Not Ghosts, But Spirits IV: art from the women's & LGBTQIAP+ communities
By Perkovich
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art from 55 contributors from the women, queer, trans, intersex, & enby communities - all sales from this volume will be donated to Crossroads for Women
Perkovich
Emily Perkovich is from the Chicago-land area. She is the Editor in Chief of Querencia Press and on the Women in Leadership Advisory Board with Valparaiso University. Her work strives to erase the stigma surrounding trauma victims and their responses. She is a Best of the Net nominee, a SAFTA scholarship recipient, and is previously published with Harness Magazine, Rogue Agent, Coffin Bell Journal, and Awakenings among others. She is the author of the poetry collections Godshots Wanted: Apply Within (Sunday Mornings at the River), The Number 12 Looks Just Like You (Finishing Line Press), Manipulate Me, Babe-I Trust You (GutSlut Press), & baby, sweetheart, honey (Alien Buddha Press) as well as the novella Swallow. You can find more of her work on IG @undermeyou
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Not Ghosts, But Spirits IV - Perkovich
Not Ghosts,
But Spirits
Volume IV
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CONTENTS
Pomegranate Seeds & the Hearts of Men – Shilo Niziolek
We Were a Reynolds Wrap Family – Jessica Ballen
The Torah Forbids Tattoos – Jessica Ballen
Misdiagnosed – Jessica Ballen
terrain map from the passenger seat – Jessica Ballen
STS. ANTHONY, PRAY FOR US – Reyzl Grace
Cast Away – Katherine Zhao
metal earrings. – Katherine Zhao
Nostalgia – Katherine Zhao
First Meetings – Mrityunjay Mohan
MARY WEBSTER’S LAST LAUGH – Eva Korošec
The Collector – Rachel Mulder
Port Orange Bridge – David Milley
brutal philia – Jessica Thiru
Rodrigo Rocks – Ell Cee
Tristana/Toledo – Alex Carrigan
Horseshoe Heart – Alex Carrigan
In the Tall Grass – Alex Carrigan
Disrupting Cultura: & Yes, Microsoft Word Tried To Correct My Cultura To Culture – Luis Lopez-Maldonado
Irina Tall (Novikova)
Irina Tall (Novikova)
Jump – Luis Lopez-Maldonado
On My Debut – Luis Lopez-Maldonado
I Want to Hear the Birdsong – Hannah Murphy
Granny Reading – Nicole Gauvin
(un)queer(ing)(ful) – Val West
How to not-know the pseudo-lovers I tossed out like facial tissues in order to try and replace my last lover – Val West
At Night – Percy Wise
The Leaves of I – Percy Wise
The Homecoming After The War – Carol Dorf
Let the Contested Moments Begin – Carol Dorf
The Mermaids in the Basement – Carol Dorf
Sister – Valerie Hunter
All Elbows – Emilce Ferreria
white on white – Rebecca Herrera Alegria
o madre mia – Rebecca Herrera Alegria
earthwork – Rebecca Herrera Alegria
How To Become The Ghost Girl At The Bottom Of Clary Lake – Christina Rosso
Two Dads – Nicole Gauvin
Ex Voto, Teenage Fumble – Dylan McNulty-Holmes
A Handful of Dirt – Dylan McNulty-Holmes
Killers – Dylan McNulty-Holmes
Survivalism for Hedonists – Dylan McNulty-Holmes
wings – Karen Baumgart
acorn armour – Karen Baumgart
Mom’s Emergency Holiday Dinner – Jennifer Moffatt
In Good Spirits – Susannah Jordan
My Girlfriend Tells Me She Doesn’t Want to Sleep Alone in the Dark World – Christina Rosso
Still – Eleanor Ambler
Old Juniper – Eleanor Ambler
Breaking News: - Eleanor Ambler
From [inJust] – Eleanor Ambler
Séance – Ammy McCollum
A Witch Hunt’s Inheritance – Elyssa Tappero
Ginia and Vitti – Sherry Shahan
Lavish Transfers,Cloudland Tenderness - Rachel Mulder
Strawberry Jam – Leanne Moden
Not like other girls – Leanne Moden
Hypothetically Speaking – Leanne Moden
Phony – Ken Anderson
The Mummy – Ken Anderson
to be honest – Linda M. Crate
Lycanthropy – Brooke White
Men think about the Roman Empire several times a week – Charlotte Maiorana
all the words that feel like awe – Charlotte Maiorana
Hey, Dollface – Katy Somerville
The Standard Girl – Jasmine Mosher
Of deliverance and subsequence – Samantha Erron Gibbon
Not Ghosts: Horses, Bears, and Buddha – Pierce Logan
Fat Girl’s Dinner Party – Kali Meister
My Ass – Kali Meister
Irina Tall (Novikova)
Irina Tall (Novikova)
The Drowning Woman – Melissa Ramos
Fur Coats and No Intermission – Katy Somerville
Pogrom – D. Dina Friedman
Ruptures – D. Dina Friedman
The Parting – D. Dina Friedman
Shadow Over the House – D. Dina Friedman
Nike Reimagined – D. Dina Friedman
in this life you said roses – Dena Igusti
arisan – Dena Igusti
sonnet as a survival guide for both versions of this city – Dena Igusti
portrait of my reflection on a blank computer screen – Dena Igusti
Objectified – Mahaila Smith
Insect House – Ashley Gilland
Overgrowth and Dead Leaves – Ashley Gilland
To Mend Your Ways – Avery Timmons
Miasma – Jen Colclough
May – Jen Colclough
Sleeping on My Best Friend’s Couch – Jen Colclough
body as apparition – Audrey Wu
Scab – Audrey Wu
Vigil: 66 Sherman Street, Cambridge, Mass. – Audrey Wu
on ghosts and dressing up – Audrey Wu
The Art of Staying Put – Katy Somerville
Spirits – Claire Beeli
the feminine urge to – K. DeCristofaro
a lily is a paradox – dre levant
to wonderland? – dre levant
Supervision – Rachel Mulder
Siren Song – Venus Fultz
It feels like I'm running out of tears while they run out of places to bury our bodies – Vanessa Ferrer
june 3 – nat raum
bleuet – nat raum
prose poem for being the only trans person in your office – nat raum
Litha – Ammy McCollum
Constellations – Mrityunjay Mohan
ABOUT THE CONTRIBUTORS
Pomegranate Seeds & the Hearts of Men – Shilo Niziolek (she/her)
If it wasn’t for the cat she adopted from the Humane Society, she wouldn’t have made it through the year. She named him Zeus, for he was haughty and full of himself, knowing full well he could demand affection and receive it, even if moments before he had rejected her advances. Zeus hopped off the couch as soon as she reached out her rogue red sharpened nails to pet his calico fur.
You should respect the old gods,
she said to him, to which he turned his ass in her direction, walking away with his tail lifted, as if to say, Lady, I am the old gods.
The fan above clicked tirelessly in its rotation, coated in a layer of dust. The September wildfire light cast eerie orange silhouettes on the peeling walls and fake hardwood floors. She despised this apartment and everything it represented. Human’s stacked one on top of the other, cage on a cage on a cage, and down in the soil below that, a burial ground lost to the peoples whose ancestors were buried there. The detritus of the building crumbling above them. The worst part is the humans rarely realized what they were. Animals in a zoo that nobody longed to look at, to look after, to feed or care for.
Through the open window she could hear a neighbor watering the dying potted ferns sat in rows before her door. The sound of a shopping channel drifted down from somewhere, and she imagined perfectly the woman on the screen, hair locked in with too much hair spray, the scent practically wafting through the screen, and the look of utter derision, falsified as a smile, plastered across her pastel pink lipstick, the shade of loneliness and despair. The woman on the screen would be wearing fake pearls, a pastel button-up dress cinched at the waist to accentuate her breasts hoisted up in the grip of a nauseatingly tight bra, and the woman who watched the woman on the screen thought that maybe if she bought the product the tv woman held in her hands, her husband wouldn’t breeze past her on his way in and out to work without a backwards glance. The woman would buy the product and nothing would change and a little bit more of her would die inside.
Lamia refused bras. She refused cosmetics—besides her blood-red nail polish—and all jewelry expect for the scarab beetle ring she wore on her middle finger. She didn’t need excess, and in fact, abhorred it in others. The polish and ring weren’t excess though, they were warning, one which so often wasn’t heeded. The consumerism of today’s people made her sick. She waited tables at the local dive to pay the exorbitant rent on this rundown apartment that sat near the woods at the edge of town. She could have made her money the old-fashioned way, as single women trying to get by in the world had in a million lifetimes before. As she had before. But in her old age she had grown tired of the type of men who paid for favors. Weak. Often filled with equal parts cowardice and contempt. The meat on their bones was rancid, sick with the scent of desperation, or worse, soft-hearted entitlement.
It wasn’t that the men she took home from the diner weren’t filled with this same putrid lust. They were often booze filled, homesick, heartsick, or worse by far, love struck. But at least she didn’t have to pretend to enjoy them. If they were tiresome, she made quick work of them, then padded out, her bare feet clacking like talons on floors, placing a tin can up to the electric can opener, the whir of the blade slicing through the silence, filling the void where before had been screams.
A sharp wind rattled the used-to-be-white blinds in the window, and she calculated how many hours she had between now and her next shift. Grabbing the unopened pack of smokes off the coffee table, she tapped the top on her exposed upper thigh rhythmically before peeling off the seal. The cat came out of the bedroom and stared at her from the end of the hallway while licking his tender paws clean.
Now who is the one willing to take my scraps, Zeus,
she said, not to the cat.
She cranked her zippo across her skin and took a long drag in, the cigarette end crackling to life.
They used to say she went after men because of what was done to her, her children taken and left in their wake a lust for blood. That was just a rumor. The people always wanted reason, and what better reason than a woman being unmothered? The imagination of men was truly so small. As insignificant as the not yet children she had done away with herself, fluid filled sacs in the womb. They never grow out of it, those little boys. Generations and centuries of men and they still can’t conceive of a woman whose soul purpose in life wasn’t to burst forth more starving babies. More creatures to poison the seas, tear up the forests they needed in order to breathe. Their ignorance was laughable.
It wasn’t what they did to her that made her ravenous. Really, they could do very little too her, though they never knew that when they climbed into the cab or her pickup. It was their utter complete lack of imagination that drove her to do it again and again. It had driven her all along. It wasn’t madness but it was something close to. She only went after the ones who—even if they tried to keep their true feelings secret in today’s modern world, their women standing next to them in their pink pussy hats—bit-by-bit, stole their women’s freedoms through catfish troll accounts online and on the ballots and through quiet votes cast with their hands behind their backs, thumbs twiddling.
She had no female friends, no friends at all, other than the cat. She loved women, their sensuous hearts and lilting laughs. Staying separate was a matter of self-preservation. She could not be weakened by her needs. Lamia had loved a goddess before, but gods were like men, maybe even more so, possessive and unyielding. This is how she became what she is, after all, what she had long now been. For her love of Hera and all Hera loved, she had paid with a thousand lives, a thousand more. And for this price, for protecting the sacred hearts of women, she was allowed a secret that even Zeus the cat would never be allowed in on.
For it was in her slumber after sucking the bones dry that she fell into a deep sleep, a sleeping world where Hera waited for her, all silk and soul of her, draping around and through Lamia like a turbulent and soft wind.
It was Zeus who had done it, who had caught them and turned her into what she was. Unfortunately for him, he didn’t get to decide who she turned her rage on, who she became the protector of. By day she devoured the hearts of men, and by night Hera fed her pomegranate seeds in her dreams.
Zeus the cat mewled quietly beside her, tilting his head inquisitively, and for a moment a blade of terror cut through her, imagining that this cat she named was linked to its namesake, transmitting her thoughts. She laughed at her own ridiculous paranoia and patted his head, not unkindly, before standing up from the couch. She slid her feet into red suede shoes and grabbed her keys and purse off the hook before unlatching the front door.
Don’t wait up,
she winked at the cat and could have sworn he winked back.
She stepped outside into the smoky air. It filled her lungs. There was a thick layer of ash on her truck. She had seen more empires collapse than she could recall. It wouldn’t be long left for this civilization, at least not in the years of gods and demons alike. This world was ripe for burning and she’d be there on the side, the cleanup crew, waiting for the next round of monsters and men.
Cranking the key a few times, she fired up the engine, lit another smoke, and drove to the heart of town where she would serve the people and then take out the trash.
*Originally published in Cream Scene Carnival, 13 Days of Halloween
We Were a Reynolds Wrap Family – Jessica Ballen (she/they)
I can’t look at aluminum foil without seeing my brother’s blood. His palm split by my sister’s rage, stitched back together by paramedics. Not then, but later, my sister went to college. Became a Nurse Practitioner. Married a doctor.
But after hitting my brother with the serrated edge and slicing him open, she ran to our guest bathroom. Held that door closed, because the lock was broken from too many hands.
I used my hands for something purposeful for once, digging for chewed up food down my throat. Sank my