- When I smoked, most people didn’t know that I smoked. But the ones that knew I smoked, basically defined me as a smoker- They would say that I smoked more weed than anyone that they knew. And they probably weren’t wrong about that- At first I thought is cool being the weed smoker. Like I was in this rarified club. But after awhile, I didn’t feel that way. If anything I felt embarrassed if others knew that I smoked- Now I’ve only been clean from weed for 152 days. But I don’t think of myself as a smoker anymore. It doesn’t define me anymore. Weed is not a part of my life anymore- For me, I couldn’t smoke weed casually. For it me, it was all consuming. Weed really did define me. It’s nice not being defined by weed anymore