"I just felt like, in that moment, I can't move forward in being a physician. Because you know to be honest I was fixated on her mortality, and I really thought I can't exist in my old life, you know, after this."On this week's episode I talk with Dr. Kashi Goyal, a pulmonary and critical care fellow at Ohio State University, about her experience having her daughter Anika who was born with a congenital rhabdomyosarcoma. We talk about wanting to quit medicine, her decision to go back, what it was like being a trainee having a daughter at home who was going through chemotherapy, how the COVID19 pandemic made things even more challenging and complicated, and how today she and her family are thriving and profoundly happy.