Querencia Autumn 2023
By Perkovich
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Querencia Press's Autumn 2023 anthology features 58 contributors of Poetry, Fiction, & Non-fiction work. Themes of the collection vary widely and the editor would like to include content warnings for self-harm, addiction, grief, domestic violence, religious trauma, sexual trauma, gender dysphoria and politics, as well as some blood and body
Perkovich
Emily Perkovich is from the Chicago-land area. She is the Editor in Chief of Querencia Press and on the Women in Leadership Advisory Board with Valparaiso University. Her work strives to erase the stigma surrounding trauma victims and their responses. She is a Best of the Net nominee, a SAFTA scholarship recipient, and is previously published with Harness Magazine, Rogue Agent, Coffin Bell Journal, and Awakenings among others. She is the author of the poetry collections Godshots Wanted: Apply Within (Sunday Mornings at the River), The Number 12 Looks Just Like You (Finishing Line Press), Manipulate Me, Babe-I Trust You (GutSlut Press), & baby, sweetheart, honey (Alien Buddha Press) as well as the novella Swallow. You can find more of her work on IG @undermeyou
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Querencia Autumn 2023 - Perkovich
Querencia
Autumn 2023
Querencia Press, LLC
Chicago Illinois
QUERENCIA PRESS
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ISBN
978 1 959118 73 2
www.querenciapress.com
First Published in 2023
Querencia Press, LLC
Chicago IL
Printed & Bound in the United States of America
CONTENTS
Poetry
The sewing machine – Dorothy Lune
Wedding – Dorothy Lune
Sick sad world – Dorothy Lune
Veil Walker – Alexa Brockamp Hoggatt
Smoke – Marshall Bood
No Longer a Maiden, Not Yet a Crone – Caitlin Downs
I Request a Natural Burial – Caitlin Downs
Inheritance – Caitlin Downs
Non-Binary – Caitlin Downs
Mauvaise Femme – Caitlin Downs
Lexicons – Shannon Vare Christine
MUBBLE FUBBLES /n. English/melancholic state – Shannon Vare Christine
ORGONE /n. English/aura/chi/lifeblood – Shannon Vare Christine
RAASKIA /v. Finnish/dare, courage to act – Shannon Vare Christine
A Midwinter Day’s Dream – Anushri Nanavati
Bird Music – Anushri Nanavati
you won’t vote yourself out of this – c. michael kinsella
When Grief Moved In – Amata
in quale porcia ferendo la coscia – nat raum
sunrise beach – nat raum
nag’s head – nat raum
Untitled – Mykyta Ryzhykh
DECEMBER 26 – James J. Siegel
Shadows – Brittany McCauley
Bleedings – Ivan de Monbrison
Before Perseus – Alison Lubar
one in front of the other – Alison Lubar
Dimming Triptych for REDACTED – Alison Lubar
Dominoes – Sandrine Letellier
one of a kind – tommy wyatt
how to pray and mean it / how to just say no to dissociating / how to move on – tommy wyatt
baby’s first horror (they’re just too young edition) – tommy wyatt
ben drowned (analog) – tommy wyatt
Early Sorrow or Fight, Flight, Freeze – Joyce Hayden
Inverted Elegy – Joyce Hayden
Did Emily Dickinson Ever Consider Suicide? – Joyce Hayden
Inheritance – Jessica June Cato
The tall tree with shaking leaves – Lynda Chouiten
Blue House Tour – John White
Alligator – John White
O.A. – Kara Quinn
The Unknown, Remembered Gate – KB Ballentine
Archeological Disclosure – Kim Malinowski
Are our hearts displayed in Snow White’s coffin of glass? – Kim Malinowski
Enough Shooting Stars for Eternity? – Kim Malinowski
Our Song Rings – Ariya Bandy
Ghosts of Grass – Ariya Bandy
One Minute Per Second – Ariya Bandy
How to Want Less – Jo Angela Edwins
when clouds and balloon animals become one – Janna Lopez
Balaneion – Delilah Dennett
Shunyata – Delilah Dennett
What Your Mother Never Told You When She Painted Your Toenails – Sally McClellan
Vida Loca – Sally McClellan
In My Country – Sally McClellan
Ruined – Sally McClellan
Unworthy – Zuha Zubair
stuck in expanse – Arlo Arctia
El viejito and the cows – Fabio Chee Madrigal
The old woman y el queso – Fabio Chee Madrigal
Smoke Break at the Nuthouse – Dan Flore III
Running and Walking With Girls – Dan Flore III
Welcome Aboard (the destination isn’t new, only different) – Cailey Tin
what hall of dreams light up with – Cailey Tin
Sunset Haiku Poem – Brenda Kay Ledford
MY CHERNOBYL WINDOW – Paul Truther
fire fire fire – Octavio De La Cruz
my plants hang from the ceiling – Octavio De La Cruz
up – Octavio De La Cruz
how often do you listen to jazz? – Octavio De La Cruz
Evolution – Kathryn Diamond
Of Trees And Ancestors – Alexandra Voicu
Strawberry Fever – Kiara Nicole Letcher
Lift the shirt over your head, Let the roses fall out – Kiara Nicole Letcher
Years of the Snake – Kiara Nicole Letcher
Untitled – Gina Bowen
Omens – Gina Bowen
Fiction
Belonging – Antonia Rachel Ward
A Watcher – Ric Stott
Warrior Candle – Hannah Saal
Plus ça Change, Plus C'est la Même Chose – Jordan Nishkian
Eve – Daniel Schulz
Heaven in her head – Irina Tall
Don't give back what you've been through – Irina Tall
Visitors – Mel Piper
GLOAMING – Tina Klimas
The Angel and the Storm – Daniel Barrios
Non-Fiction
Concealed – Angela Townsend
A Late Awakening – Sydney Lea
Black Licorice – Monique Quintana
Love in Five Drawbridges – Limi Marie Bauer
Will Abortion Kill the Filibuster—Only Dead Men Can Tell – Amy Bobeda
Souvenirs – Amata
The Steps to Attaining the Best Indian Ginger Tea – Nitya Budamagunta
Coming Out to You While Playing Minecraft – Nitya Budamagunta
The Good Boy – Coe Colette
The Mysteries of Dia Van-Burdick – Dia VanGunten
Dreams – Claire A. Jones
About the Contributors
Poetry
The sewing machine – Dorothy Lune(she/her)
A hook
A hypocritical curve
A copper grin of your grandma
A deceiving bait
Jiggles of rubber
Gauge the dunce, gauge the mime—
I am not the hole
Defective & sinks on its own accord—
You're between yourself like a mushy strawberry
Under the needle of the sewing machine
It taunts you with a hum like your grandma's
When she sewed a hook on a human hem
Or tried on something new—
Each infant a stepping stone to almost reach
The pond of blood head first
One coat counts as skin.
Wedding – Dorothy Lune(she/her)
Hear women scream be careful, I know how to spill the wine
/ my red glove was once caught in the act at a wedding. The
chairs were plastic yet withstood hydrofluoric acid—I
witness love & it witnesses me, marriage / swing / adjust.
Wedding as a print of a swan's torso—daughter of
leglessness. Entitled to loneliness, I know how to recite
divorce rates, my parents never married, I know how to sip
rain. The wine spills like kissing in public / the shade of my
glove / the glimpse of leglessness—like watching swans. A
cuff of rain—daughter of the dam, I know how to spill the
wine.
Sick sad world – Dorothy Lune(she/her)
New girl
doesn't make friends
like Quinn—esteemers make friends
/ like crumbs happen to sit / on the same acre of glaze
marble shore /—if it came to it, dad would pick this sick
sad world over a better one. I may be sentenced to life long
methposting on Facebook like my father, / or
running for office. I'm a special kiddo in Lawndale High,
in a mindless family system / upon systems /—
perhaps adults should know better than me. My
mother loves this sick sad world / cherishing
something she hasn't personally encountered,
like one droplet of that crimson
in the center of a clear pebble.
Veil Walker – Alexa Brockamp Hoggatt(she/her)
Yes, you can come in. I think I’ve seen you before, in my dreams.
I think I’ve known you once, twice upon a lifetime.
Do you know my ghost? He’s the one who haunts the forest.
I only say he’s mine because he told me so. Ghosts aren’t something you can claim without permission. He walks between the trees and calls for me and sometimes I find him there, but most days we wake and walk in different worlds, though I feel for his in my sleep because it isn’t right that he should know something without me when we have always only known each other.
The veil is so heavy some days.
I could bang my fists against its edges and hear nothing from the other side.
This world can feel so far away from the others. Sometimes it doesn’t feel like the fog leads anywhere at all, but I still think if I walk into it, I’ll emerge somewhere far away, deep green and
heavy with magic.
I am still learning about this world I live in.
I once thought it was full of myths and stories, but every day I find another reason to believe that the only myth is the story I told myself about why I need these walls to protect me when I could
make myself the fiercest part of the night.
I would walk it, then, unhindered. I would walk right to your tree and lay down in the moss. The night would turn from blue to black, and the coyotes would pad by, and the trees would whisper night secrets, and somewhere between the trees you would walk the darkness, and together we would be the fiercest and gentlest part of the night.
Can’t you see it? Just the gentlest haunting.
Smoke – Marshall Bood(he/him)
I fell down
to my knees
and pointed
to a spot
on the sidewalk
as the police
passed by
The night before
I had a wake
with a candle
burning on the floor
I continued to a pay phone
and tried to explain
the murder
and all the afterlife dreams
up in smoke
No Longer a Maiden, Not Yet a Crone – Caitlin Downs(she/they)
There’s a body in a field
with flowers in the eyes of yesterday.
I unapologetically bare the body
remade as a temple of branches
from the mire and moss.
I invite all of the frogs to
croak in worship, alongside
the strangely whirring choir
of the seventeen year cicadas.
The last time they surfaced
our love was a fatuous
teenage distraction.
Like the cicadas, we are reborn
on different cycles after all.
The buried thing left behind by you,
long ago unflowered, was a woman
still young but too old to ignore
the cruelty that grew in you
like dark and twisting briar
choking out any greener growth.
I Request a Natural Burial – Caitlin Downs(she/they)
Bury me with half a peach
resting just beneath
where my ribs and spine
meet soft flesh.
Two spliced wombs
decaying together,
a pit ripe with possibility—
that one day a hungry
sprouted limb
may split the lid
of my pine box
to reach ecstatically
for sunlight
would be the absolute
bliss of unbeing.
I should probably
draft an actual will.
Inheritance – Caitlin Downs(she/they)
The cells of the damned
carry holes eaten
into human fabric
by the moths of
traumatic inheritances.
Empty vaults
have broken links
waiting to be filled
with endless replications.
There is an echo
in this internal chamber
absent any ammunition
to fight off replications.
It is loaded instead
with abundant heartbeats
aimed at the absence
trailing the deceased.
Non-Binary – Caitlin Downs(she/they)
Do you remember, cousin,
conversing about the witch hairs
on our chins? Not at home in myself,
the compound word to describe me
didn’t exist when I first needed it,
and it sure as hell couldn’t account for
the state of errant body hair.
Instead, I grasped weakly at the idea
of being a person first and only,
or romanticized the prospect of
becoming disembodied consciousness.
To no longer be tethered
to anatomy determined identity
(or an animate skeleton covered in
networks of blood running through stacks
of meat and sinew and keratin
bound together by skin)
was an attractive prospect.
The puberty we were living through
promised physical distinctions
forever marking a body femme.
I wasn’t ready for the cramps
and the scars and the sex
expected of me.
Mauvaise Femme – Caitlin Downs(she/they)
I’ve never been good at sisterhood.
Is that because I rejected womanhood?
Have no interest in motherhood?
I can say this much for myself—
my response to the overturning
of Roe v. Wade was to menstruate—
to make sure my birth control worked
and my uterus remained barren.
I live a partial life in knowing
that by some backward social logic,
all of the responsibility for maintaining
a childless lifestyle is on me; yet,
my ability to take responsibility
for what happens to my body
can be stripped away
if I accidentally conceive.
Removable rights, rescinded autonomy
over my personhood—all clear inequality
based on biology and absent
of freedom of choice.
Lexicons – Shannon Vare Christine(she/her)
INTRADUZÍVEL /adj. Portuguese/untranslatable
his S-shaped
self morphs /
Z / F / D / C / L? / D? /
Snellen / Line 11 /
she hardly remembers / his lowercase days / lispy vowels / misunderstood meanings / sing-song rhymes /daily riddles
he became / cannot be translated / a non-fluent language / hard consonants / misplaced punctuation / labyrinthine diction / bussin’ not busted / sheesh! having a comeback / no one wants a pick-me girl / to be cheugy / IYKYK IDK IRL / sksksksksksksksssss
How much / single words weigh /
pink / speckled / joy / unearthed / lost /
Parisian market / locket / preserved artifact / cupped hollow / winged / grave /
yellowed /paper / curled
crumpled / Crayola 64 /
she sweep dusts / dresser finds /
/ his six-year-old-squiggled ladybug sketch /
Coccinellids contain / seven joys / seven sorrows
close eyes five / seconds longer / hold on
/ elytra lift / gossamer unfolds /
MUBBLE FUBBLES /n. English/melancholic state – Shannon Vare Christine(she/her)
While folding wash organizing the stacks lights darks under outer
Sorting neatly ready to be homed stray sock dingy drawers
Netflix streams play her one-sided companions these black-and-white days.
Unlimited hours more than twenty-four once-craved quiet suffocates.
Shake lonely black cut-off top free from
static clingy concert tees and singled socks.
Switch loads wet to dry, basket
to fold, line hung wet to dry,
basket to fold, load load. Kids’ clothes-strangers visitors from their new life.
Van’s psychedelic mushroom tee.
Wrinkle-washed fifty stuck to jeans.
Red lace thong. Calvin boxer briefs.
No more Wonder Woman No more grass-stained Toy
Story mud puddle-caked rag ready.
Memory avalanches she should have hid count to ten again! again! Find me!
Regret rocks cascade sad-slides suffocate. She is a breathless chores robot.
Laundry cairns guide could have listened
to one more story, more games, more fun
more more always more, blocks her