puerto Rican man with no fear. As the story goes, Danny approached the young woman and asked for a dime to make a phone call. Despite a ten-year age difference, the bad-boy persona of my father won my mother's heart from that day forth.
My mother was one of seven children, all raised by my grandmother without much support. I never learned much about my mother's childhood, or if I did, I remember little. I know she did well in school and was frequently an A student, a fact that never surprised me, as I always thought of my mother as a very intelligent person. I believe she could have been anything she wanted in life if she had remained in school and pursued an education. Instead, shortly after meeting my father, she dropped out of high school in the tenth grade. To her credit, she did earn her GED and completed two years at a community college, earning an associate degree in accounting.
My father, an only child raised by his mother, grew up on the streets of New York City, after moving to the city from Puerto Rico at two years of age. My father and his mother never got along, and without the guidance of a male figure in his life, my dad took to the streets to find acceptance and a sense of belonging. He was educated by the Catholic school system until he dropped out of high